was soll ich machen?

our last morning together

andi is asleep. what shall i do now?





normally, i would be busy cooking lunch for dani and mak...tapi dorang tak de. and i seriously dont have the appetite to eat. i ate roti tadi..tu pon because i was thinking of andi..since he gets all his nutrition from me kan?





sigh. i dont feel like being in this house. everywhere i turn, it reminds me of dani.





that spoon near the chair pon reminds me of him...pretending to cook for me, how he pretend my laptop is the bankomat....dia duduk atas kerusi and pretended that it was a car, terbalikkan laundy basket and pretended that it was a motorbike, how he'd run and greet me at the door when i come back from class, how we would then watch buletin utama sama2, followed by a series and cooking show. how he'd minum susu ounce atas mama..and berebut to have mama dgn andi. oh...he also terbalikkan stool and pretends to vacuum.; when my vacuum rosak,and i had to sweep,he too, pretended to sweep.





and buat construction.and teman buang sampah. pi beli ice cream at the nearby shop. main fren. buat rumah. his handphone. his camera. his tickets. his wallet. haiwan teladan, chef jo. chef firdaus. chef zam. ain. matahari. tekan2 laptop.





i miss dani. i hope i will never forget all the little things he said that made me happy.





i love you dani. be a good boy ok.