emotional independence

Being emotionally independent is important for women. But, to be honest, i think it is not our nature to be emotionally independent. We always need someone to talk to, someone to give our daily updates, to mengadu.

I think, i am very independent in a lot of aspects, but i lack emotional independence. I still feel the need to talk to dr sunshine every day.

But, i think i need to change. I need to try to be emotionally independent. I need me to be a better me. I need to love me.

It is not easy..but after thinking reaallllyyyy hard about this, i think being emotionally dependent only will cause you to feel like you are unloved or not taken care off bila the other person is busy. Jadi, elakkan dari have any type of expectation.

Just be.

Pasti

Oh hati, tolonglah bertenang.
Kadang-kadang rasa macam tersisih. Kadang-kadang rasa macam apa lagi yang tak cukup.
Kadang-kadang rasa macam i am not that desperate
Kadang-kadang rasa, kalau dah macam tu, apa yang istimewa tentang status i?
Kadang-kadang rasa semua tak kena
Kadang-kadang rasa kecewa.
Patah hati.
Putus asa.

Tapi, selalu ingat.

Allah only tests you because Allah knows you can handle it.

And.

With great trials and tribulations there is great reward.

Janji Allah itu pasti.

Alhamdullilah.

going cuckoo

at times, I feel like I am going cuckoo. And no, it is not funny.

You see, I know I choose to win him over.

But, there are times that I will be paranoid and playing games in my own head. I imagine things and etc.

Sometimes, my instinct is sooooo strong but I have no way to be certain that it is true. It sucks.

My head works overtime. My sleep is disturbed. I cannot stop thinking.

I dont know when all this will end.

Tapi I will always remember what a dear friend said: Allah maha adil.

InshaAllah, I will reap what I earn.

I pray that Allah make me the best wife for him.

I also pray that Allah makes him appreciate all that I have done and make him be aware of his priorities. InshaAllah.