rindunye

rindunya pada Dr Sunshine.

rindunya pada Andi dan Dani.

rindunya pada Mak.

rindunya pada Daddy.

Semalam, termenangis ingatkan Daddy. I know its not good to cry bila ingatkan arwah, tapi ter. Maka,terus I minta tolong Dr Sunshine pergi visit kubur Daddy.

Hari ini, hari terakhir dalam 2011.

2011 has been the year that I think I was most productive! I attended a lot of classes (about 60 credits worth ok!! in a year!!), wrote my thesis, beranak, renovate rumah.

i hope to go back in 2012 with a phd, inshaAllah.

Dan, i nak juga berterima kasih kepada ya Allah sebab berikan i kekuatan to hadapi what I have been through. Thank you so much for giving me a supportive husband. And tadi, masa tengah jalan-jalan dengan Aaron, it dawned to me hikmah Allah berikan ai boys, cos its easier for Dr Sunshine to jagakan. betul tak?

Anyway, I am in the midst of writing my final chapter, the conlcusion. Actually, I have been lazy and putting it off for the longest time. Ni,dah nak habis tahun 2011 baru tergocoh-gocoh nak siapkan. tsk. I hope I would be able to finish it today, cos next year (which is technically just esok) i dah kena start on my other assignments. :)

here's to the new year and to getting that phd!!!

sharing is caring #3

Firstly, Selamat Tahun Baru!!!

Ok, untuk sesi sharing is caring kali ni, I nak share dengan uols info terbaru yang I dapat. Apakah??

Pasal persekolahan anak-anak. hehe.

You see, I have been reading up about schools, because I just want to get more information on the types of schools available for Dani to masuk darjah 1. The more I read, the more interested I was on Sekolah Rendah Agama Integrasi (SRAI) which is available in some parts of Selangor. I think there are less than 15 such schools in all of Selangor.

Anyway, kenapa ai interested dengan sekolah ini? Because, it integrates normal school dengan sekolah agama. Hence, schooling hours is from about 8 to 4. Masa rehat pagi tu, lepas makan, ada solat dhuha. Masa rehat tengah hari tu, lepas makan, everyone solat asar. Best kan?

These schools are kelolaan JAIS, I think kategori sekolah bantuan penuh kot, but i am not sure. Tapi yang pasti, dia bukan private school, hence the fees adalah affordable. Nak masuk sekolah ni, ada entrance exam. Mainly because the number of people yang apply masuk are about 400 plus and they only take in about 150. So its really competitive, hence the need to organise for an entrance exam. The application to sit for the exam is usually announced in April and the exam itself will be in May, tahun sebelum anak uols masuk sekolah. Contohnya Dani will masuk darjah 1 in 2013, hence his exam will be in 2012.

I was looking high and low pasal format exam ni, and yang i jumpa dia dok kata banyak soalan yang suruh the kids suaikan, ada tanya maths, english, bm, jawi, arab. Arab?? yikes...terus sedikit panik di situ sebab anak ai tak belajar bahasa arab. Then, 2 days ago, i came across farwina's blog, left a comment and she was extremely kind!!! She shared with me some info.

Apparently, ada buku latihan yg spesifik bertajuk persediaan kemasukkan sekolah rendah agama integrasi. So, sesiapa yang berminat, boleh purchase the book.

Secondly, antara subjek yg budak2 akan belajar is: bm, bi, maths, pjk, bahasa arab K, bahasa arab J, tilawah, hafazan, sains, pendidikan islam, tauhid, jawi, feqah, akhlak, muzik, seni.

Needless to say, I am quite excited. hehe. But at the same time, I am quite worried cos Dani has no Arabic background. So, what I did was to tell my sis to bgtahu ustazah mengaji to teach him baca jawi. I hope sempat laaa by May, inshaAllah.

By the way, walaupun you are interested to send your kid to this school, you should still register him at the normal sekolah kebangsaan. Sebab kalau dia tak dapat tempat kat SRAI, u dah ada back up school for him.

Having said that, pemilihan sekolah totally depends on how you want to mold your kids. Ada argue that sending Dani to a sekolah agama at such a young age nanti buat dia tak kenal other cultures and mungkin tak bagi dia peluang to socialise with the other races. I thought about it as well, but bottom line for me is for Dani to have a good foundation in religion. He is also quite interested dengan hafal ayat and etc, so I think this is a good option for him. I also thought of sending him for some fun extra axtivity, so that he will be able to socialise with the other races. tapi tengoklah. tennis ke, swimming ke. hehe.

Plus, ada je Malays yang hantar their kids to sekolah cina and tamil, so that their kids will acquire a 3rd language (but dani will be learning arabic, so thats a third language as well). Thats cool as well. And ada yang siap research sekolah mana within their tempat tinggal yang the population of Malays, chinese and Indian are well represented sebab nak anak dia ala-ala 1 Malaysia. Pon ok, sebab honestly, I pon nk my sons to berkawan dengan everyone and not stereotype people.

So, pikirlah bebetul masa nak pilih sekolah. I have been researching about this since Dani was 5. Hover kan? wakakakakaa....

melagha

yes. dah tiga hari saya tak buat kerja. kenapa? sebab MALAS!!!

homaigawd. dah nak akhir tahun. tapi thesis tak siap siap!!

saya tinggal nak tulis conclusion jer uols!!! tapi tahap kemalasan tu, ya Rabbi. memang melampaui batas ok.

and, the thing is, i know that i malas!! tapi tetapla dok google apa nak beli for my trip to Paris nanti dan perkara-perkara yang tak berfaedah.

saya sungguh tak sedar diri okeh.


sebab, in january, saya kena prepare utk 1 presentation, 1 paper to submit, 1 exam dan juga nak submit thesis, inshaAllah.

On top of that, January jugaklah saya nak berjimba jimba. erkk...cemana nie??? *pengsan*

anyway, sebab nak happykan diri, i nak citer apa i plan to buy kat Paris, ok?

1. Pisau potong ayam jenama laguiole something like this http://www.laguiole-attitude.com/en/kitchen-knife/39-expression-luxury-kitchen-knife.html

2. sautee pan dekat kedai ini

3. cute kitchen stuff dekat sini.

4. a painting at one of the kedais along seine

5. macaroons

6. eat lots of chocolate croisant from blu sucre

7. cute coasters.

err...tu je that i can think of so far.

okla..maybe i should start doing my work. :)

7. have the best falafel in the world (kata new york times)

my little men

Dani

He is now soooooo into reading and spelling. Sekarang, he insists on chatting (as in typing what he wants to say) instead of talking to me on skype. Mula-mula, he started off with typing some random words like polis, up, down, insert (yes...ni dia tiru apa yang dia tengok dari keyboard computer..hehe). Then, as the week progresses, he started typing out questions (which he has prepared earlier with the help from Along, but dia tulis sendiri and Along tolong check je) like Aaron dah minum susu ke? Mama apa khabar?. And now, after about two weeks, he tries to type out his answers to the questions I throw at him like dah makan ke belum? Makan apa hari ni? I really think that this is a good spelling exercise *matila mama dia kiasu..hehe*

Other than that, Dr Sunshine bought his school bag already. :) Mula-mula he wanted the beg yang roda-roda but we (read: Dr Sunshine and me) thought that it wasn't cool (yes, mak bapak dia yang over! wakakaka) and Dr Sunshine brought him shopping the other day and he chose a non-roda bag. *phew!

Andi

Ha...apparently, this boy is getting cheekier by the day, according to my mom and Along. Katanya, he always cries to get things done his way but thank god my sis nor my mom give in to his cries!! Ada this one night ni, dia mengada and insisted nak baring on my mom's lap. And, because he had a good long nap that day, sampai pukul 1am pon dok nak baring atas lap dan tak tidur2 lagi. Nasib Along woke up and gave him a good talking to, barula dia nak tidur. Needless to say, I reported the kejadian to the Papa and he was told to not do that (bully my mom by sleeping on her lap) again.

So today, masa skype, he went on and on to tell me that he has been a very good boy today.

Andi: Mama...saya good boy tau hari ni. Good boy...
Me: Iye? Andi buat apa yang Andi good boy?
Andi: Hari ni saya tidur kat bawah.Tak tidur atas mak pon.Saya good boy
Me: Ooohh....bagus la Andi. Andi memang good boy. Anak mama memang good boy kan. Very good Andi.
Andi: *muka happy*

Tetapi, Andi is also quite lasak. Tadi dia cerita:

Andi: Mama, hari ni saya jatuh la mama.
Me: Macam mana boleh jatuh?
Andi: Sebab saya panjat grill, pastu jatuh.
Me: Errkk....(dalam hati dok kata..tadi baru je mama cakap good boy)

And, Andi bahasakan diri dia as Saya. But Dr Sunshine is trying to make him bahasakan diri as Andi. I personally think there is nothing wrong with him referring to himself as saya. hehe. its kinda cute actually. :)

Aaron
Oh, anak saya ini sekarang dah boleh membuat tour satu bilik. Masa dia belum expert mengesot, he is easily bored and slalu nak attention from me. Contohnya, he wakes up pretty early, like at 5.30am. Kadang-kadang 4.30am pon pernah. Kalau dulu, lepas dia bangun dan golek-golek kejap and main dengan his toys, sure I dengar dia o-ek. But now, he can go for a long time without crying. I can continue with my sleep (tapi kena make sure la dekat carpet tak de small items which he can put into his mouth and that the place is clean). He will usually start to bunyi-bunyi if he has done no 2 or dah ngantuk. :)

And, sekarang, he can sometimes fall asleep without susu. :) Lepas tu, you know at times babies wake up in the middle of the night? Well dulu automatically I bagi him susu. But now, he wakes up, and sometimes can fall asleep balik by himself. :) Macam tadi, I baru bagi dia susu, n he fell asleep. So I pon start la menaip kan. After a while, i heard him talking. Yes, he woke up and was moving around. I buat tak kisah. Pastu I dengar senyap je. So I turned around and saw him asleep. hehe. Alhamdulillah.

Oh, he has also started eating. I bagi dia nestum thingy. I dah try 2 flavour: pear&muesli and strawberry. He loves the srrawberry and tak suka Muesli. I rasa kan, maybe sebab yg straberry tu is also infused with milk whereas the pear-muesli tu tak. So esok, I ingat nak beli biscuit flavour pulak which was Andi's favourite dulu-dulu. :) Once, I made bubur with salmon but he does not like it!! hmm...maybe sebab salmon tu tak berapa fresh kot. Tapi I dah pesan ikan bilis from my mom. So nanti i can buat bubur ikan bilis.

p.s: after shielding my first two boys from coffee since they were babies, dr sunshine terbagi depa minum toffee nut latte. hmm...they loved it to bits. Aaron pulak dah rasa sikit-sikit kot from the milk. wakakakakak...

bila satu pintu tutup, pintu lain yg buka

uols,

i did not tell you all that i got an email last week from a reputable journal saying that my paper was not accepted for publication. :( needless to say, i was devatated. yela..ingat nak gak la kumpul2 journal articles so that bila balik nanti, cepat la sikit can baik pangkat. Namun, harapanku hancur berkecai gittew!! I was really dissapointed with myself and at one point, I even doubted my ability to write. over kan??

Tula. Siapa suruh set hopes up high sangat? Tapi orang kata, aim for the moon, if tak dapat moon, can still be among the stars.

Anyway, before this, i ada juga terima email, for a call for paper, to be published in a book. Its a joint effort by some European universities to provide a platform for post grad students to publish their work. But, I did not send in my abstract for that book because I already send that paper in for that journal kan. Maka, tak semena-mena, dua2 ai terlepas okeh!!! Tapi, you know what I did? I tebalkan je muka and send an email to the book editor tu, cakap, can I still submit my abstract even though deadline dah about 2 weeks ago. And he said yes!!!

So, I pon hantaq la abstract of my rejected journal article ittew, sebab dah kena reject kan by that journal.

And...today, I got my christmas present cos I just recieved an email saying that my abstract was among the 20 they selected. Alhamdullillah.

Sungguh pon, it would not be considered as a journal article and only a chapter in a book, I am still thankful and grateful for the opportunity. It will be a collaboration of people from all over the world, and I am pretty excited!!!

deadline for the manuscript is end of april. :)

ok..now back to editing my chapter. it is the last chapter to edit, before I start with my concluding chapter, tomorrow, inshaAllah.

Semoga semua dipermudahkan.

p.s: uwaaaaaaaa...nangis tengok bag MBMJ idaman hati on sale di neiman marcus punye website. hmm..kenapa laaa sini tak se sale macam tu? Apa pon, I am still going to try my luck and visit a local department store esok, usha2..mana tau ada sale kan!!! Plus, need to return a blouse to mng...and shop for some more. i am in a mission of collecting baju kerja as well. hehe.

sharing is caring #2

Sesi sharing is caring hari ini amat sesuai bagi semua orang, tidak kiralah sama ada anda adalah suri rumah yang tidak menang tangan dengan pelbagai house chores, mahu pon single mingle tapi tak de time nak fix a meal. Apakah??

How to make an easy pease pizza in 15 minutes!!!!!

Just make sure you have this in your pantry!

Tortilla roll or pita roll
Cheese
Spaghetti sos dalam botol (tapi guna tomato sauce pon boleh ajer)
tuna in a can

How to?
Spread tomato sauce/spaghetti sauce on to tortilla
spread tuna fillings
tabur cheese
bake in toaster or oven for about 7 minutes.
siap
MAKAN!!!

senang kan? senang kan? sedap pon sedap. You can use a variety of topping. Kadang-kadang, I rendam fresh udang before hand pastu time nak buat tu, kopek kulit and put it on the tortilla. SOmetimes, I cut up nugget pieces or sausages. Or if you have some left over ayamg goreng, can shred it. Or, pecah telur kat atas pon sedap gak!!!

Cuba try. Senang giller!!! Kalau nak buat for dinner, maybe can serve it with fries and salad. If for breakie, makan macam tu pon boleh.

Oh...there's also a sweet version. Potong pisang, spread gula and cheese (tak payah tomato sauce). SEDAAPPP...i rasa if lepas dah bakar tu letak chocolate sauce sure lagi heaven.

OK. Sila try!!!

tatuttt

hari ni mengerah tenaga to edit chapter 4 (which is now named chapter three). aiyoo...letih jugak ye, bila nak buat tables of contents semua tu, the numbering etc.

anyway, i tell you, dalam proses editing ni, terbanyak pula benda yang digodek dan ditukar. hehe. o well. i hope it makes sense. pasni nak godek chapter 5 and 6 (which would soon be chapter 4 and 5). i only have till this weekend to finish it. Pastu dah kena start writing my conclusion, by hook or by crook, senin dah kena start!!

Tahu tak pesal apa ai tatutt (andispeak: takut)?? sebab, january 17th, ada presentation dan jan 31st ada assignment nak kena submit and somewhere in january tu, ada exam!!! aiyaa.......rasa nak pengsan pon ada. tsk.

Yang terlebih cuak adalah kerana my friend will be comming from 20-29. am obviously going to entertain her and i forsee that i will not be doing any work!!! so, technically, i only have till the 20th to settlekan my assignment ittew. haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa. tu belum masuk part presentation. but, i dah rasa mcm nak ambil isi dari my lecture from last summer to be used for the presentation. hehe. but still, i need to write it up, prepare powerpoint. tsk. die die die. maka, tu yang buat i cuak terlebih.yang assignment tu lagila uols!!! tak prepare apa benda pon. soalan pon ala-ala ingat-ingat gittew jer. tsk.

Oh..ditambah pula bulan jan akan jumpa SV dan finally discuss my hopefully finished thesis. So, dalam kepala saya, saya rasa macam akan submit it earliest in february.

Sis might come in february and we might be going to istanbul. hehe.

OKla...i think i should go prepare dinner and start editing sikit. :)

plan baru

have just finished editing my chapter 1. I have decided to merge my chapter 1 and chapter 2 together...hehe. Anyway, thats done, for now.

Esok, am dropping aaron off to his nenek angkats so that I can edit my chapter 4 and 5, inshaAllah. I think this is the best way because I really need my own time to be able to fully concentrate in editing. I did that last Tuesday and managed find some flaws and things which I need to correct. So, esok will do just that.

Bila balik rumah, barula type semula segala corrections ittew.

I am waayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy over my deadline!!! Apa pon, plan to start writing my conclusion by this weekend and have it ready, inshaAllah by the new year.

New year pulak, I must start on my assignments which i kena submit on 31 jan. Tapi besfren is coming from 20-29 jan and kami akan ke Paris. So, by hook or by crook, I must finish it before 20th. Pastu nak study for exam lagi. uwaaaaa....I can do this, right???

okla...nak tidur. need to wake up early tomorrow.

Semoga kita semua berjaya geng!!!

oh oh

yes. sekali lagi berjaya melepas deadline yang telah dibuat oleh diri sendiri. *tepuk tangan secara sakarstik*

today, I finally got to touch up my chapter 1 only to find out that it needs a lot of work. I just finished touching up but am now wondering if it needs to be peppered with more references and lit reviews. Tapi kan, bukan apa. Most of the lit reviews says the same things anyways so what I did was to select a few which said what I thought was needed. OK la kan? Hmm..Lagi satu, I macam nampak tak ada flow but tak leh fikir how to make sure it flows. Ke sebab dah baca banyak kali sampai tak nampak?

Then, I started on my tables of contents, tapi hanya ada chapter 1 aje on it. I thought that I will update it everytime I have done editing the respective chapters. Am up to chapter two pulak esok. Chapter two is kinda ok, except that I need to write a whole new conclusion for that chapter. Sebab apa? Sebab conclusion tu, lebih kurang sama macam my aims and rationales of thesis, which I used in chapter 1. So, I will devote my time to do that esok, and also edit that chapter dan buat penambah baikan. *chewah*

Next, is my chapter three. Chapter three ni, ada benda sikit nak tambah rasanya. Tapi sikit-sikit saje sebab this is one of the recent chapters I wrote which has been edited a few times already.

Chapter four tu, I rasa will take quite a while to edit because I wrote it quite a while ago. Then five and six, also quite recent so should be able to do it quite fast. Lepas habis semua, akan mula tulis chapter 7. I hope to finish chapter 7 by Dec 26. Then, I will have until the new year to edit, update references and etc. Mula tahun baru, I will have to concentrate on my essay which is due on 31st of jan as well as my presentation on 12 jan AND exam tak tahu berapa hari bulan. Dalam pada itu, ada juga plan untuk berjimba dgn bestfrenKT. woot woot. A well deserved break, I think. My sis pula may come in Feb and I am persuading her to agree to pergi bercuti di Istanbul. hih hih.

Oklah. bila pikir pasal holiday, rancak je kepala otak. Tapi bila pasal pelajaran..mak aii..lamabt sikit. tsk tsk.

Oklah. Esok ingat ye diri sendiri. Edit chapter 2 and tulis conclusion dan kalau boleh, start on chapter 3!! Come on come on.

sharing is caring #1

u ols!!!

mak rasa every saturday mak akan kelolakan ruangan sharing is caring, gittew!!!

Untuk kali pertama ni, meh mak sharing-is-caring-kan citer pasal masalah tumit kaki yang merekah.

kalau nak tahu, kaki mak kan memang kasar gittew kat bahagian tumit, nak-nak dalam cuaca sejuk-sejuk dingin nieh. Makanya, before this, mak memang dah try krim kaki scholl dan vaseline dan juga satu produk ni jenama douglas. Walaupun mak rajin letak everyday, perubahan tu tak nampak uols. Cuma vaseline tu je la kot ada ala-ala skit...yang lelain tu, nan hado!!!

Sonyer, one day, tetiba masuk kedai l'occitane lepas sesi berkopi di starbucks. Then, mula-mula ingat nak beli dia punya almond oil, konon nak gunakan at my feet lah kan. Tapi iols tanya juga kat SA tu, apa produk yang seswai untuk dry feet at cracked heels. Dia terus menghala ke arah suatu corner, dan bagi dekat mak one silver colour tube. Apekah???

Ia adalah dry skin foot cream with 15% shea butter. Mak pon beli la kan (I think it was 22euros) sambil berkata dalam hati, it better be worth the price I paid for!!! Tapi dalam hati juga macam tak la konfiden sangat that it will work.

And so, I tried it on every night and sometimes before going out. Kadang-kadang ada juga culas. But I tell you, I can so see the difference, even mak baru guna 2 weeks!!! My feet is soft!!!! I felt the difference even after only a week of usage. serius beb.

So, if you have masalah like me,silalah try l'occitane dry skin foot cream with 15% shea butter (150ml). Memanglah pricey sikit but it is worth it! Plus, I think that tube can last for quite a while.

Harini, iols pi beli pulak hand cream dia. I hope it will do its magic!!!

Getting there

Saya baru sahaja selesai proses me-rekonstruk chapter 5. :)

I thought of reconstructing my chapter 6 juga tapi while doing it decided that it is best if I stick to the one I have now. Maka, dengan ini, saya officially tinggal chapter 7 and that wee bit in chapter 1! unless i change my mind, again, somewhere in between

Esok, I am going to leave budak kecik at the baby sitter and will have a group discussion for a presentation. Ingat, sambil tu nak curi masa ke uni pi print chapters 1 to 6 and pinjam buku before the xmas hols. Then, I plan to re-edit the chapters and write out the wee bit for chapter 1.

I aim to start writing my conclusion by Saturday, inshaAllah. We can do this girls!!! *hi five oyis, nat, iezma and et*

btw, hnm dah start sale katanya!!! bila zara nak sale ek??

pressure

is it just me or memang the closer you are to the finish line, the more unsure you are of yourself?? *sigh*

anyway, i met my sv yesterday and i told him how i keep on rewriting my chapters because i was not sure of how to best present it. He assured me that it was normal. Then, we decided that once I finished writing everything, we will talk over it, and I can do the neccessary corrections. At this rate, I am not really sure when I will be submitting it. Tapi, jauh di sudut hati, I think its better to submit something good rather than buat rush2 and hantar yang biasa-biasa je, kan?? So yea...my aim is to finish writing everything, including my conclusion chapter by this month. I would love to be able to present to my sv the complete thesis during our next meeting.

Today, I felt too tired to even look at my thesis. haih. cemana nak habis ni? I tell you, my chapter five is almost almost done. Then, I think i want to refine my chapter 6 and start writing my conclusion chapter.

Apa pon, I must finish it before new years. Sebab come January, I would have to prepare for a presentation, one assignment and an exam. *yikes*

Anyway, one good news which came out from my meeting with SV was, he said he's going to make me his Malaysian partner!!!! He is in the midst of preparing a proposal for a collaboration with malaysia. He wants to set up a media lab or something like that, and he will take me in!!! woot woot.

I had class today, and the profesor is one of my favourite. Anyway, she actually told me that I could bring Aaron to class. hehe. Dia juga cakap to tell my SV that she wants to sit in my examination committee. *matila!!!!

Right now, all I want to do is to finish this thesis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya Allah, permudahkan urusanku, please.

I am soooooooooooooooo tired.

And rasa guilty hari ni sebab tak sentuh kerja. but im so tired. tomorrow is a brand new day and i shall finish bab 5 esok, inshaAllah.

confused again!

argghhh....

i am confused. I am already in the midst of reconstructing my chapters when I suddenly feel that maybe i should not reconstruct it and just let it be!! haiyaaa....

ok. pendapat uols amat dialu alukan!

in the first version, i divided my chapters (ni i citer pasal findings saja ye) according to the methods I utilised. My content analysis was conducted to mainly discuss about the notion of cultural imperialism through television text in times of modernity.

My focus group discussion pula is to find out how they construct meanings from what they watch. So I divided this chapter into a few sub topics which actually shows the flow in which how they construct meanings, with relations to their cultural identity.

So, tiba-tiba last week terbaca thesis orang lain and terus cuak kan??? LOL.

So, in the second version, I thought that I should chop the chapters up and mish mash everything to indicate the things i want to emphasise on. But, now, masa tengah buat ni, I find that it does not make sense!! hmm...or am i not making sense?

Sebab, if ikut my first version, I will discuss balik the findings from both methods in my concluding chapter. So, dalam conclusion ni nanti, i akan spell out the answer to my research question and also bagitahu what are my contributions.

Kalau ikut new version, konon-konon each chapter will cerita terus contribution ittew tapi bila i tulis tu, rasa macam tak best je. Macam tak de flow je rasa tau.

So, what will you do if you were in my shoes? Stick with the old version? Or go for the new one??

on the way

I am still in the midst of reconstructing my chapter five. *wipes sweat*

Today, for the first time ever, Dr Sunshine buat locum kat private hospy. We have been wishing for this for a long time. Getting this gig would hopefully mean more locums, and hopefully locum kat ot plak next. Why is this important? Because this is one of the ways for him to network. Nanti, bila dah jadi specialist, bolehlah, inshaAllah bukak klinik kat private juga. But locum today ni, dia kena tidur kar hospy tu. Macam on call la juga tapi since there is only one patient, he gets to rest. Esok, dia oncall plaks. haih.

Okla. I want to finish my chapter five by esok. So that I can start on chapter 6 and 7.

Tried to feed Aaron mashed bananas tadi, tapi dia tak nak la....i mixed it with milk. hm...takpela.esok pagi try bagi nestum pula. and I can have goreng pisang! hihi.

re-writing

And so I have decided to restructure my thesis so that it will illustrate my arguments better.

I am actually freaking out and at times I feel like its a crazy step to take but I think I need to do this in order to produce a good thesis. Tak kan la nak hentam keromo, just for the sake of finishing it, kan?

And so, I will begin writing (again!). I really really hope I will finish as I aimed. Aim, end of the year, inshaAllah. Lepas tu nak submit, tunggu review and apply for viva.

Ya Allah, permudahkanla urusanku. Please let Aaron behave and understand that I need to do my work.

orait...lets do this gang!

takut

today, while searching for journal articles for one of my assignments, i came across a phd theses online. I skimmed through it and suddenly, ai rasa TAKUT!!!!

ohmygawd!!!

kenapa takut? kenapa?

sebab, i rasa thesis yg ditulis oleh mamat ittew tersangatlah bombastik pengunaan wordsnya.

Takpe ke eh, if guna simple words sajer? Ishh..risaunyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

PAstu, pasal pembahagian chapters. You see, I choose to divide my chapters according to its purpose. Contoh:

chapter 1: intro

chapter 2: malaysian society

chapter 3: theoretical framework

chapter 4. methods

chapter 5 findings

chapter 6 findings

chapter 7 conclusion

takpe ke ek? haiyaa...risaunyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sempoi sangat ke ek if divide chapter cenggitu? atau, yang penting adalah contribution kita to society? hmm...*garu kepala*

Anyway, I am planning to complete my chapter 1 esok tapi ada masalah kecik yang agak besar. Iaitu, masalah citation dimana ai telah cited an author, tapi kat my writing tu, ada year saje dan page number non ado. haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *ketuk kepala*

I hope to start my chapter 7 by Friday, inshaAllah.

Anyway, tak pe ke ek tulis simple2 jer? Ke I jer rasa simple sebab dah spuloh juta kali baca. TSK. How niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......................

Lepastukan, tetiba rasa,cukup ke buku2 yang i baca. Of course it will never be cukup kan. Tapi pastu datang pula suara hati kata, if baca banyak2 pon, you cannot put everything in your disertation.

Kawan-kawan yang dalam boat yang sama *lambai-lambai to Oyis, Kayla, Eti, Iezma*, how are you people doing? Is this something usual to worry about? Is it? Is it?

selesai!

ok....i have finished writing my chapter 3. So uols, I only have my chapter 7 left and 1 small part of my chapter 1 (organisation of thesis punye subtopic).

Esok, I am going to print out my chapter 5 and chapter 3. Pastu, the next few days, I plan to edit and proofread the chapters (including chapter 6 yang dah print tapi tak edit lagi). Lepas tu, buat pembetulan di mana perlu.

Then, after i dah buat pembetulan, I plan to print everything out again...so that I can read it as a whole thesis. Then, corrections again and I plan to proceed writing my conclusion. I somehow think my conclusion chapter holds the important key to the whole of my thesis because it is in this chapter that i plan to carefully illustrate my contribution to knowledge. risau la jugak because I sometimes rasa tak confident if I can get my points across.

I am still wrecking my brain in thinking how to tie everything together. So hopefully, the process of editing and rereading every chapters accordingly will help me connect the dots and direct my thoughts. :)

I sound so geeky kan.

Alhamdullillah. I really really hope to finish by this month. Now, I rasa that I should not rush myself sangat. I am now thinking of using my winter holidays to re-edit, proof read, check formats and etc and submit it as soon as the semester reopens. I just want to make sure that everything is perfect, well, to me la at least kan.

Tapi, if ada rezeki for me to habis cepat this writing, I would be really really grateful.

Ok tu jer.

Other than going to uni to print out the chapters esok, I plan to rest! and maybe go to a bazaar. tengoklah cemana. :)

Alhamdullillah.

kali pertama dalam 31 tahun!!

today, i changed my first ever light bulb. i know,mungkin uols dah biasa buat tapi this is my first time and i thought i should put it in writing.

if kat rumah, sure i lembik dan akan minta dr Sunshine yang tukarkan when he gets back from work. LOL.

tapi dah duduk sendiri ni, terpaksala kan. Last time when the lights in my room blew, i had to panggil orang lain to tukarkan cos i was heavily pregnant and tak berani nak panjat2 kerusi precariously to change it.

Tapi kali ini, i beranikan diri (altho there is the fear that I will fall sampai ingat maybe i should call my friend first in case anything happen to me, ada la orang tahu kan...wakakak...tapi i tak call pon) and stood at the tip of the chair to change my light bulb. dah la vertically challenged..LOL.

anyway, cannot wait to be my lembik self kat Malaysia nanti. LOL. I miss my husband.

tak ada mood

i brought aaron for his check up today. At 11 days shy of being 6 months, he is 6.77kg and 65cm. I think he is a tall baby because I dukung pon, kaki dia dah melonjong. His length is definitly longer than my torso. Lepas check up tu, nak beratur untuk buat next appointment tu, mengambil masa yang agak lama. I tell you, ada minah ni, siap kena reject lagi oleh klinik ittew sebab i think they are not taking in new patients anymore. Anyhoo, lepas dapat appointment baru, kena la bagi susu. Maka, by the time I left the clinic, it was close to 11. Sempat singgah buat groceries sikit and terus balik to reach home about 12.30. By the time sampai rumah, mood adalah sudah ke laut. uwaaaaaaaaaa

Jauh di sudut hati, memang ada perasaan risau ya amatz like sempatke habis ni...

tapi ada juga kata2 slow and steady wins the race (ni pinjam dari bob the builder).

So here I am, malam2 ni, trying to write because i am worried. huhu.

oklah. saja nak luahkan perasaan.

my bestfren is coming to visit me. woot woot. cannot wait. then we plan to go to venice. :)