hari productive

I felt so productive yesterday. I managed to cross off a lot of things from my to do list.

I have been quite busy this past few weeks. Among the things I have accomplished are:

1. registered Andi for kindy
2. found a babysitter for the boys
3. finished reviewing a journal article
4. finished filling up the frgs form
5. found cleaner for house
6. exterminator pon dah jumpa!!
7. settlekan pasal keluar duit from kwsp to bayar loan rumah
8. tempah rubber stamp for AD...senang iols..nanti chop chop nama ajer.
9. beli pakaian sekolah AD and his books
10. got AA his school bag.
11. settlekan document for 51
12. photocopy stuff for AA and AD's school.
13. submit my claims

I feel so lega....especially after I found the babysitter and registered AA for kindy. AA loooovvveeessss his kindy, so I am very happy.

Now, I need to:
1. ambil passport pix of the boys
2. finish up my book chapter for kom
3. finish up book chapter for w&phd
4. beli jam for AD
5. print out form and cv.

ok..ittew saja. :)

pasal tadika

Oh Emm Gee....susahnya nak cari tadika!!!!

You see, AA will be going to kindy from next year onwards. At first, it was pre decided that he would attend GA since AD did so well over there.

Tapi.....es gibt keine GA ins BSP. How????

Memula....memang nak hantar dia ke TunasPermata...but it was full.

So, I went around BBB looking for a place. Found one Tadika Aulad. Love the kindy, hated the daycare centre!!!! Pusing-pusing lagi, and all the kindy and taska were not up to my fussy standard!!!!

Terus pening ok.

Then, I thought...hmmm....siapa nak jaga Aaron? So, fikir punya fikir, decided to look for babysitter je for Aaron and that Andi can go to the same babysitter lepas habis kindy dia. So...half day kindy je for Andi. Thus begin my search, again!!!

And, Alhamdullillah, I think I found one kindy yang ok, in terms of the silibus used. Its called Smart Soleh. Fees is rm240 for kindy up till 12 (tapi can hantar from 630am and ambil a bit later). The only thing that I am a bit concerned about is that it is located on the 2nd floor of a building so nanti kena climb a lot of stairs. Tapi takpe la kan....excercise. Pelajaran dia macam GA sikit cuma dia ada solat duha every friday and also a show and tell thingy (atas stage uols) to build childrens confidence. I think it will be good for AA. I really hope he will love this kindy. I plan to send Aaron there nanti as well in 2014 when he is 3. So dedua sekali harung kat situ kan.

There was this iium affiliated montessori in BSP. I was quite keen with the school tapi, i didnt really like the fact that they will only start teaching kids how to read when they are 5. Maybe I am part tiger mom kot...wakakakakak....but I really would like AA to start learning his abcs when he is 4. Lagipon, the fees is 350 (but kindy up till 3pm).

I hope it will be a good experience for AA.

On another note, I think I found a babysitter for my babies. I am kind of OK with the place. Will send the boys over beginning esok to see how they can adjust. I hope they will be ok with the place.

patah hati

you know what? sometimes, you think that whatever you watch on cerekerama or drama or movies will not happen to you. Well, it does.

For 3 years, saya berssabar, hoping that he would change. And for that three years, i have been fooled.

Last week, i found out that it was still going on.

Sigh....tak percaya pon ada...How can someone so loving be like that? Tapi dekat dalam drama pon ada, kan? Orang loving dan romantic tapi tiba-tiba??

So, I told his sister and mother about this situation.

Right now, I am praying for the best.

I hope I will find happiness again.

I hope I will learn to trust again. But you know what? After being fooled for so many times, I dont think I can.

Friends told me to act indifferent to get him to come back.

It is so hard.

SO FREAKING DIFFICULT.

:(

shattered into pieces

kadang-kadang, in life, kita kena give in. But how long will you able to do that.

Please. Please remember the promise you made.

I would not hesitate, if it happens again.

:(

dah submit

I have just submitted my 51 application.

Now, I need to settle my laporan tamat cb, 2 thesis to be bound, my claims (flight tix, fees and insurance)

Pastu frgs.

pastu the book chapter.

Nasib baik I haven't started teaching.

Ok...need to finish up the laporan.

p.s: I also feel very efficient today sebab dah buat appointment dgn cleaner, exterminator AND called several kindy and daycare. hehe.

peghak

i am sorry....but i am still quite peghak and giggle like a silly girl (to myself, of course) when people address me as dr.

oh my god.

i still cannot believe i am done. i dah jadi doktor. masih susah nak percaya. masih dalam disbelief. dan masih kembang-kembang hidung bila i am introduced as doktor.

maafkan saya jika saya sound meninggi diri. do you feel like this as well?

masih tak percaya.

as for perkembangan in my ds51 application, i dah dapat persetujuan dari 3 pengadil peribadi, Alhamdullilah. Borang pon actually I dah isi. hehe. Now nak tunggu penjanaan maklumat on my publication and also to get approval of the conferences I attended. Lepas tu dah clear, I nak email my pengadil peribadi again to ask if they have submitted the borang. Lepas tu, I nak hantar borang I.

Then, have to apply for the grant.

okie dokie...have work to do.

p.s: finally got my own room!!

kepulangan

i am back di tanah tumpah darahku. Happy? yes. Sad? yes jugak. I must admit, it is not easy to leave a place i call home for the last 4 years.

Anyway, I reported for duty last Monday. Alhamdullillah, my boss said I could take the week off. I am still jetlagged and need to settle issue penjagaan anak-anak. You tahu, on my first day, I actually woke up at about 5 to get ready because I needed to drop off my babies at my moms all the way in pj before going back to bangi for work. Tiring and of course I was sooooo sleepy throughout my drives.

Semasa cuti seminggu ni, I am taking the opportunity to buy groceries, get my baby used to being left at my moms and also menyediakan dokumen-dokumen berkaitan utk get the ds51.

So, if you are wondering what are the documents needed, here it is.

1. Photocopy of your spm results, degree transcript, masters transcript and phd surat senat
2. cv
3. publication in 1 journal or a book
4. presentation at a conference
5. laporan 3 pengadil
6. slip gaji.

Ok...looks easy kan??? But I tell you, it is so renyaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

Apa yang renyah? Proses nak mengisi maklumat online for the publication and presentation and to have it verified by the uni. Thats the renyah part. Haih...dah 2 hari dah I buat, tak habis2 lagi. Bukan sebab banyak publication, tapi sebab banyak info yang not at hand masa isi borang online tu. Maka, balik rumah nanti i kena isi lagi sekali borang tersebut.

Then, nak cari referee pulak. I already have 1. Need to cari 2 lagi. Contacted another 1. Hope to get her reply soon. Now nak 1 more...tetapi siapa ye?

I hope to settlekan all this thing by this week. Lepas ni, tinggal nak mail the borang pengadil to the pengadil and also wait for my surat senat from uniwien. Haih..lambat betul dorang nak releasekan the letter. No letter, no application. :(

One more thing which I need to do is to print 2 copies of my thesis and submit it to unit latihan. And also,  buat surat for my claims. Takpe, ni lepas the 15th boleh buat.

What else? Oh....and nak kena siapkan proposal for a grant i plan to apply. Tengoklah cemana. Harap2 sempat. Must start working on the proposal cos deadline is nov 15th! *pengsan*

Malam ni nak settlekan the online2 borang stuff. Then will proceed with my grant thingy. Will start on grant thingy inshaAllah esok or lusa. Must start thinking of what to do.

Oklah...i nak pergi beli stationaries sat.

p.s: left phone in wien so i was phoneless for about 3 days. Dr Sunshine bought me a new phone. :))
p.ps: ada prof offer i keje kat diff uni in malaysia. if only.....

last friday in wien

This will be the last friday of my stay in wien. After almost four years, this is THE last friday. :( I still cannot believe it....

Anyway, I bought the handbag I wanted, some crystal stuff, work pants and skirt. Now, nak cari work shirts and blouses at Primark!!! Yes...ada primark kat vienna ni and I am going to go on Monday, inshaAllah.

Esok, I plan to go get my pandora and look see at the MJ handbag I have set my eyes on.

Oh...and should I get a kitchenaid??? Its about 780 euros...but it comes with ALL the accessories. Plus, nanti I can claim VAT. So, should I? Should I???

Selain itu, dah tak de nak shopping dah. Esok dah nak start pack my stuff into boxes. Emm..I wonder how many boxes will it be...hehehhehe

shopping lagi dan lagi

Syukur Alhamdullilah, diberkati dengan kawan kawan yang offer untuk tolong jaga anak masa viva, dan juga sudi ajak saya untuk pi shopping trip at an outlet here!!!

Oh Em Gee.

Masa nak pergi tu, memang dah list down barang nak beli. So, when I went, I terus attacked kedai-kedai yang berkaitan.

Total damage:
wallet for me
wallet for my sisters
handbag sebjik
kasut 5 pasang
hair serum andi 5 botol
cuticle and nail oil thingy
baby lotion
cocottes
spice jars

Banyak kan? Mentang-mentang konon nak treat myself kan?? hambeekk....

Now, tinggal nak beli sebijik lagi handbag, satu kasut yang haritu dah nampak tapi tak beli, and work clothes and also stock baju for the boys, 2 mangkuk V&B (if ada my design) and random hiasan from here (if ada yang berkenan di hati). And esok, nak pi tengok kristal. Nak beli vases to put flowers. Thinking of getting a big one and 2 smaller ones of different sizes tapi tu semua bergantung kepada harga.

Itu sahaja yang tinggal. Now, persoalannya, how to bawa balik semua harta benda mak nenek tu??? *pengsan*

Frau Doktor

Akhirnya, pada 15 Oktober 2012, berakhirlah pengembaraan saya sebagai seorang student phd.

ALhamdulillah, the viva went well and I passed! ")

Mula-mula before viva start, i dah risau dan nervous. Takut dan gelabah. Sebab? Memula SV ada kata kena present thesis kita. So, I pon buatlah prezie and juga prepare text. Alih-alih, masuk bilik tu, tak de projector uols!!! Its a new building and I guess that room wasn't fully equiped. Maka, panik sekejap. Nasib baiklaaaaa I ada prepare handout yg mempunyai isi-isi penting dari thesis I.

So, the first 10 minutes was spent with talking about my research. Then, the examiners (3 of them) asked me to defend on things which they have criticized in the Gutachten (report). Masalahnya, masa kawan I tlg cerita balik apa yang dikritik, dia tak de la detail sangat. Rupanya, banyak benda juga ok. Panik kejap I!!!!

They kept asking me on how I see myself as being reflected in the research? How do I, as a researcher, project a certain role or impose on the answers my respondents could give? As a cultural studies scholar, we must always reflect on ourselves a researcher and the position we might take on a particular research (i didnt mention this in my disertation!!)That I missed an interesting part which could make my thesis better --- gender differences in decoding text. That they were not convinced on the way I used U&G concepts in E/D because E/D was originay written to criticise U&G. That I should have looked at David Buckingham's work. Did I look at identity as fluid or something specific? Why didn't I write more on the process of identity construction? What is my future plan? How would my research help my country? How does religion make a difference in my research? What do I plan to bring back to Malaysia? What would I have done differently?

All this were done within an hour. It was conducted in a seminar room which could fit an oblong table with 6 chairs around it. Needless to say, there were no audience. My friend came, but she waited outside for me.

You know, my friends all assured me to not worry for viva because it is basically talking about your research work. I was not convinced. But, when I was in that room, it strucked me! Memang betul lah!!! hehehhe.... I never knew I could speak at ease about things and explain about my work. Of course, reading it over and over again helped. I also read online and a friend pon nasihat juga, bila baca balik thesis tu, buat small notes or post its. Masa I read/heard that, I rasa macam...bolehke nak buat small notes ni? Believe me...once you start reading your thesis balik, you will automatically know what you find important.

Apa pon, bersyukur sangat that I dah selamat lulus.

Syukur sangat kepada Allah for all this. If you read my first few months when I first came to Vienna, you would know how exasperated I was, worried all the time, cried myself to sleep because of the new things I had to face here. Dengan 5 months preggers, nak kena buat insurance, cari tempat tinggal, apply for student permit, cari obgyn, beranak, missed first exam because beranak, sat for the exam, masalah cari babysitter for Andi, peristiwa sakit teruk sampai masuk hospital and terpaksa tinggalkan Andi dengan orang lain, pregnant again, the confusion on how many ects to take (i ended up taking 72 ects....padahal they needed only 30!!), kena baling dengan passport masa renew permit dan macam-macam lagi. Living so far away from my family was also not an easy thing to do.

Because of that, I am grateful because Allah gave me the strength to face all this. Alhamdullillah. Memang betul. Allah tak kan uji kita if dia tahu yang kita tak boleh menghadapinya. Thank you for granting my doas.

So, next stop, kerja!! *pengsan* so glad to go back with phd in my hands!!!

Sebelum ittew, nak shopping for my reward. hehe.

Almost there

Esok viva.

Ni tengah curi masa tulis blog kejap. Lepas ni nak practice my presentation with prezie.

Tolong doakan everything will be ok, ya?

Tadi, tiba-tiba terkenang on my first time here. How difficult it was. How much I worried. Those nights I cried myself to sleep. Esok...esok penentu segalanya. I hope it was worth my sweat and tears.

And, I would really like to thank Allah...for always giving me hope, for making me see that there is always a silver lining in everything that He has planned.

InshaAllah, at 12.15pm esok, I will go through my viva.

Lets hope and pray I'll pass. :)

lagi lima hari

Tinggal lagi lima hari je untuk saya lalui fasa terakhir in my phd studies. Who would have thought??

I am so nervous sangat-sangat to go through the viva. A lot of people told me not to worry but I still worry.

I have prepared my presentation text and the prezi.

I have made short notes in my dissertation.

Now, I just need to study and decide if i want to go to istanbul, milan or venice after my viva.

Skyped with a friend last night and she asked me about my thesis. It was good to talk to someone about it because it sort of gives me a chance to discuss it.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan PhD ku ini. Please let me pass my defensio. Amin.

bikin panas hati

saya sangat geram. Saya geram dengan orang yang suka mengambil jalan mudah or the easy way out. I tell you, I worked really hard to be where I am right now and it pisses me off when someone nak ambik short cut.

Ceritanya macam ni. Ada seorang hamba Allah ni, emailed me in June, asking me to recommend her to my SV untuk jadi his phd student. I tanya la HA ni, dia bidang apa. Dia kata dia bidang education. So I kata, bidang kita sangat berbeza. I also told that person yang buat phd ni bukan suka suki kita nak apply kepada sesiapa. It is important that the person is well versed in bidang yang kita nak ceburi.

And then, just when i thought everything was fine and dandy, she sent me another email. Tetap suruh i recommend sv kat dia, so that my sv can recommend somone suitable for her...and get this...she wasn't even sure which university am I studying at!!!! Grrrr....ni memang dasar pemalas tak nak buat research. Hello...ingat senang ke nak ambik any tom, dick or harry jadi your sv? Belum start phd dah tak reti nak buat research on pakar in your bidang. Nanti dah start kang, cemana agaknya. Lagi satu, I told her, sini kena tahu cakap German. Dia dahla memang tak tahu cakap german. Grrrr.....

Maka, I rasa, ada baiknya I list down tips on how to apply for a PhD.

1. Please determine what you plan to study for your phd. Write up your proposal. Have a senior go through it to see if it is worthy enough to be considered as a phd proposal.

2. Since sure you dah baca banyak artikel masa buat proposal tu, you will be familiar with a few names. So, this people can potentially be your SV. Or, bolehlah go through a uni website. Macam a senior in your uni will surely know which uni is good in your bidang. Then google dan cari SV.

3. Lepas dah shortlist a few names, start emailing them your CV and proposal with an appropriate introduction about yourself.

4. Tunggu reply.

Ha...kan senang je????

Heran betul dgn orang yang nak go through other person to apply for phd. And, orang yang nak minta tlg orang lain applykan (mcm kes HA ni...nak i bg nama so a prof yang dia kenal di uni tempat dia kerja can get in touch with tht prof for her). Perluke?? So nanti phd you, siapa yang akan buatkan??

Panas je I. Dah la orang nak study and prepare for viva. Benda2 camni sangat tak perlu!

sementara sempat

ok...i thought writing my thesis was difficult. Now, I beg to differ. Studying for my Viva is equally hard for me. I get a lot of people telling me not to worry and that I will do just fine. Tapi...tapi takuuttttt.......dah seram sejuk dah ni. And my perut also rasa macam ada gajah berlari-lari..bukan butterflies dah.

I don't know what to study. Where to start?

So what I did was I went through my thesis again. Abru run through sekali. I prepared the presentation text and prezi to go with it. Then, I started reading books. But now, I pikir, is it the right time to read books???? I think I should just concentrate on my thesis kan? And try to guess what they might ask...like why did you use this theory? Please explain your methods thoroughly. Betul tak?

I am sooooooo confused!!!!!!

SV said that I have the upper hand because my presentation is in English and they will not be able to ask me some hebat questions like they can if I were to present in Deutsch. Dia kata, prepare a one page thing to distribute to the panel. And he said, basically, they will only ask questions based on what I presented.

Namun I masih risau. Takut tak reti jawab. My problem is, sometimes I know the answer in my head but my mulut tak reti nak explain. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I really really really want to get a good grade and pass this. This is my final hurdle, before I can get that two coveted letters before my name.

Doakan yang I akan berjaya.

Now, I must read and reread my short notes on my thesis.

I also think that I should present everyday to my friend...just to be sure I will be fluent.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan PhD ku ini. please let me go back with a PhD in my hands. Amin.

sedikit sedikit

Hmm....i have finished reading my thesis only till chapter 4...i have 2 more chapters to khatam.

Sesambil baca tu, I think of possible questions. These questions, I plan to tulis atas small cards.

I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo risau but of course la kan...dalam risau risau tu, relaaaaxxxx jer.

Okla...nak study sambil tgk top chef masters.

almost there

I have re-edited my text for presentation (with Aaron's help) and did my prezi. So esok nak kena pi print out the text again so I can edit it again and compare it to my prezi so that I can finalize the pathways. Am putting quite an effort for my presentation (prepare prezi bagai) walaupun SV pesan tak yah prepare slides. But I think, any presentations lebih cun with prezi, kan???

Pastu, I have studied my chapter 2. Have listed a few questions which I think may be asked. I bought some empty cards to write some important bits like quotes and isi-isi penting and also the Q and A. I haven't started writing on the cards tho. I figured that I should finish preparing my presentation dulu and will tackle the potential Q and A next. I hope esok by lusa selesailah proses nak prepare for presentation ni so that I can concentrate studying my other chapters.

I still feel that the area I really need to prepare on is theoretical framework.

I am sooooo risau.

On the bright side, unlike my friends Uni (also in Wien tapi uni lain), I tak payah nak susah payah sediakan makanan and minuman for people after my public defense.

Oklah u ols.

Things to do esok: Print text, re-edit, create pathways and finalise prezi.

Kalau ada celah-celah time tu nak khatamkan chapter 4.

going somewhere??

I should really consider going somewhere for jalan-jalan. Hmm...maybe pi Venice kan for a day or two. :)

Anyway, I met my SV today. Dia kata, don't worry. I am sure you will do fine. You wrote a good thesis so you just have to defend some of the points which was criticized.

So, katanya, akan ada 3 orang dalam examination panel. seorang tu chair and lagi 2 tu are the ones who read my thesis. The defence will be open to public.

Firstly, I will have to prepare a short presentation of my thesis, my RQ, theories, methods, findings. This will be followed by the q and a session. SV dah bagitahu siap-siap to read up on theories pertaining to cultural studies because he said they may want to gauge my competence in that area. *pengsan!!* Also, dia kata, cari theory lain yg may be possible to be used in my thesis, which I did not include. *pengsan*. Kenapalaaaa I left my books di KL?? :(

Jadi, mulai esok what I plan to do is to prepare my text for presentation. Sebab lepas dah prepare text tu baru boleh prepare prezi kan. Then, must read up on the theories and etc.

Tapi nak prepare presentation, haruslah baca balik my whole thesis and know everything in and out. Sigh. I tell you. I have been procastinating and reading blogs, and catching up on my tv shows. teruk betul la.

MUST START WORKING!!!!!!

Maybe I should just prepare the text kan. Sebab nak prepare text, surely I will end up reading the whole thesis. Kan??

oh mojo, sila datang sekarang!!!!!!!

bila nak sampai seru ni??

I have been lazy!!!! I am such a procastinator kan??

You see, I listed down 42 potential questions that could be asked by my examiners during viva, but I have only answered 2!!!! I am so upset with myself tapi I seriously tak de semangat nak buat ok.

I went out for drinks with a friend just now. It was nice to be able to talk to someone. She read through my Gutachten (thesis report) and said that it was all ok. Areas which was highlighted by both examiners were theory. So, I definitely will have to prepare myself for that. Sure akan ada soalan tanya why guna theory itu sahaja and etc. One examiner wished I could include more metathory while another one wanted to read more theories on identity. So, I really must read up my chapters on that to prepare myself dengan soalan kenapa i tak include theory by X or Y. Aside from that, one of the examined wished I could talk more about gender differences in analysing my data and also talk about my relationship with the people I talked to. So, have to prepare myself for that as well.

So nya, I definitely have to re-read my thesis (so malas!!! seriously rasa nak termuntah baca again sebab dah beribu kali baca ok!) and start answering the questions i have listed down (in a new note book..hehehe...love buying new staionaries!).

Hmm...good thing is I have a friend to practice my Q and A thing with. :)

Esok ada makan2 raya at the embassy and Sunday ada open house. I tell you, kat Mesia I tak sempat pon pergi open house bagai..tetiba kat sini plak pergi open house. Speaking of which, did I tell you, on the first sunday i arrived, my friend yg i tumpang duduk ni had an open house (sort of).

I love staying here because so dekat dengan Kartner (one of my favourit-est place ever) and all my favourite eateries and also a very nice playground (where Aaron got his first kiss yesterday...such a sweet talker my boy tu!!).

Lagi satu, I actually finally read up and saw the graduation ceremony and dengan frustnya nak bagitahu, tak de jubah bagai ok. :( there goes my harapan nak pakai robe dan topi tu kan. *sigh* Anyway, the good thing about convo kat sini is I get to choose when I want to go, within a year of me passing my defence. So, am thinking of attending convo masa summer next year. hehe. :)

Oklah....got to do some work or maybe watch some drama . Baru je finally wrote a short info on myself for the book (in which I contributed a chapter). am wondering what happen to the article I contributed to one journal..ye la...sekarang kan mak tengah misi nak cukupkan 2 journal article supaya balik nanti boleh apply untuk confirmation and etc. Tapi kan....viva pon tak buat lagi...so how??

oh oh....bubble tea craze is in Wien as well. Had bubble tea kat McDs tadi and I must say I love the bubble sebab it bursts in your mouth keluar some fruity yummy squirts!! yumm...

oklah....ciao!

hello dunia

Saya sekarang bersiaran dari Vienna.

I have finally started working on my Viva Voce. Sekarang cuma tengah research on what is it all about and also list potential questions.

Next, I need to read my thesis again (yang dah ditinggalkan selama almost 6 bulan ok!!!! TSK). Well...good thing is I will be reading it with a pair of fresh eyes. Tapi....sigh....I just hope I sempat khatam my thesis in and out before my viva (yang belum arrange pon datenye, FYI).

Since I have 6 chapters, I plan to study each chapter in four days (ini termasuk tulis summary and list out potential Q and A). I hope my plan will work because honestly, I am also planning to bercuti ke Spain. hehe.

I dah print out my chapter 1 and 2. I want to start by esok or lusa (boleh lagi kan nak procastinate?).

Anyway, my Aaron has found his voice and is so excited to talk in his baby language LOUDLY!!! Habis computer lab bingit because budak kecik tu pot pet. Maka, universiti bukan lagi menjadi tempat sesuai untuk I pergi. Kalau nak print document pon, kena cepat cepat sebab nanti ada budak yang nak berebut mouse, keyboard dan juga menyanyi dan pot pet dengan kuat. *sigh*

Oklah...boss kecik dah bangun nak susu. Its back to doing work while bagi susu routine for me.

omg

omg..

macam tak percaya je that i am going back in 6 days time! :( Tapi, this time around, I balik to finish up, kan?

Apa pon, dah nak balik ni, I still have things to settle.

1. renew passport
2. get travel insurance for me and aaron
3. beli barang2.
4. pack

hmm...sekarang ni dah sejuk ke ek???

p/s: firt time this year kena atshma attack teruk sampai kena pi neb at kpj kajang and (of all the places) hospital kuala krai!

Syukur

My SV finally got in touch with me about my thesis. And I am happy (and actually jumped around in the room while relating the news to Dr Sunshine) to tell you all that he said everything looks positive!!! Alhamdullillah!!! So now, I am waiting for the response from my external examiner and I really really hope that it willl be positive as well!!! Please doa untuk I yer.

Right now, I am excited and at the same time quite nervous. I really hope that I will get a positive from the external examiner and breeze through my viva, inshaAllah. Speaking of which, i tak prepare satu habuk pon ok!!!! Sat gi nk email that person from my faculty to ask about my case...mana tahu the external actally sent in her report earlier kan.

Then, I actually dah plan a few things to do during the summer holidays. Among others:

1. Get my articles published
2. Start translating my thesis to BM in order to produce a book (an idea I got from Dr Emma)
3. Settle my claims

But, sadly, satu pon I tak buat!!! Grrr....I am actually quite upset with myself. So far, I only have 1 article published. Lagi satu, tengah tunggu di clearkan. Tapi both ni, bukan la high impact journal ke apa. Journal biasa2 je. But my aim pon is to have 2 articles in 2 journals untuk expedite proses naik pangkat, inshaAllah.

yang translate to buat buku tu, well, I was just thinking might as well do it masa I tengah cuti ni kan..Sebab kita kan kena produce satu buku BM. I was thinking if I buat, bagus juga sebab sambil2 tu, sure kena baca thesis and secara tak langsung boleh prepare myself for viva. Tapi adakah??? Non ado ok.

All I do, everyday, is housework!!! Iols adalah surirumah berjaya okeh. Pagi2, hantar suami ke muka pintu, tlg pegangkan helmet dia (yes...he bought the superbike!) and bukak gate and wave goodbye. Pastu, buat laundry, Then, mandikan the boys and buat breakfast. Pastu vacuum the house and sidai kain. Tidurkan Aaron and mandi. Then, siap-siapkan Dani to send him to my moms cos he still goes to GA kat sana. Kat rumah mak, feed the boys. Then wave goodbye to Dani. Play with my boys, put them to sleep. Pastu I get to o my own stuff for about  hours. Dani balik, I pon terus head back to my own house. Balik tu, masak, kutip baju yang disidai. Mandikan budak2, lipat baju, gosok baju Dr sunshine and dani, tidurkan the boys and then i rest sebab kepenatan. See...my days are filled with things to do!! I must, however, start making time for my phd work. Tak kan la abaikan, kan??

Oklah...dah tulis panjang lebar ni. Actually rumah I still non ado internet. Ni pon ehsan hanphone Dr Sunshine yang di hook kan to the laptop. hehehehe.

Will write more when I have time.

Apa pon, Syukur Alhamdullillah!!

I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s: Next time, I nak tulis pasal pengalaman dani sit for an exam in order to be choosen to masuk sekolah kebangsaan. Susah betul nak masuk darjah 1 sekarang ek?

Setelah sekian lama, here I am, writing, albeit sikit je.

1. am full time housewife now. NOT easy at all. Penat ok!!!
2. got my extension sans scholarship. :(
3. must get internt for my house
4. am so domesticated now!!!!!!

ok..gtg....

i miss writing!!!!

My last Sunday, before August comes

InshaAllah, my permohonan to extend mungkin akan diluluskan. And, because of the problem I had with the transition from old phd structure to new phd structure, I may get the extension with full allowance. InshaAllah. I will only know the result in May. If it is true that I will still be getting my allowance, I am going to apply for attachment to another European University, inshaAllah. That's my plan for the time being because I think alang-alang dah dapat allowance, might as well use it for an attachment at another uni which I applied to but didn't get in, iaitu Uni of Amterdam .

Apa pon, plan ni masih samar-samar. But, I would really love the opportunity to do so. My main motivation is because the attachment will enable me to widen my network and produce papers with one of the prof there. If all goes well (ie: husband agrees with the plan and i get accepted), my plan is to leave for Europe again after Eid and stay till the end of my cuti belajar period (if I get the extension). Harap-harap dapat lah ye.

 Meanwhile, the new girl has arrived and she seemed nice. Will be bringing her to uni esok and show her the cheap place to eat and bank and prolly jalan along kartner strasse. What else ye? I cannot wait to meet my boys. Only 5 days left!!! Still need to get coffee, giotto and starbucks mug and fridge magnets. Anyway, I masih belum siap edit paper...grrrrr...shall do it now lah. ciao.

Bodoh sombong

Grrrr......

Today, i went on a sightsieeng bus. Dia ala ala hop onhop off la but pretty cheap (only 6 euros). Masa tengah tunggu bas tu ada sekumpulan orang 'I' tengah brok brek nak cari tempat. So, i tanya la one of the, a lady, nakpi mana. Dia kata nk pi zoo. I pon tengok my map, memang tak dak bus nak pi zoo. Kena naik bahn. I bagithu dia....tapi dia kan macam sombong dengan i. Dengan eksyen dia kata...tak...memang ada bas. Da orang bagi tahu. Pastu i tnegok laki dia kehuou kehilir jalan nak cari macam mana nak pi zoo tu. So i kata, why not pi tourist info centre. Again, the lady tu kata...dah pi...and depa yang kata tungg sini.

Tapi kman, lepas tu, dia bagitahua laki dia suruh pi tourist info centre tu. Of course laki tu tak pi la kan but kawan laki tu pergi, i think.

Because apa tau, after that i kata, u need to naik bahn to go to the zoo and naik bahn kat depan nun...adakah depa percaya?non hado!, pastukan, kawan laki dia tu datang(lepas dah cakap dgn info center tu) and bgtahu benda yang sama yg i bagitahu depa!

Grrr....lepas tu, baru la sibuk tanya...eh...tadi you kata naik bahn tu kat mana. Haaa...baru tahu kan.

Geram!!!!!!!!

packing 2

i have packed! now tinggal nak masukkan baju2 yang tengah pakai and also the ones we are going to wear till next week. everything muat and there's still room in my luggage, Alhamdullillah.

i will be bringing back 2 bags and 1 handluggage. 1 lagi bag will be left behind and collected bila i come for my viva, inshaAllah.

i have also completed my shopping list for nephews and nieces. now tinggal nak beli ground coffee, chocolates, mugs and some other souviner. pastu i should be done with shopping. if there's more space, then can bring back aaron's toys. if not, next round lah.

esok nak pergi beli coffee and chocolates and cancel my internet subscription. next week nak usha souviner, handle bank stuff and also cancel my insurance.

i called my uni tadi and they said my faculty has approved my application. however, any keputusan still depends on the meeting CB. meeting will be this friday. doakanla i dapat extend ye uols? if dapat extend, syukur sangat. Boleh la I work on more journal articles. I plan to meet my sv and suggest some future collaboration, inshaAllah.

will be heading to insbruck on wednesday awal pagi. woot woot!! cannot wait. :) belum pack lagi for the trip.will be there till friday.

pastu saturday tu, nak purchase tickets, inshaAllah. then, i have to vacuum my flat, clean the toilet and make some last minute cleaning. the new tenant will be coming on sunday (a msian phd student). now i pening...nak still stay here till end of next week atau tumpang my friend's house? i selesa duduk my house, obviously but then ada tetamu yang basically strangers kan. how ek?

i cannot believe my stay here is about to end. It has been good while it lasted. I could still remember how scared I was when I first came here. My nervousness (boleh ke beranak sini? how to buat local insurance? how to buat residence permit? where to stay? language barrier.) I will really miss Wien. :( Must buy that I love wien tshirt for me. hih hih.

packing

yesterday, my friends came over to help me clean the house.

so, we attacked the bedroom first. OMG. despite shipping most of my things home, I still have sooooooooooooo much stuff!!! we pulled everything out from the cupboard, emptied the drawers and etc and sorted it in plastic bags according to jenis barang like staionary, gadget stuff, clothes, documents.

then, we cleaned the kitchen (stove and fridge look brand new!!).

aside from that, finally cleaned the windows and also the doors.

so now, i still kena sort out my stuff according to what to give away, what to bring back now, and what to bring back later (cos plan to leave some stuff at my friends since i will be coming again for viva and convo, inshaAllah).

today, i managed to sort out the papers and documents. buang apa yang patut, decide which one will follow me now, and which one can come with me on my next journey.

then, i sort out my bags. i tell you, bukan la i beli banyak handbag pon (mungkin dalam denial) tapi cukuplah if i say, satu hand luggage dah penuh dgn handbags dan diaper bag dan a few books. i am actually thinking of getting one more bag before i leave. *pekup mulut*

ermm...now nak sort out the baju...then pack my bags. cannot believe i am already starting to pack my bags! but as my friend told me, selagi tak pack, tak tahu byk mana my stuff. i need to know because ingat nak beli chocs, coffee and souviner sikit for my family. if tak de space cemana kan?

what else? oh...on top of that, i have an article to edit. i hope to finish it SOON. tapi today i am quite occupied with my stuff! esok ingat nak pergi cancel my internet.

since the new phd girl is coming next sunday, i am thinking of moving out from my place and nak duduk kat rumah kawan. tapi i am still thinking about it. :)

okie dokie...

things to do

lagi dekat nak balik, lagi banyak benda nak buat. what else is new? hehe

1. artikel journal BM

this one, dah halfway done. i hope to be able to habiskan ni by today!! please please please. Datanglah idea untuk menulis conclusion yang mantap sikit. lepas dah siap,kena print dan edit.

dah siap tulis and pass to my partner for him to tambah apa yang patut. haih...i think my writing skills in bm makin teruk. no...bukan masalah bahasa ke atau tak tahu perkataan. masalah nak menggoreng dan gaya bahasa. tahu tak, i baru email kat kawan i my piece, dia tengok stengah jam gittew, boleh tambah dan goreng lagi 4 page! apekah? terrer kan? tapi kawan ai juga baru dapat phd uols. mungkin dah biasa menulis dalam BM gittew. macam if dia nak bagi i article in english, i pon rasa i boleh goreng garing2. hih hih.

2. edit again book chapter

i have made the corrections and updated the citations ikut the style they wanted. Now nak kena print again, and reread again. If ok, boleh proceed to email the chapter.

update: seru belum sampai! dah print dah semula. just need to reread it. maybe tomorrow, over a cup of coffee at stabux. *matila konon2 nak diet and tak mo pi stabux*

3. claims for tirana trip

must photocopy receipts,surat kpt, print out flight tix, write cover letter

4. insurance and fees claims
must write cover letter.

update: belum tulis lagi. rasa nak pos dari malaysia lagi murah kan.

i hope to do all this by this week. because next week nak travel, inshaAllah.

ok....got to start now!

kejadian di one utama

Got a text from my mom tadi.

My brother's three year old son was almost kidnapped!!! Ok...I am not sure if the word kidnapped sounds a bit rash but there was this guy who took my nephew.

It happened so quick and my brother didn't even realize it. He only realized it when he heard his son cried loudly. Bila dia cari, dia tengok his son was being carried by a total stranger (a man...tak sure what race) and my brother quickly said "hey...tu anak saya". So the man left the boy and quickly disappeared.

All this happened in 1 Utama. My brother is still bewildered macam mana boleh berlaku because he went out with his wife and bibik. Granted he has three kids but there were three adults and so, tak tahu cemana boleh jadi.

Apa pon...please..ALWAYS keep your eyes on your kids. PLEASE. Dah macam-macam kes sekarang ni. In my brother's case, nasib baik anak dia memang tak suka dengan orang. I cannot imagine if it were to happen to my no 2 cos he is soooooooooo friendly!!

haih...must remind Dr Sunshine to tell they boys to NEVER talk to strangers, follow strangers or accept things from strangers!

Apa pon, syukur sangat yang my brother dengar his son crying. Kalau tak??? tsk.

p.s: my sister's car kena langgar dengan cina mabuk today. I am not being racist or anything tapi memang yang langgar dia was cina yang mabuk. Meh, haku nak cakap sikit. Ko nak mabuk ke apa ke, ko punya pasal la kan. Yang ko pi bawa kereta tu apehal? Membahayakan orang lain ok! What if my sister was hurt? What if the good samaritan yang tumpangkan dia to hantar kereta to bengkel tu was jahat and kidnapped my sis? Memang la menyusahkan orang tau! Ergghhh...kerajaan British pon dah sedar ok keburukan minum ni. So please la...Allah pon memang dah haramkan benda ni.

Tirana Trip

Dah berminggu balik baru hari ni teringat nak write something about Tirana. hehe. Satgi tak tulis kang, takut tak ingat plaks kenangan.

ANyway, the Tirana Trip was my first trip with Aaron alone to a foreign country. Needless to say, I was a bit apprehensive. Yela. tak leh imagine how the country is like and etc.

SO, earlier on, when I booked the hotel, I booked the airport shuttle as well. SO, sesampai je, memang ada orang tunggu kat arrivals with my name on a piece of paper. Neway, I tulis point form je lah ek.

- Tirana is clean!
- The place reminded me of Kota Bharu. Its small and the main attractions are within walking distance.
- Aaron was hot stuff kat sana! Kejap2 kena gomol dan kiss by strangers.
- I heard azan berkumandang in Tirana because its major population are muslim. Ironically however, Halal stuff are not that easy to find.
- Tirana tak ada KFC atau McDonalds. Shopping complex pon macam tak de! Brands that we usually see in EU like H&M, C&A pon non ado! Its still not really opened to the outside world. And, it was soooo difficult nak cari souviner kat Tirana. Ada...tapi memang limited choices. I punya habit when travelling is to post postcard to my boys...Usually I would have a hard time to choose the postcards cos banyak cantik2. Ni, hard time to choose sebab banyak yang tak best. ihiks.
- Bas kat Tirana masig guna kondukter yang kutip tambang tu!
- I see people walking everywhere in Tirana. Orang dia banyak berjalan.
- Iskandar Zulkarnain or Alexander the Great is know as Skanderbeg in Tirana. He is a national hero!
- Tengok orang solat Jumaat sampai bentang2 tikar kat luar masjid. Rasa sayu masa tu sebab tak sangka boleh tengok keadaan macam tu di negara asing.
- Sebab tak banyak pengaruh luar, even the museum is not that tourist friendly. Most of the exhibits lack english explanations.
- Kat sana banyak kedai Italian food!! I had one of the best salmon pasta there. :)
- I saw a kid tidur kat pavement on a box. :( Kat Tirana banyak Gypsies and they are the ones yang beg for money. Kinda scary jugak cos if you are not lucky, they will tug on your shirt sleeves! I kena sekali but I buat dek ajer!
- In Albania, remember to angguk when saying no and geleng when saying yes. Ada orang tanya if I was from India and I geleng...terus dia excited and cakap..yes...you are from India. sigh
- banyak barang made in china kat its market! Banyak counterfeit products as well...ala-ala petaling street gittew!
- i bought sarung bantal trimmed with lace for about rm10 satu. Murah ok!
- Food is cheap! I bought a slice of pizza for less than 80cents (euros) and a scoop of ice cream is only about 30cents. Kat Vienna, se slice pizza is paling murah pon 2.50 and se scoop ice cream is 1 euro!


I wished I had more time dan kudrat to explore the countryside dan naik gunung. Masa kapal terbang land tu, I could see that Tirana was surrounded by mountains. Cantik. Cuaca pon best because I didnt even wear my jacket kat situ. hihi.

If not for the conference, I wouldn't have dreamt of going to Tirana. Tapi, Alhamdullillah, ada peluang and I am so grateful! It is nice to visit a country yang lain. It is soooo different from KL and jauh berbeza dari Vienna. Its probably, like I said, macam KB but tu pon, KB lagi modern sikit kot. Maybe its like KL in the 80s kot.

Would I go again if given a chance? yes, I think so. Cos like I said, I would love to explore the countryside...the castles and etc. Also, I would love to go on the Skanderbeg trail. Mesti best kan.

oh..btw, the conference presentation went well. Aaron was looked after by a Malaysian (I baru kenal masa kat conference) and one of the conferencce organisers. Alhamdullilah, he behaved himself. :)

superman

Saya rasa Dr sunshine umpama Superman. Dia kan, jaga anak-anak saya. dan sekarang, dia tengah bertungkus lumus pack barang-barang di rumah sewa sebab esok nak pindah ke rumah baru , sambil menjaga anak kami yang demam!

Oh...saya rasa nak balik sekarang juga untuk membantu dia....kesiaannn!! :(

i am finally done with my book chapter thingy!! *tarik nafas lega* However, I still one to edit it one more time, then baru submit it to the editor.

Pastu, I have one article to write, this time in BM, for a UKM journal. Ye la uols...sekarang nak kena kumpul artikel pula untuk memudahkan proses confirmation kan. InshaAllah.

anyway, nak tanya pendapat uols as academician.

Sekarang kan, I noticed ada academician yang tulis paper dan include kan nama kawan2 dia sekali. Dan bila kawan dia tulis, kawan dia pon include nama dia. By doing it this way, dorang akan dapat kumpul more journal articles. What are your opinion on this? Bukan apa, ada orang ajak ai berbuat sedemikian. This person kata, dia akan edit and look through the articles and tambah some parts to tunjukkan dia punya specialisation and vice versa.

I am still thinking about the offer. hmm....

Salzburg, by the way, was fun!!!!

i should really do a proper update kan. haih.

speaking of which, i have less than 3 weeks je di sini uols (inshaAllah)! i am currently still in denial. hehehehehe...

ok...1 more article to go...oh...and one book review to correct. i can do this!!!

permohonan ke sekolah

today, Dr Sunshine went to S3 to submit AD's school application. Menurutnya, the school is so much better than the one in bsp. i asked why? dia kata sebab the school feels different, padang dia cantik and well kept, and most importantly, ada tennis court.

sigh.

i knew it.

the tennis court made the school looks great to Dr Sunshine.

i hope AD will be able to fulfil his Papa's wish to have tennis players in the family (we have had this conversation since we were 20 and bila we got all boys, makin excited la dr sunshine). dr sunshine is planning to get a tennis coach for AD once we've settled down in bsp.

anyway, back to the school, the school admin tanye why apply to tht school n not bsp. we ols kata sbb dekat dgn my office. hih hih.

i really hope AD gets in! kalu tak...hmmm....have to merayu la nampaknya.

rumahku syurgaku

inilah hasil kerja Dr Sunshine sepanjang ai duduk sini. Semua barang-barang ni dia beli, survey dan etc. The kitchen tu, dia yang pasang the wall cabinet and the stainless steel fittings. i love you lah babe. you memang terrer bab-bab cari offer. :) cannot wait to go home!!

our 'built in' wardrobe which i absolutely LOVE

view of dining room and kitchen from the living room (with AA)

view of kitchen from the pantry

AD and AA hanging out in their room

living room furniture and dining room furniture belum di hantar.

curtain sudah dipasang satu rumah.

water heater dah pasang at the boys room and ours ada problem dgn copper piping so waiting for the plumber to rectify the matter.

air cond bought for boys' room and our room.

pintu kitchen cabinet,we opted for nyatoh wood which will be put up soon (got it for rm900)

pantry -- design still pending.

lampu and kipas dah pasang at all points except for depan pintu rumah and living area upstairs.

if ada duit lebih, still need to get console table, furniture for living room like coffee table, and i realy nak pasang that sliding door thingy to seperate the shower area in the master bedroom. InshaAllah. Sikit-sikit, lama-lama jadi bukit. :)

first solo trip ke tempat asing

esok will be my first time travelling ke tempat asing with Mr Falafel. I am quite nervous sebab tempat tu, main language is not german or english. Anyhoo, sebab risau, I decided to ask for hotel ppl to pick me up (beza 3 euro je pon dgn ambik taxi kat airport).

i have no exact plans yet tp ingat nk jalan2 jugak n try makanan. which reminds me, i should salin alamat kedai makan ittew.

oklah...nk buat research sikit.

ketentuan Illahi

Hari ni I dapat berita sedih. My SIL who is pregnant 34 weeks lost her baby. I am not sure if it was stillborn or meninggal selepas dilahirkan, but it is still sad.

I always read yang baby or anak kita yang meninggal akan tunggu kita kat pintu syurga. Betul ke ek?

I experienced a misscarriage once, when I was about 5 weeks pregnant. Until today, I cannot help but wonder if he/she will be waiting for me kat pintu syurga.

Al-Fatihah.

whoah

Alhamdullillah.

As you may have read, I suddenly decided to apply for extension. I feel like I need the time to prepare for viva because to me, selagi belum dapat grade for my thesis and belum viva, phd belum dalam genggaman. Honestly, I feel so takut!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, bermula yesterday, I frantically emailed my sv and he said that he will only be back in wien mid April!!! argh..terus saya tensi okeh sebab cemana nak dapat surat sokongan kan? Then, dengan muka tak malu (yes...saya rasa saya sangat menyusahkan sv dan juga dah rsa malu gila dengan dia sebab selalu request dia tulis macam2 surat okeh!) minta dia tulis surat ittew dan email to me to which he immediatly buat. Syukur sangat.

Cuma yang ralat, I tak de progress report. But, in his letter, he has in a way stated my progress so I hope that it will be ok.

SInce this is very last minute, what I am going to do is to email the unitlatihan everything in pdf and pastu baru post. This is just to ensure that they know of my intentions and documents ada in hand lebih cepat. I hope urusan ini akan dipermudahkan. I applied for a 6 months extension dengan harapan, if tak bagi 6 bulan, 3 bulan pon, inshaAllah memadai.

Aside from that, I finished writing my paper for the conference. So, esok, lepas uruskan pasal my extension documents, I nak edit paper tu pula. Lepas tu, nak kena prepare the text for presentation, followed by the slides. Kali ni ingat nak guna prezi sebab haritu, my classmate guna and it looked so canggih and nice!!!!

After this weekend, I need to concentrate on my book chapter and 1 more paper for a journal, inshaAllah.

Oh...selain itu, I juga kena beli tiket dan rancang percutian ke Salzburg, and if everything goes well kat Tirana (read: i'm able to handle baby sorang2 on vacation), i might plan a trip to Amsterdam, to visit Kuekenhof. :) I guess Venice will have to wait masa I datang for viva or graduation (altho for my graduation, i dah berangan nak pergi Spain..heheheheh).

Itu saja laporan dari saya.

p.s: i think something is wrong with me. Now, bukan saja rasa lebam. Dapat sakit kepala pulaaakkkkkkkkkk......tapi, Alhamdullilah, bila makan ponstan, hilang.

patutkah?

patutkan extend cuti belajar?
ye...saya akan just apply for extension. If dapat, syukur Alhamdullilah. if tak,kena start kerja.

patutkah saya try tukar sekolah AD?
ye...saya dah pon ammend the permohonan. Now we are applying to a new school. I tell you, ni baru apply sekolah rendah. Nanti sekolah menengah cemana la agaknya. And i don't even want to think about university!!!! harap2 by that time, i will have the strings to pull, if necessary. hikhikhik.

patutkah risau sebab tak start pon lagi tulis paper and prepare presentation?
ye. tapi perasaan malas tu membuak-buak!! teruk sangat kan? I shall start esok, promise. err..tapi esok nak keluar beli diaper. ok..after that. harus!!!

patutkah risau nak pi foreign place dgn baby?
ermm...ye jugak kot. tapi everything happens at Allah's will. So apa-apa pon, berserah ajelah. I booked a pretty fancy and nice hotel. hih hih. Am sooooooooooooooo excited. So, if tak pi pusing2 the city, lepak2 dalam hotel pon ok kot?

neway, i totally forgot about my bookings at the kindermuseum today! ruginya rasa. dah petang baru ingat. sigh.

esok plan to pi beli diaper and go buy groceries.

p.s: i don't know why, but my tummy hurts. rasa lebam macam lepas c-sect dulu. :( at times like this, i wish dr sunshine ada.

patutkah?

daftar sekolah, again!

hmm....

I think I have mentioned numerous times of my intention to send AD to an Islamic School. Tapi impian ittew musnah uols!

It started when Dr SUnshine did his fieldwork at an Islamic School in Gombak and he saw how 'daif' the school was. The tables and chairs, the smelly toilet, the condition of the classes and how the school seem to be lacking in sports facilities. SO, terus dia rasa risau nak hantar anak dia dekat sekolah macam tu. Granted, the one we want to send to is in BAngi, tapi tetaplah kan, dah tengok kat tempat lain macam tu, terus ada this image yang dijadikan stereotype tu all other schools Islamic ni. Lagilah bila Dr Sunshine ni atlit kan. Maka, salah satu requirement yang dia nak ialah sekolah tu ada padang yang best dan juga kalau boleh ada kelab tennis.

So, dia pon menyuarakan pendapat nak hantar AD ke SK sahaja. Oh..ok. that, we daftar already. But nooooo....Dr Sunshine nak masukkan anakanda dia kat SK yang bertaraf cemerlang uols. Yes...konsep only the best for your child kan.

And now, he asks me if I can pull any strings to help get my son placed in a good school. Oh Em Gee. Mana ai nak cari strings ittew??

I am now panicked!!! Firstly, nak find out, how do I change AD's school application dari BSP to S3. Pastu, problem adalah sekolah ittew technically is not near my house but near my office. hmmm...pening pening.

Hmm...so nak buat cemana nih? First, nak email PPD tanya what I should do. Next, start looking for 'strings'. heh heh.

mari kita freak out!

oh nooooooooooooooooooo.....................

suddenly, i realise yang walaupun dah pack 18 kotak of things, i may still have some things which I should have also pack in those boxes. Oh well..menyesal tak de guna, kan?

neway, i have been slacking off since i submitted my thesis. Sekarang tengah mode malas-malas tapi suddenly ter-realise...OMG. I only have about 9 days left before my trip and paper mahupon presentation text and powerpoint satu habuk pon tak buat lagi!!!! *panik* and, i must do my homework on the city like how to get to my hotel, places to visit, things to buy. haih..tu pon tak buat lagi!!!

di samping itu, i juga kena prepare paper for the conference in Japan dan a video for it as well, since I opted for a virtual presentation. *panik lagi sekali* tapi matila..conference fees pon tak bayar lagi. haih. tadi pergi bank tapi LUPA!!! tsk.

lepastukan, i rasa macam nak pergi to one more eu city before i leave. should i go to amsterdam (dan tgk garden kat kuekenhof yang buka sebulan dalam setahun ittew) or pi venice? i am torn between those two lah. I am also planning to go to Salzburg, maybe during the Easter break.

oklah...nak tidur.

esok nak peri return library books, pi photostat some stuff, breakfast at a new place and read an article and prepare my paper!!

lagi satu, i finally went through my vienna guide book and dah start crossing off places i have been to and mark those i want to go.

first up, is to make sure i finish my cafe crawl, at least at the Innere Stadt. I have a list of cafes which I want to try.

Itulah sebab esok nak try pi breakfast at this place. hehe. I also want to try the reputedly best falafel in wien. Tapi, breakfast dulu. Lusa nak pi a sandwich place. hehe.

Aside from that, I decided to take Aaron to the Kindermuseum. Might as well make full use of the facilities here kan? So I have made bookings (yes..kena book a spot uols..dah la only open to crawlers on fridays, at an hour slot) and our first time will be this friday. Cannot wait!!! If it goes well, I shall make bookings for every friday! :)

okie dokie.

dah upload

last night, i finally wrote my acknowledgement page. I felt that it was only right that I wrote it last. After that, I compiled my thesis.

Today, I went to uni, looked through my thesis, betulkan alingment and etc and then uploaded it on the uni database. Pastu, I sent it to the printers to get it printed and bind. Tapi tahu tak, konsep print and bind kat sini, kita isi online form, upload our data in pdf, pastu isi la kita nak cover kaler apa, tulis apa and etc, and then send in the form electronically. Pastu, kita tunggu depa call to confirm our order.

Maka, lepas I dah hantar the form tu, I rasa sangat lega dan pergi jalan2 cari makan, beli iced choc kat mcds dan naik tram nak pi ambik Aaron. Sekali, masa dah halfway nak ambik aaron tu, baru org tu call cakap there were some problems with my pdf document! dia kata, tak de page numbers, and ada satu part ni alignment dia off.

Oh...terus ai panik okeh! Terus turun tram dan naik semula tram at the other side of the road to get back to uni. Setelah mengodek2, akhirnya berjaya. Tapi kan, yang dah upload kat uni database ittew, tak leh dibetulkan lagi. takpelah..cuma tak de page numbers and 1 alignment problem. hope it would be ok.

so, it will be ready this Wednesday. it costs a BOMB! So, Wednesday ini, inshaAllah, saya akan submit uols!!!!!!! Cannot believe it. pastu, have to wait for defence. Am going to request that my defence be in April. Doakanlah boleh. I really really hope it would be possible to defend my thesis before I go back.

So now, I kena concentrate tulis paper, prepare presentation for conference AND finish up my book chapter. I can do this, right?

almost!!

i just finished compiling my thesis into one document. :)

esok nk pi uni, go through it again, check out pagination and then convert to pdf and upload it.

then, ambik print out from the upload and print thesis and send it for binding.

then, tunggu for defense!

sambil2 tu kena siapkan 2 papers & presentation, 1 book chapter n pack.

come on. yakin boleh!!!!

my baby is 3!!

Andi is 3. OMG. Time flies. Dah 3 tahun dah Andi.

He now speaks more fluently. Knows what he wants (cake 'ma-a-aus' and mr bean).

I miss him sooooooooooooooooo much. He always tanya bila mama nak datang. :(

p.s: i got the greenlight to attend conference kat tirana. :) cannot wait. tapi kan. i must tell you that the conference tu entah jadi ke tak. Sebab website dia macam tak update. Pastu, i tak tahu which slot am i in. Kan selalu dah dapat email cakap schedule, suggest where to stay and etc. ni non ado!!! Harap2 jadilah kan memandangkan dah dapat sponsor.

p.ps: i am almost done with my thesis. Semua dah buat. Am just waiting for my firend to give me the translated copy of my abstract. Sebenarnya ada orang dah translate siap. but i gave another friend pulak utk dia cantikkan sikit. ehhe. Should get it by Sunday. Pastu monday nak upload, print and bind. Binding takes 48 hours so should be able to submit by Thursday, inshaAllah.

p.p.ps: kenapa sekarang i selalu rasa macam light headed? Selalu rasa nak jatuh? mual. hmm....mungkinkah sebab tadi tak makan lunch?

dah tempah wardrobe!!

Dr Sunshine dah pi tempah our wardrobe. tingginya 9kaki. one side of the wall tu, panjang 5 kaki. lagi satu side of the wall tu,panjang dia 9 kaki. Cer teka berapa kos dia???


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(gatal kan nak buat dot dot tu konon macam surprise la kan)

neway, pintu dia sliding, anti jump thingy.dalam dia, dr sunshine choose to buat tempat sangkut baju tu and bawah is laci2. Atas tu, ada ruang la jugak.


its only 3850.

berbaloi kan?

Ala-ala built in, tapi ukur sendiri.

Lagi 3 minggu, inshaAllah, dia akan datang pasang.So hopefully cantik lah.

Curtain plak, masih dalam proses pemasangan.

Lampu, the electrician tak mai pasang lagik yang baru beli tu.

Aircond and stove bakal dibeli.

tak sabar i nak balik tengok rumah cemana!

dr sunshine is moving in bulan april ini, inshaAllah. :)

shopping tak habis habis

the trip to Pandorf yesterday was successful. :)

I berjaya rembat 2 le creuset caserole dishes to match kan dengan my polish ceramic caserole dishes and salt and pepper shaker and 1 spice jar.










Then, I also bought stuff at villeroy and boch: 1 deep serving dish and 4 gourmet plates, at 50per cent off!!!! I have been very interested in this particular design since last year tapi bila tengok harga at the kedai in the city, memang la tak dapat nak beli.Bila dah half off, terus i ambik you!!



i ingat nak tambah 2 bowls. Tapi tak de kat pandorf ittew so mungkin i kena pergi beli kat the store in the city.

what else?

oh...i got my dolce gusto capsules in the city. They had a special pack of 6 +2 for less than 30euros. Maka sangat berbaloi-baloi. I bought 1 special pack tu jer. Am planning to get 1 or 2 more. :)

Other than that, my shopping list has dwindled. I am contmplating nak beli ke tak coffee cups punye set and tall glasses for my ice lattes. Tinggal tu je la kot.

Periuk-periuk ni, mungkin tak beli dah. I think I have enough, for now.

Am going to only make one trip tomorrow to hantar barang because after that, I want to concentrate on reading my thesis' proofread copy. Nak tengok balik and hope I sempat baca everything by tomorrow. After that, ingat nak print out and hantar by end of this month, insyaAllah.

Doakan ai yer, uols. :)

hari ni, i took a break from lugging the luggages. I have made nine trips so far!!! Nanti ai akan ambik gambar of all the stuff I carried, once I finished. Just to let you know, the small room is almost filled with my stuff. I have 6 boxes so far....tu pon sebab dah tak de kotak kosong. So the rest of my stuff will be packed by the movers, i guess.

so, since today rest day, I decided to pergi beli barang yang masih belum dibeli.

I still need to buy
- botol susu
- serving dishes
- coffee capsules
- tall glasses for my cuppacino
- cake stand
- dutch oven

I bought the botol susu already. Coffee capsule tu, dah ada juga, but I want to get 8 more boxes.

Serving dishes and dutch oven tu, I plan to buy esok, since I am going to the outlet. Might get the cake stand there as well. Tall glass tu, I am not sure if nak beli ke tak. If jumpa, i beli. If tak de, i tak beli.

Aside from that, I got my thesis back from my proof reader. I still have yet to read it through. I plan to do it this monday, inshaAllah.

Esok, ingat nak cari kasut as well. And t-shirts. And other nice stuff to wear to work.

And, sedar tak sedar, I only have less than 10 weeks left.

p.s: my biceps are more defined semenjak kerja-kerja angkut barang ni. hih hih.

bibik or no bibik?

Hmm....dah dekat nak balik ni, macam-macam pulak lah idea Dr Sunshine.

Firstly, dia tetiba cakap tak nak hantar Dani to SRAI. There goes my keinginan. :( So, sekolah kebangsaan it is. But, I am going to try and get him placed in one of the smart schools, inshaAllah.

And now, he asked me to think about having a bibik. Sigh. I don't know. His argument (to have bibik) seems to make sense. BUt on the other hand, I don't like to have another person living in my house. So, how?

Why should I have bibik (menurut dr sunshine)
-the amount we are going to fork out for daycare + weekly cleaner is more than what we would fork out if ada bibik (who will be able to clean the house everyday)
- if mak or MIL datang, ada la teman kat rumah
- house will be clean.
- I would not be tired sangat sebab ada orang tolong buat house chores.
- we can go out for late night movies and mamak, without having to carry the boys (yang tengah tidur)
- can go for bike rides.
- senang mak to datang stay with us (we are trying to pujuk her to stay with us..hehe...along with my Along. :))

why i don't feel like having a bibik
- because I don't like having a stranger in the house
- i have trust issues and takut nak tinggalkan my boys with her.

so cemana sekarang ni uols?

to have bibik or not?

i was thinking, if nak ada bibik, Dr Sunshine kena install cctv so that i can see what she is doing.

hmm...if you were in my shoes, nak bibik ke tak??

the husband wants to buy an er6 and minta ai sponsor half of the down payment. I cakap ok. Dan dia amat surprise yang i bagi dia beli motor.

Ai kata: Yes, i tak kisah. Because I am sure you dah fikir betul-betul. Yang pasti, you kena take into account nak hantar anak2 daycare and etc. If you dah kira, and still rasa cukup, go ahead.

Ok tak jawapan i? Prinsip i. sebab motor tu kehendak dan bukan priority. Maka, in my opinion, lepas dah beli motor ni, ai bolehlah lenggang kangkung dan contribute minimal amount sahaja to the household expenses. Kata mampu, kan?

:)

destinasi belajar

i am excited!!!

sebab someone from embassy called me to cakap yang ada sorang malaysian going to pursue her phd here.

excited pasal apa tau? She's coming in April. I am leaving mid/end april. So, saya excited sebab bolehlah dia duduk rumah ai ni.

Dia memang ada suruh i carikan rumah untuk dia. For me, senang lagi if dia duduk sini. Lagipon, its not easy to cari rumah. I lost count of how many houses I viewed before settling on this particular flat.

Anyway, doakan la ye dia agree duduk sini.

Pasal hangkut barang,i have made 5 trips so far. Each time, i hanya larat bawa satu big luggage bag sahaja. I didn't want to strain myself by bringing two luggage bags at once. Sebab tram tu, bukan semua yang baru. If dapat yang lama, nak kena hangkut naik tangga tram lama tu satu hal. So, my strategy so far (dah 2 hari amalkan) is to carry aaron guna carrier tu, and seret cabin size bag filled with stuff. Letak bag and Aaron at friends house and balik rumah ambik beg beg besar pulak, one at a time. Sehari, maximum 3 trips je so far. Sebab nanti kena unpack plak at my friends house and repack masuk kotak. Memang penat.

Esok, I plan nak angkat my books and files and papers, bags and toys. I think first trip will consist of bags and some other bajus. Trips after that baru bawak toys and books. Then nak bawak benda2 kaca pulak.

PAstu the day after nak bawak bouncer, followed with car seat.

Pastu kena pi shop for other stuff like coffee capsules and milk bottles and scan pan knives and serving dishes.

then, have to tengok betul2, apa2 lagi yang mungkin tertinggal.

Hopefully, I will finish everything by the end of the week. And then, can concentrate balik on thesis. Which is, go through proof edited copy, print, bind and submit.

Wish me luck!!

p.s: sapa nak pi kuekenhof dgn i april ni?? Jom???

oh em gee *pekup mulut*

i have started packing my stuff!

OMG. Banyaknya barang nak pack. Can I just pengsan now??? Pack tu satu hal. Nak menghangkut it all the way to my friends house (with anakanda in tow) satu cerita plak. *pengsan lagi sekali*

I only have a week to do this!!!! Maknanya, lagi seminggu, rumah ai bakal jadi 3/4 kosong!!!

Esok, inshaAllah, I will be sending off 3 bags of clothes (in 2 trips). If sempat, I might also pergi kedai villeroy utk beli 2 serving plates to mix and match kan dengan the 2 serving plates I already bought dekat czech tu.

Some other things which I still need to get adalah
1. botol susu
2. scan pan kinves
3. pie maker
4. ice cream maker
5. coffee capsules
6. coffee cups/ tall glasses(tho this one kalau ada ok..if tak de tak apa)
7. bodum tea maker thingy
8. cake/dessert transporter
9. the coffee press coffee maker thingy

esok, i nak pi drop of 2 bags, leave aaron, and head to saturn to check out ada pie maker or ice cream maker. if ada, beli, and drop it off. then balik rumah to get one more bag. drop that off. then balik and maybe head to lutz to get that tea maker thingy and the dessert transporter thingy.

yes. i is very the gigih. haruslaa...

pastu nak kena pack pulaaakkk!!!!!!!!!! and next day kena transport benda2 lagi.

Sampailah semuanya selesai.

thinking about it makes me TIRED. But what to do. Dah nak tumpang orang kan. Kena la buat, by hook or by crook. Dah la my auntie out of town. If ada, can la minta tolong bawak barang2 naik keta. Dah tak ada, makannay, I have to lug the heavy stuff naik turun tram. Well, have to lah kan.

Still loads of things to pack!!!!!!

*pengsan*

sometimes I wonder, how the hell did I manage to accumulate so much stuff and stash it in my closets??

shopping spree

you see, i was planning totumpang a friend's contena to ship my stuff back. She was supposed to balik somewhere in April/ May. Sekali, dia dapat surat transfer few days ago...and her date of transfer is 29feb!!

OMG.

Maka, I pon tumpang panic sekali because this means that I would have to start packing as well. On top of that, there were still a lot of stuff on my to buy list!! And, the thought of transporting my stuff to her place pon agak membuatkan i risau sangat uols!! Yela..dengan nak bawak baby lagi, nak pi hantar-hantar barang lagi. How??

Tapi, nak tak nak, I have to do it. I will start bringing my stuff over to her place this Sundaym by batches.

And, on top of that, I have been shopping. Today je, I spend a lot of money!! errghhh...tapi, nasib tengah sale kan. So thank god for that!!

Today, i bought 1 stock pot, 1 fleisch pot, 1 set of stainless steel knives with the knive block and 1 dolce gusto coffee maker. I tell you, the knives tu, tak de dalam list pon. Tapi tergoda dengan rupa bentuknya. And it won't rust kan. So I thought its a good purchase. hehe. I wanted to buy another pan, tapi decided not to sebab nak kena bajet-bajet juga uols!!!

Pastu, I beli dolce gusto genio. I have been reading a lot of reviews. I was actually torn between getting an espresso machine OR a coffee maker yang guna capsules tu. Bila pikir-pikir, I don't really drink coffee so baik la beli yg guna capsule tu cos ada banyak flavour like chai tea latte, hot cocoa and even iced tea. Pastu, it was on sale (less than 100euros), so, i pon hambik jer la. :) Oh...one thing...dia ada international warranty and there's a service centre in Malaysia. So, ok la kan...dia ada 2 year warranty.

Esok, I plan to beli serving dishes, cake stands, coffee cups.

What else should I buy?

I haven't started packing. Honestly, I dread thinking about it!!!

First, I nak pack baju2, shoes.

Then, nak angkut my electrical appliances and pinggan mangkuk and kitchen stuff

Then buku-buku, toys

Oh....my house will be quite empty after next week.

Alang-alang dah pack bagai, I might as well balik cepat sikit, kan?

p.s: thesis dah dihantar to proof reader! :) InshaAllah dapat balik next week. I'll have to go through it again and then can submit.

p.ps:I am done with courseworks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.p.p.s: Lepas dah hantar thesis ingat nk pi holiday. Pastu nak kena tulis paper plak for 2 conferences and 1 book chapter.

pastu boleh balliikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!

doakan yer uols.

it only takes one stupid bitch to ruin a beautiful relationship.

i can forgive.

but, i never forget.

belum sampai waktu

hello all.

looks like i won't be submitting my thesis this week after all.

i am almost done with the citation thingy. tinggal a few je yang i cannot find the article in my hard drive. and uni library punya website tengah baiki so i cannot access online journals from home. so esok, i plan to go to uni to settlekan the citation thingy, pi pinjam 1 buku to cari citation and lepak kat this coffee shop i have been wanting to go to and edit my thesis.

what is left to do?

1. edit thesis
2. get my abstract translated to deutsch
3. format my thesis
4. last editing before i submit.

who knew, all this nitty gritty stuff actually takes time!! it doesnt help that Aaron is being extra clingy. :( it is almost done. i am almost there.

tapi honestly, i am still waiting for some feedback from my friend. I minta tolong dia to go through my thesis and give some comments. i hope that i would have time to work on her comments ittew. i really nak hantar my thesis. tapi at the back of my head, i fikir i should hantar a SUPERBLY written thesis. sebab kat sini, tak ada dah correction bagai. apa yang you hantar, itulah ur work. tak de konsep correction lepas viva and etc. so i might as well submit something good, kan?

tapi i feel the need to submit cepat because i really hope that i sempat viva before i leave for good.

anyway, i have decided to work on my thesis till friday.

weekend ni, i will have to start working on my paper which i need to submit on feb 15th.


p.s: i think andi misses me la. he has been asking me every day, bila nak datang. tsk. only a few more weeks sayang.

tolong. tolong.

today has been a very super duper trying day!!

nak jugak bagitahu, it is not easy to be a single mom with a baby while doing phd.

baby that is in his seperation anxiety phase. if tidur nak cuddle manjang.

how la am i suppposed to do my work? how? how?

lagi lagi sekarang ni saat genting

i really need to finish this. tinggal sikit je lagi tapi my son is not cooperating! i know he is just a baby. but he doest not want to sleep. does not want to play sorang. why god? why minggu ni dia macam ni???

dah la tu. macam2 nak jadi. air milo tumpah dekat my external!!! nasib external ok.

apa pon. i am so bloody stressed. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need some time to think. alone!

i need peace and quite.

i may sound selfish now. tapi i tell you. siapa yang tak melalui apa yang i rasa, you wont know how i feel.

so, siapa yang ada suami/mak or whoever di sisi masa buat phd, silalah bersyukur banyak-banyak.

i am trying my hardest to finish up my citation thingy. but, as much as i love to say its much easier with google books, i still need to read the chapters/book to jumpa bebetul the page number. so no. its NOT EASY.

sempat ke tak ni habis by jumaat?

i have already sub kan kerja check my reference to orang lain.

i just need to complete my citations thingy AND edit and reedit again.

on top of that, i have a paper due on feb 15th. and paper tu, i tak buat apa langsung lagi!!

help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sedih

sebab apa sedih? sebab iols kengkonon fenfeeling nak suprisekan husband dengan mulberry wallet yang dibeli di Paris (sebab vienna tak de mulberry store uols!). mak rasa dah cantik dah.

tapi.

suami tak berapa suka sebab tak muat duit malaysia. if nak muatkan, kena lipat2 duit. yela..masa beli tu, iols test dengan duit euro ajer. :(

maka, terasa sedikit sedih disitu sebab dia tak suka.

if only dia tahu how jauh i had to walk to find the mulberry store kat rue honorore ittew!!! penat ok. hmm...takpela, pengorbanan.

pastu, i beli juga polo shirt lacoste for him, long sleeve. satu tu belang-belang. satu tu plain colour but it has a pocket kat depan tu. adeke dia kata yg plain colour tu reminded him of his pbsm shirt masa zaman sekolah menengah? apakah motif meng-comparekan shirt lacoste dengan t-shirt pbsm sekolah?

maka, iols adalah upset harini. tapi iols bebuat tak upset la bila dia ala-ala komplen pasal my gifts. :(

logik kan i upset? kan?

p.s: i emailed mulberry to ask if i can exchange the wallet to something else in the KL store. if not, maybe can post it back or something. alang-alang exchange, baik mak beli alexa atau poly push lock sebijik. *oopsss*

p.ps: iols tak sempat update pasal paris trip sebab amat busy nak ngabiskan thesis nieh!! but lets just say, i bought a few bags. hih hih.

to do

1. citations for chapter 6 (tgh nak buat) and 1
2. check list of references (hopefully can sub kan benda ni to someone)
3. print out chapters and abstract
4. edit chapters and also abstract
5. write acknowledgement
6. print everything
7. edit everything, again.
8. print
9. upload on the system
10. bind and SUBMIT!

plan to habiskan no 1 by esok.
no 3 and 4 to be done tomorrow
5,6,7 by wednesday
8,9 and 10, by friday, inshaAllah

ps: assignment bila nak buat?? uwaaaa....*gabra*

i wonder...

is it wrong if a girl tak suka if the husband socialises with his girl colleagues/staffs after office hours?

diskriminasi di ikea smaland

today, dr Sunshine took my boys to ikea. He wanted to pergi survey barang-barang. Sesambil tu, boleh bagi the boys run around and play in the Smaland kan.

Neways, few weeks back, Andi was not allowed to play inside because katanya tak cukup tinggi.

This time around, Dr Sunshine tried his luck, again.

Kali ni, there was this mom of three girls yang q depan dr Sunshine. The girls tu, sorang, bigger than Andi. lagi dua were obviously smaller in size and were not even potty trained!! (ada rules yang kalau nak letak anak kat situ, dah kena potty trained). So, the orang jaga entrance smaland to obviously kenal the mom and three kids from the way she greeted them by name and chit chat lama like oohh...dah lama tak nampak! how are you girls and etc. Needless to say, they got in easily.

Pastu, tiba giliran andi and dani. Dia tanya Dr SUnshine, dah ukur ke height Andi kat the chart to see if he is allowed in. Dr Sunshine kali ni jawab: Well, he is certainly taller than your Fatima and Zahra (Dr Sunshine heard the names..hehe). Pastu, the girl tersenyap. And pandang belakang kat the girls and looked at andi, obviously to compare their height. Finally, dia bg la si andi masuk.

Nasib baik.

apa pon, mmg byk songeh ok! kalau dapat tukang jaga yang mengada,kesian andi.

sharing is caring #7

i jumpa my sv last Tuesday and he told me that he wanted to go through my references, which I had not printed out. The reason I did not print out was because I have yet to properly susun it according to alphabetical order. sigh. Maka, sejurus selepas balik rumah, I set out to arrange the references.

Needless to say, I found the task to be tiring. Its not easy to go through pages of references and susun it accordingly. So I thought, I might as well give some tips to those who are about to embark on a PhD journey or even tengah buat masters.

You see, when are a postgrad student doing research, you are bound to read hundreds of books and articles, some of which you may use in your thesis. The list may be loooonnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg and the work it takes to susun it would be quite arduous.

So, I gave an idea to my Dr Sunshine, who is about to embark on this research journey himself, regarding this --compilation of references.

I propose that he creates a file for references in which there are sub files with each alphabets. Maka, there will be 26 sub files altogether. So, whenever he reads an article/book, boleh terus type out or cut and paste the source to the respective alphabet file.

NAnti, at the end of the day, all he needs to do is re arrange the source accordingly in the files, and then combine everything together. I think, this would be a more efficient way dari what I am doing right now. Yela, masa I tulis allmy source,I thought I was being efficient already, but apparently, there's still room for improvement.

MAka, itu saja my tips of the day yang ingin di sharing-is-caring-kan.

hope it will benefit you!!!

february is here

i met my sv yesterday. Pastu, dia finally skimmed through my thesis and asked me to add 5 or 6 pages in my chapter 1, I guess to make my argument clearer. Honestly, I think I just need to re-structure my chapter 1. Tapi tulah...maka ai akan re-work on my chapter 1.

Then, he asked me to add the page numbers for citations yang I tulis. That, my friends, would need a lot of work because I really need to korek balik buku and articles that I reffered to.

So,my list of things to do is:

1. redo chapter 1
2. write abstract and sent it to be translated
3. update reference (citations dengan page numbers)
4. Print everything
5. write cv
6. write acknowledgement
7. edit everything
8. re-edit everything
9. re-edit again
10.print
11. HANTAR!!!!

i hope to finish 1-5 by this weekend.

on top of that, I still have a journal article to write for an assignment, which, sekarang, credit hournya tak diperlukan pon sebab i am done with collecting credits since my contirbution to a book would be given 5 credits. woot woot!!! but, i would still need to write it la kan. deadline adalah 15 feb.

other than that, I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy and bersyukur yang I am done with collecting credit hours. Betul kata orang, biar terover-over ambik courses and ada extra credits in hand, dari sikit dan alih-alih tak cukup pulak!

aside from that, sv finally contacted that prof from Klagenfurt and she agreed to be the second reader of my thesis. Alhamdullillah.

So now, all is left to do adalah no 1-10, and I will be done, well, at least until VIVA.

I can do this right???

InshaAllah.

sharing is caring #6

Kali ni, i nak sharing is caring pasal tempat beli lampu, kipas dan water heater paling murah di Klang Valley!!!

Ia adalah di:
No.33, Jalan BPU6, Bandar Puchong Utama

Sila pergi ya!! Memang murah sangat.

Mula-mula, we went there to beli lampu. This was when I was back last year. We bought a bunch of lights and 2 kipas jer. Harga kipas dia, memang murah berbanding dengan kedai lain yang we ols survey. Even the lights pon!! I saw the same light I bought for my living room dijual di Nilai 3 dengan 300% lebih mahal dari apa i beli kat houses lighting. the same lights!!! sama sejibik sejibun!!!

Anyway, a few weeks ago, Dr Sunshine started to cari storage water heater plak. He went to a lot of shops. We have decided to intall Joven storage water heater. Maka, dia dok compare-compare la prize kan. Kedai joven sendiri, mak aii...mahal uols! So, i cakap la kat Dr Sunshine, cer check kat Houses Lighting, ada jual tak storage water heater. Cos the last time I went, I nampak that water heater biasa tu ada. So Dr Sunshine pon pergila. Dan...harga yang dijual di sana almost 40% less that harga kat kedai lain!!!

Maka, Dr Sunshine akan ke sana lagi sekali untuk memborong lampu, kipas dan juga water heater. hehe.

So, if you all are in the midst of buat rumah and etc, do visit this shop. Memanglah, macam jauh sikit kan. Tapi berbaloi baloi!!

sharing is caring #5

lately, my skype sessions with dr Sunshine will be filled with talks about our house. He has been surveying harga furniture, curtain, water heater dan sebagainya. And, masa dia dok survey-survey furniture tu, dia tengoklah jugak wardrobe. haa...ni la yang i nak sharing-is-caring-kan today!!!

you see, in our master bedroom, there is a space for a walk in wardrobe. saiznya lebih kurang 7ft x 9 ft. I have been dreaming of doing a built in wardrobe to fill up the space, tapi banyak yang mahal uols!!! Tapi, masa dr Sunshine pergi survey furnitures tu, dia nampak la wardrobe kan. And he suggested to me, why not kita beli like 2 wardrobes and put it next to each other, so nampak macam ala-ala walk in la kan. i was like..errr...

pastu, on another one of his surveys, dia jumpa wardrobe yang L shape!!! wah..menariknyer. Jadi dia pon tanya la tokei kedai tu, cemana depa jual wardrobe tu. Tokei tu kata la, well the wardrobe comes in a few sizes, and you can pilih what you want to put inside. We just give the measurements, and they will pasangkan at our house. Well, bunyi macam buat built in wardrobe jugak kan?? well ya!!! memang macam buat walk in wardrobe. EXCEPT, untuk deal macam ni, kita yang kena ukur sendiri ruang tu! No one will come to our house and ukur2 exactly how big the space is.

BUT, the quote which the tokei gave is way cheaper than getting a built in wardrobe, in which orang datang ukur kat rumah tu!!! untuk L shape wardrobe (satu side tu 7 ft, satu side tu lagi 9ft dan tinggi 9 ft), will cost us less than 5K. And, dia guna solid wood, not melamine atau chip wood.

Actually, I rasa harga ni murah lah. Sebab, I have been surveying on the net and rata-rate dorang quote between 330 above untuk 1 feet (tu paling murah i jumpa on the net for built in wardrobe). Bila kira untuk size yang ai nak, it is more than 5K.

So, I rasa, this ukur sendiri wardrobe adalah seswai untuk sesiapa yang mengimpikan built in wardrobe, tetapi is on a budget. You still get to pick how your inside looks like, the type of pintu you want and etc.

Cer try!!! Dr Sunshine is going to ukur the room again and will book the wardrobe soon.

p.s: The bunk bed we bought has arrived!!! Next is to beli curtain and kipas and the boys' room will be almost complete.

risau

Dr Sunshine told me that my mom's hand is swollen dan ada puss, katanya mungkin tercucuk ikan bilis. I am sooooooooooooooooooo worried!!!

I am also guilty sebab if it was ikan bilis, mesti thats the ikan bilis for me which she kirim-ed through my friend.

and maybe uols rasa, why nak risau bagai kan??

Well, my dad had a swollen ibu jari kaki as well, and ada puss. And, he had diabetis, which made it difficult for it to heal. They had to cut the toe off. And a few days after that, he passed away. :(

Memang technically he died because of heart attack. But, the thought of my mak having puss on her anggota badan scares me!! Hubby is going to perform a minor op to clear up the puss. I really really really hope that it will get better soon. Thank god she does not have diabetes. Tapi saya tetap risau. TSK.

ok. saya dah selesai buat presentation terakhir dalam karier saya sebagai pelajar phd. :) (this does not include viva ok)

next, is obviously assignment terakhir. tapi assignment terakhir ni tricky sikit. instead of buat paper berdasarkan soalan yang dia dah tulis siap-siap like the other students, my prof nak i buat journal artikel. tula, buka lagi mulut kan, tanya cemana nak get my papers published. well, it is good, kan? At least, when she reads it and corrects it, I boleh dapat feedback to improve my paper and hopefully can send it to an established journal.

anyway, she extended the deadline to feb 15th (syukur!!!). I am sooooo glad because i would not have time to write it, otherwise. yela, dengan nana nak datang, pastu nak pi paris, and not to mention, nak submit my thesis. *lap peluh*

oklah. i don't really have the mood today. actually, i plan to correct my chapter 6 since i edited in on paper yesterday. tapi.....heheh

worait.

berpeluh

berpeluh di musim sejuk??? bukan secara literal, tapi metafora ajer.

Today, I finally finished writing my text for my presentation next week. Alhamdulillah. Esok nak print out and edit. Pastu, nak kena prepare powerpoint plaks. Kalau dulu, mesti buat powerpoint dulu, pastu baru pikirkan text. But now, i do my work the other way round. I find that it works better for me.

After that, I need to siapkan my final assignment (hopefully!) for my phd studies. woot woot!!! tak sabarnya nak submit, actually. Tapi tulis tak habis lagi. hehe.

Lepas tu, haritu ai pergi jumpa the lady yang uruskan pasal phd studies ni, mikusch, just to check on the borang I sent to be approved. Actually, I minta approval supaya paper yang i present last may to be acknoledged dan diberi mata ects. i ingat dapat 3, tapi depa bagi 5!!! Syukur sangat sangat. Ini bermakna, ai dah ada 2 extra credits, dan tak perlulah nak sit for the exam (that I thought i need to sit for this month). Selain itu, I submitted another borand, requesting for my contribution to a book chapter be given ects credits as well. I really hope I will get some, inshaAllah (hoping for 4ects!).

Then, I also met my SV. Ingat nak discuss what I have written so far. But he said he wants to see the completed thesis on the 31st. Maknanya, I dah kena print out, macam nak pi hantar binding already. Just for him to see. Ok boss. So, sementelah nak pi edit my presentation text esok, ingat nak edit my chapter 6 as well. I see that I need to add some more stuff for my chapter 6. So, since Dr Sunshine pon oncall esok, maka I forsee myself spending some time at Stabux with sidekick in tow. :)

I also met one of my friend who has completed her phd just recently!! She told me that she submitted her thesis in June and was called for viva in october. But another friend, yang his visa was about to expire was able to get his viva done before he left. So, I am hoping that luck will be on my side and that I sempat viva before I leave. However, if tak sempat, I akan balik dulu. :( Cuma a bit the hassle lah nak kena apply for viva from Mesia. Oh well, inshaAllah, all will be ok.

All in all, I cannot wait to perabiskan my assignment.

On my trip to paris, I plan to write my acknowledgement page.

Selain itu, other stuff I need to do for my thesis are:
1. resume
2. abstract (english and deutsch!)
3. check references
4. double check spelling
5. formating
6. check table of contents

maybe i can get nana to help me when she is here. hih hih.

Tarikh target submit thesis: 3 Feb 2012.

Doakan ye kawan-kawan.

Lepas tu, bolehlah merdeka kejap sebelum viva. huhu. :)

Oh..kawan ai kata, nanti kita akan dapat kertas yang examiner tulis review. Pastu dalam tu akan ada soalan2. Maka untuk viva, kita prepare untuk jawab soalan ittew and also prepare to explain our work. fuh.

Oh..lagi satu, katanya, convo di sini is in January and October. Maka saya sangat amat berharap akan berkonvo October 2012, inshaAllah.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan ku. Amin.