Syukur

Alhamdullillah, all my files could be recovered!!!! Syukur sangat-sangat ya Allah. How did I do it?

I went to vienna-expat forum and searched for computer and ada this one guy recommended a person who can fix computers. I went to that guys website and tgk a youtube video he uploaded in which he salvaged a usb stick dan the files in it. Terus I felt like there is hope that my external hard drive could be saved!!! So, on Monday, I went to that guys place. Jauh juga tempat tu, but I managed to find it. Dia kata, he will try his best to fix it, dan kos maxima mungkin adalah 70euro. I pon ok ajelah....

Lepas tu, I felt like treating myself to some hot choc and cake. Masa tengah minum2 hot choc tu, dapat text cakap dah siap baiki!!! cepat ok the service. hihi.

Lagi satu, I bersyukur, anak2 ai dah baik demam. :)

Next...is, one of my paper has been accepted to be presented at a conference in Japan. I will be presenting vitually because conference is in April. So, inshaAllah, next year, akan ada 2 paper presented at international conference and dalam proceeding. :)

Tapi kan, tetap la i tak habis2 lagi tulis pasal modernity nieeee......*ketuk kepala sendiri*

you get what you give

Hari ini, saya tidak bangun untuk solat Subuh.

Dan tak tahulah sama ada kebetulan ke apa, hari ni adalah antara hari paling sh**y yang pernah saya alami.

1. Pergi buat groceries, namun tertinggal satu barang di kaunter and only realised it when i got home. Mak tak koser nak pi kedai tu balik, lagipon what proof do i have that I tertinggal barang ittew di kaunter.

2. My laptop dan juga komputer di universiti tak boleh read my external hard drive which contains my thesis!!!!!! And altho I have some backup (only a few chapters) the ones that I have corrected atau add info non ado back up. I wanted to do it today but alas...this thing happened! Call dr sunshine, tapi terasa seperti kena marah.:( Maka call kawan di sini and she said, maybe the cable that connects the external to lappie yang longgar. Emm..mungkinkah? LAgipon it did jatuh before i guna pagi tadi. Maka decided to go to Saturn to get a new cable.

3. On the way to Saturn to get a new cable to connect my external hard drive to the lappie, bus berenti jaaauuuuhh lagi dari stesen that i want to turun. Sebab apparently now, every Samstag leading up to xmas, bus will only stop till this particular station. Maka, terpaksa I menapak (sambil ber-babywearing cik Aaron yang agak berat ittew).

Now i am home (its almost 4pm) and baru nak makan breakfast/lunch. :(

Lepas makan ni, nak test if pertukaran cable berjaya menyelamatkan external ku. Doakan yek.

Ke uols yang expert2 computer tu camana i can rectify this matter????

pasal sms

Tahu tak, when i was pregnant with aaron last year, i text Dr Sunshine almost every single morning (time malaysia), just to say good morning ke, or drive safely ke or apa2 ajelah.

Pastukan, when I got back here with Aaron, I pulak yg dapat text almost every morning from him!!!!!! *tersengih lebar*

I tell you, waking up to find a text from my husband is one of the greatest feeling ever. It may seem so simple, but, it really makes my day! :)

Lagi-lagila bila dapat text ajak pergi holiday. Ooohhh...cannot wait for it to materialise.

Ok, sekarang, kena buat kerja. :)

mulut yang laju dari otak

ok. hari ni i rasa i buat sesuatu yang mungkin akan membinasakan diri sendiri.

you see, i tengok kawan-kawan i yang dah complete phd kan, cara sorang buat kerja adalah, tulis, sv cek, pastu depa buat corrections, sv recheck, pastu dah ok baru submit, betul?

So, I pon dengan innocentnya ingat its just like that over here. Maka tadi, bila sv tanya bila rasa-rasa nak hantar my completed thesis, i kata in december as I set a deadline for myself, which is dec 5th. yes.deadline ittew adalah tarikh di mana saya yakin akan siap ketujuh-tujuh bab sahaja. read. bab2 sahaja. bukan abstrak lah, acknowledgement, update references, dan segala bagai mak nenek ittew.

tapi, rupa-rupanya konsep kat sini (or maybe konsep sv i la kan) ialah bila sv kita examine thesis kita, dia tak baca draft2 sume tu. dia akan baca the binded copy tu terus utk examination. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....so how?? so bila dia kata bila nak submit tu, maksudnya bila nak submir the binded copy. pepandai je kan i kata nak hantar in december.....

takpe.

this means i have to work extra super duper hard.

my plan of action adalah work my butt of and submit it before xmas hols. doakan i berjaya ye uols.

p/s: risaunya nak hantar kerja yang tidak diperiksa oleh sv. mujur butiran thesis tu, well, some of it, i dah guna dan diperkisa untuk a few assginments.

caiyok caiyok!! kata mak budak yang nak tengok amazing race dulu sebelum start buat kerja

almost there

Dear blog,

Hari ni, ai bertungkus lumus habiskan bab 6 yang sudah lama tergendala. Tahu tak betapa susahnya nak curahkan idea wahai blog? Dahlah tu, anakanda pulak hari ni a bit grumpy (prolly because i pepandai pi minum green tea and i think that made him gassy..logic ke my tanggapan wahai other breastfeeding moms?) and only wants me to hold him. I can letak him la sekejap-sekejap. Finally, sebab tak tahan, i just placed him on a pillow on my lap while i continue to type away, like masa sekarang ni. Atas lap, tido punyaaaa nyenyak!

Anyway, back to chapter 6. Yes. Selesai akhirnya. Tho baru habis tulis ajelah. Belum lagi baca dan edit semula. You knowlah kan bila baca dan edit tu...sekali overhaul. Whatever it is, I am just so super happy uols!

Dengan ini, saya ingin mengumumkan that I only have 1.5 more chapters to go!!! 0.5 adalah part modernity yang ai tak mula lagi tulis dan 1 tu adalah conclusion uols!!!!! I am so excited to be able to get this far dan bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi sebab memudahkan kerja ai. :) Tapi at the same time, kadang-kadang risau jugak if apa yang i tulis tu tidak menepati kriteria. NAmun begitu, kita buat yang terbaik kan. SV tu hanya akan baca bila dah complete.

So, esok ingat nak start retyping stuffs that I plan to use for my modernity piece. Kalau boleh, by Tuesday dah nak start writing. I am waaayyyyyy pass my deadline. Sepatutnya, I should have finished writing everything by 20.11 and start my proofreading and editing process. Tapi tak apalah kan. My new target date is 5 December, inshaAllah. Tolong doakan i berjaya ye uols? Kalau sempat siap by 5 December, boleh la minta SV tolong baca dan betulkan. Pastu can do corrections and then submit to sv again and then correct again dan kemudian submit for external review. I really hope that I can submit it before january ends, inshaAllah. I really envision myself going back at the end of March. But, I am not sure if I should still go back if tak dapat jawapan or result from reviewer ittew cos lepas tu nak kena arrange for viva plaks. hmm... Takpe, tu nanti kita pikir when the time comes.

Oh, and I have a piece of good news to share! My paper has been accepted for one of the conferences that I talked about, Alhamdullillah. Conference is at the end of March. Am itching to go actually, but tak surelah if feasable or not. huhu. If not, kita jadi virtual presenter sajalah ek.

Ok. ittew saje dari iols.

Esok ada some thingy happening at D's house. So I shall be going there. Balik tu I akan buat kerja.

Monday nak pi jumpa SV. Sebelum date ittew, I nak pi print out my chapter 6. Lepas meeting dgn sv i plan to lepak stabux and proofread my chapter. Having said that, I couldnt believe that my chapter 6 is supppeeerrrr panjang.

Oklah. ittew saje blog. Doakan kejayaan ai ek?

menarik!!!

one of the things that i have been doing these past few days ialah to browse the internet cari conference. And, I just found out that some conferences allows virtual presentations! How cool is that?

You see, I mmg terasa nak present paper buy my biggest worry ialah, siapa akan jaga Aaron during the duration of the conference. There is such a thing as flying nanny offered at my uni, in which a babysitter from the kinderbeuro will ikut kita ke conference tu and help care for our child tapi keringlah poket ai if nk kena bayar fir their flight, food, accomodation n child care charges kan? That sort of stopped me from sending out abstracts n etc.

Tapi, dengan konsep virtual presentation ni, ai tak payah risau pasal siapa nak jaga anak n also the flight tix and accomodation. Its much much easier on my pocket and you are still considered as a presenter walaupun tak de kat sana in real life. :)

So far, I came across two conferences which i am interested in yang offer virtual presentation. So what would a virtual presentation be like? Well, satu tu, dia suruh kita record our presentation and upload it in a specific channel on youtube. Satu lagi tu, kita kena submit poster and if ppl are interested in our paper atau research, they can email to ask the questions.

Best kan??

Ok...I better start writing my abstracts.

p.s: lepastu, nak look at my chapter 6 yg dah seminggu diabaikan. but on the bright side, i finished my book review!! i plan to submit it to a journal as well, inshaAllah. :)

habislah

i was not productive at all last week. I did not even bother to touch my thesis atau apa-apa yang berkaitan dengannya.

tapi semalam, selepas kena 'sound' dengan Dr Sunshine, barulah nak start baca buku that I have to review (and kena submit the review by Nov 29th). There's 12 chapters, and I baru nak masuk chapter 7. uwaaaa.....nasib baik buku tu ada kaitan dengan a paper I have to write and also my research. Alahai...whylah so malas sekarang ni??

Tapi...dalam malas-malas tu, I ada juga rajin sikit. Rajin apa tau? Rajin browse online for things that I nak bawa balik. aiyoo..tak sedar diri betul i ini kan? Kerja tak buat, tapi dah berangan nak balik. howlah???

Dr Sunshine and I agreed that tak payah beli electrical items. I am planning to bring back pinggan mangkuk, periuk belanga and other knick knacks...maybe like baking pans and etc. itu sajalah barang2 household yang akan dicari dan sedang dicari pon sekarang ni. hehe.

I feel like going to UKlah untuk beli all those tea towels yang kiut-kiut dan benda seangkatan dengannya. Namun demikian, harapan ittew mungkin tidak feasable. *nangis*

oklah...nak sambung surf internet lagi..heheh...

tourist guide

hari ni, i jadi trousit guide for a very very very important guest!

you see, my biggest boss ever ever univc is in town for a meeting or something like that and she brought her dotter-in-law and cucu (sangat lucky ok d.i.l dia dapat m.i.l macam dia!!! she gets to follow her to alot of places on 1st class lagi tuu...ok la..i think its 1st class because that was what i saw at the stroller tag. hehe. hotel memang confirm lah 5star!).

anyway, since she has a meeting, saya telah dipertanggungjawabkan untuk bawa d.i.l sightseeing. oh emm gee. the dil mmg sgt baik and best ok. And, what amazes me was she is of mix parentage (european +melayu) and lives overseas most of her life, tapi dia so comfortable cakap melayu. in fact, dia cakap macam kita je. manglish with a lil bit of french. and, sungguhpun i can see that they have a lifestyle that I don't have (pra.da diaper bag, d&g baby romper, lacoste baby shoes), depa sangaaattttt lah modest! i like. who would have thought kan?

tidak perlu dikatakan, saya memang sangat amat amat nervous bila around the biggest boss ever ever and the 2nd big boss (sampai makan pon control uols!!!). tapi depa baik sebenarnya. i particularly like the 2nd big boss. sangat baik. dan bagi tips2 pasal how to get fundings for research and etc!!

needless to say, i plan to keep in touch, especially with 2nd big boss who was very kind n bahasakan herself as nenek to aaron.

esok i plan to have coffee with d.i.l. friday mb nk jumpa jap cos ingat nak pass some chocs and & local cakes which i loooovvveeee. :)

yg penting juga, saya tak sentuh pon kerja2 phd saya!! deadline dah lari ke laut. tsk.

yg penting, my biggest boss and 2nd big boss main cak cak dgn aaron. uols ado?

my wedding playlist

I found my wedding playlist while reading through my old blog!!! I have been looking for the playlist for ages. I compiled the list sebab masa tu my bridesmaid nana ditugaskan untuk cari lagu-lagu tu dan burn kat cd supaya masa reception boleh main lagu-lagu ittew!!!

all the songs have special meanings to me and actually reminded me of the times that i spend with my friends, my bf. Semua lagu tu memang ada kenangan. anyway, here's the list....

Mel C's never be the same again: I have always always felt that it was our song. That song came out when we just started dating and its about friends who became lovers. jadi sangat seswai ok untuk jadi lagu tema! (altho haku je la kan rasa macam tu...wakakakak)

You''re still the one by Shania Twain: Lagu ni, reminds me of gang projek yang always there for me, especially during my difficult phase ittew. They supported me all the way! An also because my kisah percintaan penuh ranjau berduri (chewah) and the relationship had to go through one of the most horriblest (if there is such a word) phase. Tapi, I thank god that afz was strong and had confidence in us and pulled me back up. :)

Jangan bersedih lagi, Anuar Zain: Lagu that I used to cry to in the car on the way to work, on the way back from work, or any time i felt like it during the difficult phase of our relationship. Memang kena ok lagu ni dgn iols!!

All my life, K-ci and Jojo: I always consider this my song with my KT girls, my best friends since standard 1. Thank you for being my sisters. *teary eyed*

Because you love me, Celine Dion: afz pernah nyanyi lagu ni for me masa kitaorang dating dekat the weld. (ohemgee, my memory is so kuat okeh..wakakak...another song that he used to sing for me was a better man by robbie williams)

Percayalah, ct nurhaliza: lagu ni selalu pasang masa lepak main that ball game on wani's pc, while waiting to buka or nak pergi dinner. lagu ini juga selalu berkumandang semasa saya rindu gila kat afz yang semasa itu belajar di kelate (padahal every 3 weeks kot jumpa..wakakakak)

swear it again, westlife: lagu ni, reminded me of my first year. masa dgn gang bib. mek. mesyuarat tangga. masa frust dapat tahu adam is dating someone else. tapi tak lah frust sangat pon uols...mak ada bf lain shorlt after that. wakakakak...

manisnya senyumanmu, elite: lagu bila mak karoks dgn gang2 bib. also lagu masa intai ali. wakakkaak...oh..i miss my old roomate, sue and bib.. ingat tak masa kita intai2 ala.....haih..the stuffs kita buat masa 1st year. heheheh

thank god i found you,mariah carey: lagu yang i perasan is lagu i dgn afz. wakkakaka..tapi honestly, thank god he 'saw' me. memang la i found him, tapi if dia tak sedar kewujudan mak nothing will happen, right? hehehe

This I promise you, N Sync: lagu masa rindu2...wakakak..dan juga reminds me of tet. Tet, if ko baca ni, ingat tak lagu ni tet? ingat tak kita suka nyanyi lagu ni kuat2? Lagi satu, kita suka nyanyi lagu bsb dalam toilet. lagu apa ek? haa..from the first daaaayyy...that I saw ur lovely faceeee...honey i knew that we will be..together forever......

I turn to you, Christina aguilera: lagu masa 2nd year...reminds me of the days i used to squating kat bilik wan cin. then lpepak bilik yani kecik and wan rose. then i moved to my own room..hehehe

Gadisku, Search: reminds me of ieja. and..reminds me of my guy friends, ejam, mucher, wark, arwah pau...they made this tape for me and sang this song...i will never forget it!

so in love, all-4-1: sri aman daysss....yc, my, mh, aw, mt, mm. i miss uols.

mencintaimu, Kris D: entah kenapa, this song ada dalam list i. hmm..maybe sebab ni lagu kawen kot...wakakakak

Sunshine, gabrielle: gang lepak sampai subuh, iaitu wan cin, wan rose, grunge, najeeb, norman, di feringghi...lagu ni mmg buat aku ingat kat korang....lagu thong song pon ingatkan aku kat korang jugak..wakakakak..

flying without wings, westlife: lagu ni, afz slalu juga nanyi...this song reminds me of him.

because of you, 98 degrees: ni lagu dgn nana....and also ingat zaman kmk..heheheh...

So, whats your lagu???

my fourth raya haji!

Cannot believe that this will be my fourth raya haji.

This will be the 2nd raya haji semasa buat phd that i have a family member with me. Last time, it was my darling Andi. Now, its Aaron's turn to teman mama.

Anyway, kami ingin mengucapkan selamat hari taya haji kepada semua, di mana jua anda berada. Dengan ucapan, ingat-ingatla kat kitaorang time-time makan sedap-sedap tu!

Mwah.

p/s: Aaron finally turned over today!!! Way to go Aaron. Next, mengesot and duduk and punggah almari baju

sweet ke sedih?

i think Andi misses me.

Tahu tak kenapa I cakap macam tu?

Cos while skyping tadi, he was kissing the computer screen endlessly. Sebab dia ingat dia cium mama dia and adik dia.

*cries*

renew resident permit

haih. i tell you. i selalu bermasalah lah bila bab renew residence permit ni. tapi sebenarnya i rasa yang membuat masalh ni ialah the particular office which services my district. sebab apa tau. my other friends yang kena pergi ofc at district lain, ok aje. easy peasy je bila nak renew permit ittew.

terbaru, i kena pergi ke kreditsverschutzband office plak dah!!!! i tak pi lagi, but i guess tujuan ke ofc tu untuk mintak statement yg i tak akan bankrap anytime soon, i guess. haih., perluke? i ni, hutang pon non ado ok. penat tau nak kena ke sana ke mari mengendong anakanda ku.

petang ni, i plan to pergi settlekan everything. then,esok pagi boleh pi submit all the documents ke visa office ittew dan tunggu ajer for them to call me cakap visa siap.

minta-mintalah semuanya dipermudahkan.

needless to say, saya berasa letih and by the time i get homei have no mood to look at my beloved chapter 6. huhu. tapi i really must must must do it lah!

apa yg tinggal utk chapter 6?

-finish up intro

- kemaskan my analysis on rural areas

- discussion

- conclusion.

i think today i kena, by hook or by crook, finish up the analysis on rural area so that esok boleh concentrate on doing the discussion. lepas siap, bolehlah habiskan intro and buat conclusion.

Ya Allah. permudahkanlah urusan ku.

p/s: lepas ni kena start reading the book for my book review pulak. *letih*

when the going gets tough...the tough gets going

hrmm...am still working on my chapter 6. At the same time, I have this book review thingy which I would have to submit. blearghh...

anyway, i was talking to dr sunshine yesterday he told me of his plans for the future.

Lepas dah buat masters, kena posting somewhere outside the Klang Valley and he is actually thinking of applying to somewhere in the Borneo. Lepas two or three years in the borneo, nak apply buat subspecialty pulak. nanti 3rd year of sub, he will have the option to be attached to a hospital abroad for 6 to 9 months. lepas tu, balik semula and hopefully dapatlah kerja somewhere dekat2 rumah.

Ok. the question is. Where do I fit into all this??

Haih. no 1. Mak tak rela dia pergi ke Sabah or Sarawak without me! no way jose dia pergi sorang-sorang ok. *matilah posesive* So, adakah i kena cuti tanpa gaji? Or, is there any way that I can request to be seconded to one of the unis there?

No 2, masa pi overseas tu nanti. How? Ok..tu mungkin I boleh request untuk sabatical kan. So, tak la berapa risau sangat.

hmmm.....honestly, I thought that nanti I dah balik next March (yeszaa...harus visualize ye yang saya akan balik in March), tak de dah la episode duduk berjauhan dari suami dan anak-anak. Apa pon, I can only pray and hope for the best, kan?

Ok..back to my chapter 6.