cannot wait

i cannot wait:

- to wake up next to my boys

- to go have breakfast with my boys

- to jalan-jalan with my boys

- to hug AD and Dr Sunshine kuat-kuat

- makan puas puas...

yeay.........counting the days babes. sementara tu, banyaknyeee benda nak settle...

delirious

weeeeeeeeeeeeee..............

I was so nervous when I stepped into my sv's room. yela...risau la if dia tak baca lagi whatever i handed up to him kan. baca ayat kursi tu all the way dari rumah ok sebab nervous punye pasal.

then, when i stepped into his room, dia tanya, what can i do for you. and i asked him if he has read what i gave him. and he konon2 macam dah baca. well, maybe he did la kot.(tapi mak a bit musykil if baca or not becos my file tu was as it is..but i guess he read the email i send him kot cos dia sibuk nak cari kat PC for the document) and he said i put effort in my work. terus kembang kuncup mak okei!!!

neway, he gave me some advice which I will incorporate in my research methodology. He asked me to mix the group so that I will get a better perspective.

so, kesimpulannya, he gave me the green light to proceed with my research. *woot woot*

so, Malaysia, here I come.

gang projek, jom pi makan makan next week!!!!

over shopped

err..is there such a thing as over-shopped?

I think I had over-shopped for my boys. My mom took home almost a bag full of clothes for them about three weeks ago but somehow, within the three weeks, I have successfully managed to buy another bunch of clothes. haih...nilah orang kata penangan summer sale. H&M tu, sampai dah berapa kali keluar masuk pon tak tahu. konon takut ada baju yang terlepas pandang *matila alasan.

neway, i have decided that i think i have done my wallet a lot of damage and will stop shopping as soon as i get that white zara shirt for AD few t-shirts and maybe 2 more shirts for AA.i takut excess luggage jer u ols! bukan apa, balik nanti i will be bringing back some of AA's stuffs and toys that he loves and of course his precious books.

hmm....neway, went to the outlet just now and only came back with 2 pants for the boys and a shirt for AA. People always tell me that summer sales are the best but somehow, from my experience here, winter sales are waaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy better. can get jackets, shirts and stuff for cheap cheap only!! summer ni, confirm lagi mahal. selection pon tak banyak. hmm..mungkin petanda untuk tidak menyoping kot?

Sembahyang Jumaat

Hari ni Friday. Today, AD called his papa at work.

"Papa, hari ni hari Jumaat. Pukul berapa nak pergi semayang? Papa lupa ke? Apa laaaa..."

I am very thankful that AD suka pergi masjid and I really hope that he will stay that way sampaaiiiiii dah besar nanti.

And 2 days ago, my mom texted me and told me that dia dengar macam AD baca tahiyat masa tgh main/mandi/ do anything. I guess he had learned that in school and was just practicing kot. Apa-apa pon, syukur sangat we decided to send him to GA cos at 3yrs 7 month, he's accomplished some stuff that even I tak tahu when I was his age. Oh...dia juga dah boleh colour within the line. And read his book. tapi bab reading ni, dorang macam memorize kan. so, takpe la...still a long way to go.

Whatever it is my AD, I am so proud of you. Nanti AA balik, AD ajar AA pulak ok?

Terima Kasih

This has been a slow week for me.I felt demotivated after my SV postponed our meeting. And so, my books were left untouched and I spend my me time window shopping (i blame the summer sale!).

Anyway, if you read my comments from the last post, yzma suggested that i prepare a powerpoint presentation to show my SV. Thank you so much for the suggestion!

You see, my problem is, i think my SV has even forgotten what my research is all about. haih. so, today, i prepared the slides. I decided to show my research objectives and also the method i plan to use. so, slide tak banyak. harap2 taktik ni menjadi.

Ahad ni kena khatamkan balik proposal and the methods section which i have already gave him so that i can explain better. maknanya, terpaksa tak boleh pegi Baden. takpe..Baden tu i dah penah pergi. Yang penting, trip to shopping outlet Sabtu ni tetap on!!!! *excited*

p/s: harap2 semangat untuk buat kerja, baca buku dan etc datang semula SOON!!

seteress

saya stress. tapi entahlah. hari ni dapat emel cinta dari SV yang mengatakan dia secara surprisenya terpaksa pergi salzburg. hmph. i guess what he meant was he had an emergency. well..there goes my hope of discussing anything with him!

he postponed it to next week. i hope by then he would have read whatever i gave him! i was already thinking of going back. tapi nampaknya terpaksa put on hold dulu my thoughts. haih.

in another note, i managed to finish reading a few books, despite of having to jaga AA alone. I think its all about time management. I read when AA is asleep. If he's awake, I can do my house chores or main dgn dia. :)

maybe, sementara tunggu nak jumpa SV ni,boleh lagi baca buku lain. i've got 2 more books yet to be read. and then, i shall look for more books or article.

and, since tak leh balik, boleh la pi shopping kat pandorf weekend nie..huhu. :)

Happy Father's Day

thank god i found you.

it is no secret that i had a crush on my husband waaaayyyyyy before he knew who i was. masa baru kapel tu, and he comes to visit (or i go to visit him), i would always rasa mcm its so unbelievable that the person who is standing/sitting next to me was him!

anyway, nak cerita pasal malam semalam. i was wondering how many ml of pcm to give AA n i called him tapi dia tak angkat so i assumed that he was in OT.

then, he called me back. n he said: you tahu, tadi masa tengah buat OT, i tiba2 rasa rindu kat you and i fikir lepas habis op ni, nak call you lah. so bila habis op, i basuh muka sebab ada darah tepercik (haih..perlu taw detail sampai darah bagai nak cerita kat i!) and i check my phone nak tgk mana tahu ada hospital call ke apa. sekali ada miss call from you.

oh...conversations like this, walopon tak sampai 3 minit, made my day.

i am so easy to please, kan?

ramblings

kenapa budak nak tumbuh gigi demam?

i hate it that my hair is falling drastically!! kenapakah? dulu dah stop and last 2 weeks it started again. tensi ok. adakah ia ada kaitan dengan anak yg tumbuh gigi?

i felt like i was discriminated by a cashier tadi. i dah beratur nak bayar n she said please go to other counters. so, i thought she was going to tutup counter. tapi yang herannya, orang2 belakang i tu, dia layan pulak. motiff??

AA masih membuat drama air mata when i left him. tapi kejap je. pastu dah ok. thank you Allah! that gives me about 2 hours plus to have some me time!

am supposed to do some typing tapi malas!!! jadi type blog jer la, aci tak?

i want to go to the factory outlet this weekend. dengar citer summer sale dah start.

tetiba macam suka kat speedy damier azur.ni adalah sebab saya gullible sebab nampak orang ramai pakai kat sini. macam masa teringin nak beli longchamp le pliage sebab ramai giller orang pakai kat sini.

apa yang kita boleh masak guna nanas dalam tin ek?

AA loves watching hotelmania. hahha....

i want to go home

aside from walking to and from daycare, i also have breakie and lunch/dinner. sebab apa, i only eat masa dah balik rumah which is about 5. so, tak kan nak dinner kot? but sometimes, lepas hantar AA, i buy krapfen *matila diet ke laut!*

buying from HnM online kat sini (not sure atother parts of the world) means getting your goods BEFORE paying for it. how cool is that?

my me time

it is now my me time. AA dah tido. nowadays, bila AA tido, i take the opportunity to read the books i borrowed from the library. hmm..deadline yg konon2 dibuat oleh diri sendiri untuk menulis artikel dah kelaut pon u ols! tapi takpe. pelan2 kayuh kan? the thing is, i suddenly found a lot of materials with regards to the Malay, so tak kan la nak start tulis masa tgh kumpul2 bahan kan? *matila alasan!*

anyhoo, AA has started going to the daycare. He wailed like nobody's business when i left him at the daycare today (day3). According to the carer, he cried for about 45 minutes. pastu, die berenti nangis (tapi still duduk kat peha carer) and after a while went about his business.

Masa mula2 tinggalkan dia tu, i waited outside the door and could hear him crying and calling out for me. haih..sangat sedih. hampir2 nak masuk tapi tahan diri. after 25minit camtu, carer tu (yg sebenarnye suruh i keluar jalan, tapi i yg sibuk tunggu) keluar, saw me, and said maybe i should wait inside the elternzimmer instead. i pon akur, n masuk ke bilik ittew. tapi pc yg tinggal for me to use sangat amat lembab nak mampus. jadi sementara tunggu dia nak startup, i pegi WC, and dengan ajaibnya, dah tak dengar AA nangis!!! terus i pegi capai beg dalam zimmer tu, and then curi2 dengar lagi, n memang confirm senyap, terus i pon zassss ke kartner (sebab nak pi exchange baju).

tomorrow, i plan to go to the library to collect the books i requested, and after that, nak pi tukar the baju lagik..hihiih...aiseh, asyik ambik tapi tak check betul2. first, terambik size XL (ni sebab kes nak cepat cos AA tiba2 PU and bocor ok kat lantai hnm ittew..terus i capai je baju n bayar without realizing i took the wrong size!). ni, dah ambik the right size tapi bila balik baru notice kecacatan (ala..sebenarnye tak nampak sangat pon, tapi i gatal nak tukar sebab kat sini kan sukati nak tukar or mintak refund).

in an unrelated matter, i read suzy's fitness blog how drinking milk can help you loose weight. so now, i nak tanye pendapat u ols, agaknye if minum skinny premium hot chocolate, considered macam minum susu tak? sebab dorang mmg buat guna susu kan?

i have been walking from schotentoer to the daycare everyday so far, kecuali today sebab hujan lebat ya amatz. tu pon tetap gagahkan diri berjalan balik ke schotentoer from the daycare sebab that is the only way to jamin AA akan tido on the way back to my flat. so, mak redahlah hujan tu u ols berbekalkan payung yang izard tertinggal kat rumah mak *waves at Izard*.

Nak dijadikan cerita, kasut mak buat hal! benci. yelah..i have been wearing this shoes almost every day for about a year plus. matila orang kata tak ada fashion sense sebab semua pon nak pakai dengan kasut adidas ittew. tapi, apakan daya, bukan senang nak bawak groceries, sambil tolak stroller dan dukung budak u ols kalau pakai heels atau boots bagai. adidas ittew jugak yang sangat comfortable. anyway, my dear adidas is now kaput! dah masuk air *sedih*. ini menyebabkan kaki i basah lencun!!! rasa macam jalan dalam banjir je, padahal tak banjir pon. ni membuatkan rasa nak beli those rubber boots tu. mcm best je. pastu kiut2 gak design dia. hih hih. *alasan shopping lagi!*

on another note, dah buat appointment dengan SV for next monday. i hope everything goes well!! Nowadays, selalu berfikir and plan how to do my fieldwork sebelum tidur (before this dok sibuk berangan nak pinggan yg kat czech tu). haih...i am positive that i only want to concentrate on the Malays, in particular those who reside in the urban areas. tapi i havent decided which cities to go to. however, i recalled having read somewhere ada sorang researcher ni had this approach jugek tapi tulah..tak ingat kat mana yg dibacanya!!! geram ngan diri sendiri. haih...u know what this means? kena baca ALLLLLLL over again cari maklumat sebesar kuman ittew. haih!

ok..i should sleep. AA is an early riser. pastu we ols nak pi collect parcel kat post office besok. weee......

nite nite.

here's a picture of AA tgh syok makan ayam (okei..actually seronok picit2 and main2 dengan ayam tu. haih...)

beli jangan tak beli

haih....ter-beli lagi baju for the boys. Dr Sunshine, who just recieved the stuff i bought for my boys terkejut tgk banyak..hahahha...

ni, ada lagi sayang. *wink*.

i hope tak overweight la my luggage. tapi kan,err..bila nak balik ni? risau plak becos kp.t tak sure bleh sponsor ke idak my flight back. i hope they can!!! if not, terpaksa la korek tabung. *sedih*

si penipu

ingat tak i penah buat satu post pasal seorang blogger yg katanya hanya ada 100 hari lagi untuk hidup??

well, blogger tersebut adalah penipu besar. and his blog is now defunct. and thank god i stopped reading his blog after a while because it was a bit too poetic for me.

so apparently, he lied to his readers.

tapi kan, kalau fikir balik, maknanya he was a great writer la kan? to be able to make people believe what he wrote was true?? cume part dia mainkan hati dan perasaan orang tu yang sangat tak cool!

p/s: mak dah balik. tsk tsk

p.p/s: apt with sv on 21june. please hope everything fall through so that i can begin my fieldwork. insyaAllah.

gelagat anak saya

Usually, i tengok bebudak yg nak lull themselves to sleep suka

• hisap jari
• hisap pacifier
• korek hidung

tapi, AA pulak lain pesennya.

dia

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main dengan pusat!

mari masak roti john

hmm..baru je lepas bebel pasal gemuk, skrang post recipe pulak. saje je taktik. tak kan nak gemuk sorang2 kot??

Bahan
mince meat about 150g
1/2 labu bwg besar dicincang halus
1 sudu rempah kari(mix with water to form paste)
roti hot dog
telur 2 bijik

Cara-cara

1. tumis bawang until fragrant
2. masukkan mince meat
3. masukkan paste kari to the mince meat and kacau2 sampai rata. goreng sampai air kering.
4. pukul telur and masukkan mince meat goreng tadi to the telur and mix well
5. masukkan mixture tadi in a frying pan (i used the frying pan bekas goreng daging tadi), and bila nampak macam masak sikit, telangkupkan roti hot dog on the mixture.


6. bila agak-agak dah masak, angkat

nampak je tak cantik tapi sedap! lagipon ni yg last punye, bila dah abis buat baru ingat nak ambik gamba *matila alasan

7. garnish with tomato sauce and mayonis

mmm...sedapnye!*terpaksa angkat bakul sendiri

notakaki:mayonis juga menyebabkan sy gemuk! i MUST stop buying mayonis.

i feel FAT

benci tgk gambar sendiri sebab nampak gemuk. argghh..stressnya. dahla stress dgn sv. stress sebab gemuk pulak. haih. nilah dinamakan nasib badan. like literally nasib badan.

this is all because of the nasi i consume. and sebab bertambah rajin bertukang kat dapur. haih...hasilnye, asyik makan jer. ok..no more. this has got to stop. oh..n i think berenti BF juga ada kesannye.

harus bermotivasi untuk kurus sebelum balik KL. that means, i have got to force myself to go for morning walks EVERY freaking morning after mak dah balik nanti. and, stop eating junks. and maybe no rice? (okei, ni mungkin tak tercapai).

do you think that skinny caramel frap contributed to this? tapi skinny okeh ! (maaf, masih dalam denial)

*sedih*

motivation please

i think the stress from meeting my sv last monday is far from over. as a result, i havent been doing anything productive and, have been splurging instead. not good for my pocket.

so, dengan harapan untuk memotivasikan diri, i requested for 2 phd related books.
1. 'How to Get A PhD: A Handbook for Students and Their Supervisors', by Phillips & Pugh.
2. The unwritten rules of PhD research

hopefully i would be back to normal by next week. sebab apa tau?sebab paper on malay identity tu dah berhabuk agaknye! ish.dahla tu, teroverlap plak dah my deadlines. hmm..or maybe esok cari journals for my next topic? hmmm...i really must get back to work because next week mak dah nak balik and then i have to adjust to being a single mom all over again.

how ek to get my mojo balik?

p/s: planning a trip to dublin is surely more fun right now than picking my brains to write that 5K paper.
p.p/s: made delicious roti john haritu! i will never buy roti john from param or palam again!