being a single parent

its not easy. at times i feel like shutting down tapi tak boleh. lazy to cook or do anything at all,but i can't cos i have a baby who depends on me.

this has been a very tiring week and its really taking a toll on me, both mentally and physically. letih u ols!!! i had so many things planned: masak, shopping (tetap dalam list taw!), finish up that book, tapi semuanya tergendala u ols!!! sebab apa? sebab anak saya demam dan begitu clingy sampai nak tidur pon kena tidur dalam dakapan (tapi tetap mama dia sempat nak blog even tho it means bf-ing AA while typing with 1 hand ....multitasking gittew)

i wish i had someone to pass the baby to when he's wailing his lungs out in the middle of the night and i have no idea what to do because i've tried out wahtever i know, n im already tired from everything.

i wish i had someone to tengokkan AA when i really really need to go to the loo but he won't let me cos he''ll start bawling when i put him down macam semalam (harap2 tak dapat batu karang u ols)

i wish there's someone who can help me with the house chores cos even tho i love doing laundry, tapi laundry dah menimbun memandangkan asyik tukar baju budak kecik yg dok muntah jerk... tapi dgn budak yg asyik nak duk bawah ketiak, susah nk buat laundry atau apa-apa sekalipon.

hmm...i knew it isnt easy. i chose this path kan...so nk tak nak, i have to face it. tapi penatttt....and i really really wish Dr Sunshine is here.

doakan anak mak cepat sembuh.