going cuckoo

at times, I feel like I am going cuckoo. And no, it is not funny.

You see, I know I choose to win him over.

But, there are times that I will be paranoid and playing games in my own head. I imagine things and etc.

Sometimes, my instinct is sooooo strong but I have no way to be certain that it is true. It sucks.

My head works overtime. My sleep is disturbed. I cannot stop thinking.

I dont know when all this will end.

Tapi I will always remember what a dear friend said: Allah maha adil.

InshaAllah, I will reap what I earn.

I pray that Allah make me the best wife for him.

I also pray that Allah makes him appreciate all that I have done and make him be aware of his priorities. InshaAllah.