yakin boleh

and so, i have been to 2 classes. both were ok lah kot. i mean comm and aesthetics, i think i can understand but visual culture is still a BLUR. the lecturer asked us to look for something we would like to work on for our paper (due in January) and to present the abstract of whatever we wanted to do in november.

what is actually confusing was that, i was asked to look at things accroding to the anthropological perspective as opposed to cultural studies punye perspective. but i dont know about u, i think both perspectives mcm lebih kurang je. lecturer kata, kalau antrhopology, they will question what ppl think of a phenomena and how ppl intepret it...err..ok.

so, i have decided to actually work on my findings in focus group discussion yg telah dibuat untuk projek visual culture. but i am going to twist it around to, how these young ppl see themselves being represented on tv. something to that effect lah..will think about it more esok.

other than that, my culture and easthetics kelas katanya ada take home test. matila mak!! tak penah hokei mengalami take home test ini. i mean what is expected of you?? i know i must write at least 2500 words per question but how many references should i have??? anyone can give me an idea??it starts end of next week. *yikes* sementara itu, my kiasu mode is sky high sebab telah men-reserve buku2 yang lecturer mention di dalam lecture. hih hih. yela...dengan harapan akan berguna dalam take home test nanti. hiks.

hmm..esok kelas petang...so pagi i plan to go to the library.

p/: is fissler a good brand for periuks???

kemahuan atau keperluan?

hmm....u know, the hooded winter jacket i have has been with me for 2 wonderful winters. this would be its 3rd winter with me. sebenarnye, jauh di sudut hati, rasa mcm nak beli winter jacket baru!!! but i feel guilty nak spend my euros because its still kinda pricey (altho i saw a few at hnm for 29.90euros). should i wait just sabar and wait for the sale (which entah bila), or beli jer???? haih. menyesal pulak tak beli masa end of season sale last winter.

pastu, rasa teringin nak lotion biotherm. ni sebab terpengaruh dgn rumet masa masuk spital dulu. sedapnya bau dia but its 29.90euros. hmm...maybe boleh kot cos lotion saya sangat tahan lama. so, maybe after my current one habis, boleh la ek? justified kot, kan??

pastu, i am dying for a pedicure tapi from what i read at the viennaexpat forum, kat sini mcm tak best.

neways, am contemplating about booking my tickets. i mmg akan pergi uk. well..going to cardiff first, then off to london for boxing day, insyaAllah. should i book my tickets now, or later?

selain itu, saya tengah cari tukang buat grill area bangi/kajang. siapa boleh rekemen kat i??

teman baik ahkak

semenjak balik dari kl ni, ai malas amatz nak masak. the last time i ate rice was on monday. and tetiba bangun pagi Sabtu ni, fenfeeling nak makan nasi pulak! kalau boleh keluar beli nasik lemak ke nasik dagang ke or nasik berlauk JJ (ya ampunz, sedap ok nasi berlauk JJ ni, kena beratur lagi nak beli uols..its in kelate btw), sanggup ai pakai jaket semua pergi beli. tapi apakan daya, dah tak ada. so instead, i gigih masak nasik kat rumah.

tapi sadly, dalam byk2 groceries beli this week, ai baru tersedar yang ai tak de plak beli bawang. haih!!!bawang tak ada, tapi dah terbeli sotong semalam. jadi angan2 nak masak sambal tumis sotong terkubur begitu sahaja. so, my next solution was, to goreng telur mata sapi! makan dengan kicap kipas udang yg dibawa khas ittew, serta serunding ikan bilis yang yummylicious. yum yum.

dalam pada mengorek gobok, baru tersedar yang ai lupa pack my precious ikan bilis dan udang kering. *nangis* terus ai sms mak untuk poskan.

oh..lupa nak bagitau teman baik i skarang. sebab malas masak, teman baik ai adalah roti, vegan sandwich spread, vege nuggets,potato-cheese medallions, and freezer to fryer/oven stuff like frozen vege lagsana and pizza. fyi, ai tak pergi lagi kedai halal utk beli ayam ke etc.sebab tula ai makan vege stuff je uols...senang bleh beli kat normal grocery store.

ditambah dengan naik turun tangga 4 tingkat hari-hari (well, almost everyday lah), agak-agak boleh kurus balik ke ai ni?

tapi..cemano nak kurus uols..mulut ni jap jap ngap jajans! haih.

beratur masuk pustaka

for the first time in my life, ai was outside the library before it actually opened. heh heh. sebelum ni, sokmo beratur kat luar jualan gudang jer uols. apakah ni semangat baru??

anyhoo, dah sexcited dapat masuk library terus la aim for pc yg dekat hujung belakang tu. sekali, datang orang tua serabai (yg makin serabai dah busuk ya amats! baju pon kotor uols!) and he sat next to me. haih...tahulah uols rindu kat mak sebab tak nampak 3 bulan kan?? namun mak tersenyum jer uols sebab honestly i think he is such a charachter. dia ala-ala pelakon tambahan yang presencenya dirasai.

dalam senyum-senyum tu, ai tetap tak berapa nak tahan dengan bau dia uols...and his constant habit of clearing his throat ditambah dengan nak hembus hingus tu. so, being a typical malay yg bersopan santun, ai collected all my books and pretended to go out, only to sneak back in to a pc kat depan dah jauh dari orang tua serabai ittew. ihiks. yes u ols, ai takut gak if dia tetiba mencaruts kat ai ke sebab terasa hati cos move tempat when he came to sit next to me.

oklah. ai nak buat kerja.

p/s: ai rasa nak mengamalkan konsep surrendered wife mulai sekarang.
p.p/s: ordering red velvet cuppies for hubby. my sis asked what was the occasion and i told her, we don't need an occasion to give gifts, kan??
p.p.p/s: AD wants a Handy Manny cake for his birthday, and party packs and for mama to bring it to his school. err...but mama is in vienna. how ek?

100m

today, i went to the student centre. found out i am in the new doktorat system.

then, i went to the graduate center, and found out that i have to take subjects amounting to 60 credits. my only salvation was that I could still work on my thesis, while taking the subjects.

neway, sebab berangan nak cepat habis, i have to take about 5 subjects every semester.

i am already freaking out.

this semester sahaja, my jadual is quite packed. i am taking:

1. visual culture (told prof but havent register properly)

2. communication and aesthetic (blom register)

3. forschungpraktikum

4. Verhandlungen des Subjekts" - Forschungsseminar. Wir sind nie passiv gewesen. Konzepte des Mediengebrauchs von den Cultural Studies zur Actor-Network-Theory Teil II

5. Seminar für DissertantInnen: Qualitative Kommunikationsforschung - Metatheorien, Methoden und Forschungspeispiele rekonstruktiver Erforschung von Medien und Kommunikation

All this will contribute to 33 credits. As you can probably see, 3 of the subjects will be in Deutsch. Also, muss ich viel Deutsch sprechen um meine studium einfacher machen.

On top of that I am thinking of taking this subject: Zirkulationen des Politischen" - Forschungsseminar Fragen - Strukturieren - Analysieren - Argumentieren - Organisieren but takut plak i have so many on my plate kan?

the graduate centre told me to abishkan my 30kredit, present my proposal in jan/feb and then register for more courses in summer semester. lepaih tu, i might also stay back during summer holidays to take summer classes. *nanges*

Selain daripada pulun nak attend kelas bagai, mak kena juga menyiapkan thesis mak ittew dek non. I hanya akan menghembus nafas lega setelah semua registration for this semester is completed, which means, it will be next week! lepas dah attend the first classes of each subject and fully register, baru la nak rasa puhh..lega. gittew. kalu idak, haiyoo...

hmm...i am thinking of asking for an extension. how ek?

and the run begins

oh dear. I met the other only person from malaysia who did his phd here and i realised i have got A LOT on my plate.

you see, he told me that i have to take at least 8 classes and present papers in almost all this classes. i havent presented any! and there are forms that I was supposed to fill in masa i took one of the class i was suppose to take but of course mak tak tahu kan? haihh..so many things i didnt know. anyway, this person felt obliged to help me because when i emailed him before i came, he actually DELETED my email, boleh? ye la..dia kan orang glamer uols...so he was filtering emails and secara tak langsung deleted mine. :(

anyhoo, this is what i must do STAT!

1. get my doctoral student confirmation thingy (apparently a thick stack of paper)

2. register for at least 4 classes *matila kiasu!

3. write and finish my 1st chapter by october.

my deadline are as follows:

oct: Chapter 1

November: Chapter 2 and 3

December: Chapter 4 and 5

January: Re-read and Edit

February: Submit first draft

June: Submit final draft

July: Submit thesis

August/September: Viva

meanwhile, mak kena sibuk register for the classes for all semesters. kena catch up uols!!

i can do it!!!

dr tu kata, siang2, buat kerja university like settlekan kelas etc. malam2, tulis. my writing and attending classes has to be done simultaniously.

pastu, dia kata, viva susah! masa batch dia, 20 org viva, 2 jer yg lepas. matila!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tapi takpe, we'll cross the river when we get there, kan? sekarang ni, nak kena concentrate menulis dan juga mengattend kelas.

i can do this! i can do this!

demam rindu

- Dr Sunshine demam, sakit sakit badan, sakit tekak. demam rindu katanya. *smiles*

- Apparently Andi mcm tak de rasa pon mama dia tak dak. or, if ada rasa, is not showing it. he's so independent my Andi. but then again, he calls his papa, mama. so maybe dia ada teringat kat mama dia sket. (fyi: mama dia plak terlebih lebih ingat kat dia. :( )

- finally jumpa the only malaysian who had completed his phd in my uni (under my sv). haiyoh, meeting him made me SUPER risau. doa i can finish on time.

- might be going to salzburg this week. tapi tgk dulu.

- am still getting use to the cold weather. haih.

- decided not to pindah. cannot waste time berpindah randah and all becos nak catch up with my phd stuff.

- err....nak tido dulu. dah pening pening lalat ni. i think im jetlagged.

- i miss my boys.