kejadian di one utama

Got a text from my mom tadi.

My brother's three year old son was almost kidnapped!!! Ok...I am not sure if the word kidnapped sounds a bit rash but there was this guy who took my nephew.

It happened so quick and my brother didn't even realize it. He only realized it when he heard his son cried loudly. Bila dia cari, dia tengok his son was being carried by a total stranger (a man...tak sure what race) and my brother quickly said "hey...tu anak saya". So the man left the boy and quickly disappeared.

All this happened in 1 Utama. My brother is still bewildered macam mana boleh berlaku because he went out with his wife and bibik. Granted he has three kids but there were three adults and so, tak tahu cemana boleh jadi.

Apa pon...please..ALWAYS keep your eyes on your kids. PLEASE. Dah macam-macam kes sekarang ni. In my brother's case, nasib baik anak dia memang tak suka dengan orang. I cannot imagine if it were to happen to my no 2 cos he is soooooooooo friendly!!

haih...must remind Dr Sunshine to tell they boys to NEVER talk to strangers, follow strangers or accept things from strangers!

Apa pon, syukur sangat yang my brother dengar his son crying. Kalau tak??? tsk.

p.s: my sister's car kena langgar dengan cina mabuk today. I am not being racist or anything tapi memang yang langgar dia was cina yang mabuk. Meh, haku nak cakap sikit. Ko nak mabuk ke apa ke, ko punya pasal la kan. Yang ko pi bawa kereta tu apehal? Membahayakan orang lain ok! What if my sister was hurt? What if the good samaritan yang tumpangkan dia to hantar kereta to bengkel tu was jahat and kidnapped my sis? Memang la menyusahkan orang tau! Ergghhh...kerajaan British pon dah sedar ok keburukan minum ni. So please la...Allah pon memang dah haramkan benda ni.

patutkah?

patutkan extend cuti belajar?
ye...saya akan just apply for extension. If dapat, syukur Alhamdullilah. if tak,kena start kerja.

patutkah saya try tukar sekolah AD?
ye...saya dah pon ammend the permohonan. Now we are applying to a new school. I tell you, ni baru apply sekolah rendah. Nanti sekolah menengah cemana la agaknya. And i don't even want to think about university!!!! harap2 by that time, i will have the strings to pull, if necessary. hikhikhik.

patutkah risau sebab tak start pon lagi tulis paper and prepare presentation?
ye. tapi perasaan malas tu membuak-buak!! teruk sangat kan? I shall start esok, promise. err..tapi esok nak keluar beli diaper. ok..after that. harus!!!

patutkah risau nak pi foreign place dgn baby?
ermm...ye jugak kot. tapi everything happens at Allah's will. So apa-apa pon, berserah ajelah. I booked a pretty fancy and nice hotel. hih hih. Am sooooooooooooooo excited. So, if tak pi pusing2 the city, lepak2 dalam hotel pon ok kot?

neway, i totally forgot about my bookings at the kindermuseum today! ruginya rasa. dah petang baru ingat. sigh.

esok plan to pi beli diaper and go buy groceries.

p.s: i don't know why, but my tummy hurts. rasa lebam macam lepas c-sect dulu. :( at times like this, i wish dr sunshine ada.

daftar sekolah, again!

hmm....

I think I have mentioned numerous times of my intention to send AD to an Islamic School. Tapi impian ittew musnah uols!

It started when Dr SUnshine did his fieldwork at an Islamic School in Gombak and he saw how 'daif' the school was. The tables and chairs, the smelly toilet, the condition of the classes and how the school seem to be lacking in sports facilities. SO, terus dia rasa risau nak hantar anak dia dekat sekolah macam tu. Granted, the one we want to send to is in BAngi, tapi tetaplah kan, dah tengok kat tempat lain macam tu, terus ada this image yang dijadikan stereotype tu all other schools Islamic ni. Lagilah bila Dr Sunshine ni atlit kan. Maka, salah satu requirement yang dia nak ialah sekolah tu ada padang yang best dan juga kalau boleh ada kelab tennis.

So, dia pon menyuarakan pendapat nak hantar AD ke SK sahaja. Oh..ok. that, we daftar already. But nooooo....Dr Sunshine nak masukkan anakanda dia kat SK yang bertaraf cemerlang uols. Yes...konsep only the best for your child kan.

And now, he asks me if I can pull any strings to help get my son placed in a good school. Oh Em Gee. Mana ai nak cari strings ittew??

I am now panicked!!! Firstly, nak find out, how do I change AD's school application dari BSP to S3. Pastu, problem adalah sekolah ittew technically is not near my house but near my office. hmmm...pening pening.

Hmm...so nak buat cemana nih? First, nak email PPD tanya what I should do. Next, start looking for 'strings'. heh heh.

shopping tak habis habis

the trip to Pandorf yesterday was successful. :)

I berjaya rembat 2 le creuset caserole dishes to match kan dengan my polish ceramic caserole dishes and salt and pepper shaker and 1 spice jar.










Then, I also bought stuff at villeroy and boch: 1 deep serving dish and 4 gourmet plates, at 50per cent off!!!! I have been very interested in this particular design since last year tapi bila tengok harga at the kedai in the city, memang la tak dapat nak beli.Bila dah half off, terus i ambik you!!



i ingat nak tambah 2 bowls. Tapi tak de kat pandorf ittew so mungkin i kena pergi beli kat the store in the city.

what else?

oh...i got my dolce gusto capsules in the city. They had a special pack of 6 +2 for less than 30euros. Maka sangat berbaloi-baloi. I bought 1 special pack tu jer. Am planning to get 1 or 2 more. :)

Other than that, my shopping list has dwindled. I am contmplating nak beli ke tak coffee cups punye set and tall glasses for my ice lattes. Tinggal tu je la kot.

Periuk-periuk ni, mungkin tak beli dah. I think I have enough, for now.

Am going to only make one trip tomorrow to hantar barang because after that, I want to concentrate on reading my thesis' proofread copy. Nak tengok balik and hope I sempat baca everything by tomorrow. After that, ingat nak print out and hantar by end of this month, insyaAllah.

Doakan ai yer, uols. :)

risau

Dr Sunshine told me that my mom's hand is swollen dan ada puss, katanya mungkin tercucuk ikan bilis. I am sooooooooooooooooooo worried!!!

I am also guilty sebab if it was ikan bilis, mesti thats the ikan bilis for me which she kirim-ed through my friend.

and maybe uols rasa, why nak risau bagai kan??

Well, my dad had a swollen ibu jari kaki as well, and ada puss. And, he had diabetis, which made it difficult for it to heal. They had to cut the toe off. And a few days after that, he passed away. :(

Memang technically he died because of heart attack. But, the thought of my mak having puss on her anggota badan scares me!! Hubby is going to perform a minor op to clear up the puss. I really really really hope that it will get better soon. Thank god she does not have diabetes. Tapi saya tetap risau. TSK.

my last four months

my landlord called me just now, and told me that my rent contract is only till March. He wanted to know if I plan to stay longer. I told him that April will be my last month here.

OMG. It finally struck me that I only have four months left. Ya Allah. Sempat ke ni?

Pasal phd thesis, I nak submit early Feb. Then, we shall wait for the review. Harap-harap ia positif.

Pastu, tetiba, ai risau pulak pasal hal-hal nak pack barang ni. oh no!!!! *panik*

Then, pasal nak bersihkan rumah. oh no!!! *panik lagi*

Terus terasa sangat amat overwhelmed.

rasa macam tak percaya dah nak balik. OMG.

Pastu, rasa melankoli. Rasa rindu juga dengan life di sini.

Haih.

Ok, untuk tidak panik, kena buat benda ikut priority, kan?

Now, its to siapkan my assignment and presentation.

Next, tackle the thesis.

Then, PACK!

*hyperventilating*

tatuttt

hari ni mengerah tenaga to edit chapter 4 (which is now named chapter three). aiyoo...letih jugak ye, bila nak buat tables of contents semua tu, the numbering etc.

anyway, i tell you, dalam proses editing ni, terbanyak pula benda yang digodek dan ditukar. hehe. o well. i hope it makes sense. pasni nak godek chapter 5 and 6 (which would soon be chapter 4 and 5). i only have till this weekend to finish it. Pastu dah kena start writing my conclusion, by hook or by crook, senin dah kena start!!

Tahu tak pesal apa ai tatutt (andispeak: takut)?? sebab, january 17th, ada presentation dan jan 31st ada assignment nak kena submit and somewhere in january tu, ada exam!!! aiyaa.......rasa nak pengsan pon ada. tsk.

Yang terlebih cuak adalah kerana my friend will be comming from 20-29. am obviously going to entertain her and i forsee that i will not be doing any work!!! so, technically, i only have till the 20th to settlekan my assignment ittew. haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa. tu belum masuk part presentation. but, i dah rasa mcm nak ambil isi dari my lecture from last summer to be used for the presentation. hehe. but still, i need to write it up, prepare powerpoint. tsk. die die die. maka, tu yang buat i cuak terlebih.yang assignment tu lagila uols!!! tak prepare apa benda pon. soalan pon ala-ala ingat-ingat gittew jer. tsk.

Oh..ditambah pula bulan jan akan jumpa SV dan finally discuss my hopefully finished thesis. So, dalam kepala saya, saya rasa macam akan submit it earliest in february.

Sis might come in february and we might be going to istanbul. hehe.

OKla...i think i should go prepare dinner and start editing sikit. :)

oh oh

yes. sekali lagi berjaya melepas deadline yang telah dibuat oleh diri sendiri. *tepuk tangan secara sakarstik*

today, I finally got to touch up my chapter 1 only to find out that it needs a lot of work. I just finished touching up but am now wondering if it needs to be peppered with more references and lit reviews. Tapi kan, bukan apa. Most of the lit reviews says the same things anyways so what I did was to select a few which said what I thought was needed. OK la kan? Hmm..Lagi satu, I macam nampak tak ada flow but tak leh fikir how to make sure it flows. Ke sebab dah baca banyak kali sampai tak nampak?

Then, I started on my tables of contents, tapi hanya ada chapter 1 aje on it. I thought that I will update it everytime I have done editing the respective chapters. Am up to chapter two pulak esok. Chapter two is kinda ok, except that I need to write a whole new conclusion for that chapter. Sebab apa? Sebab conclusion tu, lebih kurang sama macam my aims and rationales of thesis, which I used in chapter 1. So, I will devote my time to do that esok, and also edit that chapter dan buat penambah baikan. *chewah*

Next, is my chapter three. Chapter three ni, ada benda sikit nak tambah rasanya. Tapi sikit-sikit saje sebab this is one of the recent chapters I wrote which has been edited a few times already.

Chapter four tu, I rasa will take quite a while to edit because I wrote it quite a while ago. Then five and six, also quite recent so should be able to do it quite fast. Lepas habis semua, akan mula tulis chapter 7. I hope to finish chapter 7 by Dec 26. Then, I will have until the new year to edit, update references and etc. Mula tahun baru, I will have to concentrate on my essay which is due on 31st of jan as well as my presentation on 12 jan AND exam tak tahu berapa hari bulan. Dalam pada itu, ada juga plan untuk berjimba dgn bestfrenKT. woot woot. A well deserved break, I think. My sis pula may come in Feb and I am persuading her to agree to pergi bercuti di Istanbul. hih hih.

Oklah. bila pikir pasal holiday, rancak je kepala otak. Tapi bila pasal pelajaran..mak aii..lamabt sikit. tsk tsk.

Oklah. Esok ingat ye diri sendiri. Edit chapter 2 and tulis conclusion dan kalau boleh, start on chapter 3!! Come on come on.

takut

today, while searching for journal articles for one of my assignments, i came across a phd theses online. I skimmed through it and suddenly, ai rasa TAKUT!!!!

ohmygawd!!!

kenapa takut? kenapa?

sebab, i rasa thesis yg ditulis oleh mamat ittew tersangatlah bombastik pengunaan wordsnya.

Takpe ke eh, if guna simple words sajer? Ishh..risaunyerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

PAstu, pasal pembahagian chapters. You see, I choose to divide my chapters according to its purpose. Contoh:

chapter 1: intro

chapter 2: malaysian society

chapter 3: theoretical framework

chapter 4. methods

chapter 5 findings

chapter 6 findings

chapter 7 conclusion

takpe ke ek? haiyaa...risaunyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sempoi sangat ke ek if divide chapter cenggitu? atau, yang penting adalah contribution kita to society? hmm...*garu kepala*

Anyway, I am planning to complete my chapter 1 esok tapi ada masalah kecik yang agak besar. Iaitu, masalah citation dimana ai telah cited an author, tapi kat my writing tu, ada year saje dan page number non ado. haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa *ketuk kepala*

I hope to start my chapter 7 by Friday, inshaAllah.

Anyway, tak pe ke ek tulis simple2 jer? Ke I jer rasa simple sebab dah spuloh juta kali baca. TSK. How niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......................

Lepastukan, tetiba rasa,cukup ke buku2 yang i baca. Of course it will never be cukup kan. Tapi pastu datang pula suara hati kata, if baca banyak2 pon, you cannot put everything in your disertation.

Kawan-kawan yang dalam boat yang sama *lambai-lambai to Oyis, Kayla, Eti, Iezma*, how are you people doing? Is this something usual to worry about? Is it? Is it?

you get what you give

Hari ini, saya tidak bangun untuk solat Subuh.

Dan tak tahulah sama ada kebetulan ke apa, hari ni adalah antara hari paling sh**y yang pernah saya alami.

1. Pergi buat groceries, namun tertinggal satu barang di kaunter and only realised it when i got home. Mak tak koser nak pi kedai tu balik, lagipon what proof do i have that I tertinggal barang ittew di kaunter.

2. My laptop dan juga komputer di universiti tak boleh read my external hard drive which contains my thesis!!!!!! And altho I have some backup (only a few chapters) the ones that I have corrected atau add info non ado back up. I wanted to do it today but alas...this thing happened! Call dr sunshine, tapi terasa seperti kena marah.:( Maka call kawan di sini and she said, maybe the cable that connects the external to lappie yang longgar. Emm..mungkinkah? LAgipon it did jatuh before i guna pagi tadi. Maka decided to go to Saturn to get a new cable.

3. On the way to Saturn to get a new cable to connect my external hard drive to the lappie, bus berenti jaaauuuuhh lagi dari stesen that i want to turun. Sebab apparently now, every Samstag leading up to xmas, bus will only stop till this particular station. Maka, terpaksa I menapak (sambil ber-babywearing cik Aaron yang agak berat ittew).

Now i am home (its almost 4pm) and baru nak makan breakfast/lunch. :(

Lepas makan ni, nak test if pertukaran cable berjaya menyelamatkan external ku. Doakan yek.

Ke uols yang expert2 computer tu camana i can rectify this matter????

mulut yang laju dari otak

ok. hari ni i rasa i buat sesuatu yang mungkin akan membinasakan diri sendiri.

you see, i tengok kawan-kawan i yang dah complete phd kan, cara sorang buat kerja adalah, tulis, sv cek, pastu depa buat corrections, sv recheck, pastu dah ok baru submit, betul?

So, I pon dengan innocentnya ingat its just like that over here. Maka tadi, bila sv tanya bila rasa-rasa nak hantar my completed thesis, i kata in december as I set a deadline for myself, which is dec 5th. yes.deadline ittew adalah tarikh di mana saya yakin akan siap ketujuh-tujuh bab sahaja. read. bab2 sahaja. bukan abstrak lah, acknowledgement, update references, dan segala bagai mak nenek ittew.

tapi, rupa-rupanya konsep kat sini (or maybe konsep sv i la kan) ialah bila sv kita examine thesis kita, dia tak baca draft2 sume tu. dia akan baca the binded copy tu terus utk examination. huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....so how?? so bila dia kata bila nak submit tu, maksudnya bila nak submir the binded copy. pepandai je kan i kata nak hantar in december.....

takpe.

this means i have to work extra super duper hard.

my plan of action adalah work my butt of and submit it before xmas hols. doakan i berjaya ye uols.

p/s: risaunya nak hantar kerja yang tidak diperiksa oleh sv. mujur butiran thesis tu, well, some of it, i dah guna dan diperkisa untuk a few assginments.

caiyok caiyok!! kata mak budak yang nak tengok amazing race dulu sebelum start buat kerja

almost there

Dear blog,

Hari ni, ai bertungkus lumus habiskan bab 6 yang sudah lama tergendala. Tahu tak betapa susahnya nak curahkan idea wahai blog? Dahlah tu, anakanda pulak hari ni a bit grumpy (prolly because i pepandai pi minum green tea and i think that made him gassy..logic ke my tanggapan wahai other breastfeeding moms?) and only wants me to hold him. I can letak him la sekejap-sekejap. Finally, sebab tak tahan, i just placed him on a pillow on my lap while i continue to type away, like masa sekarang ni. Atas lap, tido punyaaaa nyenyak!

Anyway, back to chapter 6. Yes. Selesai akhirnya. Tho baru habis tulis ajelah. Belum lagi baca dan edit semula. You knowlah kan bila baca dan edit tu...sekali overhaul. Whatever it is, I am just so super happy uols!

Dengan ini, saya ingin mengumumkan that I only have 1.5 more chapters to go!!! 0.5 adalah part modernity yang ai tak mula lagi tulis dan 1 tu adalah conclusion uols!!!!! I am so excited to be able to get this far dan bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi sebab memudahkan kerja ai. :) Tapi at the same time, kadang-kadang risau jugak if apa yang i tulis tu tidak menepati kriteria. NAmun begitu, kita buat yang terbaik kan. SV tu hanya akan baca bila dah complete.

So, esok ingat nak start retyping stuffs that I plan to use for my modernity piece. Kalau boleh, by Tuesday dah nak start writing. I am waaayyyyyy pass my deadline. Sepatutnya, I should have finished writing everything by 20.11 and start my proofreading and editing process. Tapi tak apalah kan. My new target date is 5 December, inshaAllah. Tolong doakan i berjaya ye uols? Kalau sempat siap by 5 December, boleh la minta SV tolong baca dan betulkan. Pastu can do corrections and then submit to sv again and then correct again dan kemudian submit for external review. I really hope that I can submit it before january ends, inshaAllah. I really envision myself going back at the end of March. But, I am not sure if I should still go back if tak dapat jawapan or result from reviewer ittew cos lepas tu nak kena arrange for viva plaks. hmm... Takpe, tu nanti kita pikir when the time comes.

Oh, and I have a piece of good news to share! My paper has been accepted for one of the conferences that I talked about, Alhamdullillah. Conference is at the end of March. Am itching to go actually, but tak surelah if feasable or not. huhu. If not, kita jadi virtual presenter sajalah ek.

Ok. ittew saje dari iols.

Esok ada some thingy happening at D's house. So I shall be going there. Balik tu I akan buat kerja.

Monday nak pi jumpa SV. Sebelum date ittew, I nak pi print out my chapter 6. Lepas meeting dgn sv i plan to lepak stabux and proofread my chapter. Having said that, I couldnt believe that my chapter 6 is supppeeerrrr panjang.

Oklah. ittew saje blog. Doakan kejayaan ai ek?

habislah

i was not productive at all last week. I did not even bother to touch my thesis atau apa-apa yang berkaitan dengannya.

tapi semalam, selepas kena 'sound' dengan Dr Sunshine, barulah nak start baca buku that I have to review (and kena submit the review by Nov 29th). There's 12 chapters, and I baru nak masuk chapter 7. uwaaaa.....nasib baik buku tu ada kaitan dengan a paper I have to write and also my research. Alahai...whylah so malas sekarang ni??

Tapi...dalam malas-malas tu, I ada juga rajin sikit. Rajin apa tau? Rajin browse online for things that I nak bawa balik. aiyoo..tak sedar diri betul i ini kan? Kerja tak buat, tapi dah berangan nak balik. howlah???

Dr Sunshine and I agreed that tak payah beli electrical items. I am planning to bring back pinggan mangkuk, periuk belanga and other knick knacks...maybe like baking pans and etc. itu sajalah barang2 household yang akan dicari dan sedang dicari pon sekarang ni. hehe.

I feel like going to UKlah untuk beli all those tea towels yang kiut-kiut dan benda seangkatan dengannya. Namun demikian, harapan ittew mungkin tidak feasable. *nangis*

oklah...nak sambung surf internet lagi..heheh...

renew resident permit

haih. i tell you. i selalu bermasalah lah bila bab renew residence permit ni. tapi sebenarnya i rasa yang membuat masalh ni ialah the particular office which services my district. sebab apa tau. my other friends yang kena pergi ofc at district lain, ok aje. easy peasy je bila nak renew permit ittew.

terbaru, i kena pergi ke kreditsverschutzband office plak dah!!!! i tak pi lagi, but i guess tujuan ke ofc tu untuk mintak statement yg i tak akan bankrap anytime soon, i guess. haih., perluke? i ni, hutang pon non ado ok. penat tau nak kena ke sana ke mari mengendong anakanda ku.

petang ni, i plan to pergi settlekan everything. then,esok pagi boleh pi submit all the documents ke visa office ittew dan tunggu ajer for them to call me cakap visa siap.

minta-mintalah semuanya dipermudahkan.

needless to say, saya berasa letih and by the time i get homei have no mood to look at my beloved chapter 6. huhu. tapi i really must must must do it lah!

apa yg tinggal utk chapter 6?

-finish up intro

- kemaskan my analysis on rural areas

- discussion

- conclusion.

i think today i kena, by hook or by crook, finish up the analysis on rural area so that esok boleh concentrate on doing the discussion. lepas siap, bolehlah habiskan intro and buat conclusion.

Ya Allah. permudahkanlah urusan ku.

p/s: lepas ni kena start reading the book for my book review pulak. *letih*

ku kembali

teringat lagu cheerleader kat skolah dulu:

aku kembali dengan tabah hati

kembali lagi untuk memenangi

nombor satu

kami tuju

untuk sampai kemuncak

itulah ku tuju

anyhoo, its exactly a week since i got back!

I have sat for an exam. I have one more exam to sit for this wednesday and another one somewhere in December.

I also have to write a paper in order to get a grade for one of the subjects I took. Needless to say, haprak pon tak tulih lagi. But, I am planning to take bits and pieces of my thesis untuk dijadikan paper ittew. ok tak strategi? hehe.

I have three and a half more chapters to write for my thesis. Taaakkk jugak start2 tulis. Enjin belum panas lagi. Plus, I am still trying to settle hal-hal document si Aaron ni hah.

So, things to do:

1. Print appendix and attachment form to be signed by SV

2. Photocopy Aaron's passport and birth cert and its translation for meldenzettel, insurance and residence permit purposes.

3. Study for exam (only 2 days away. yikes!)

4. Write two papers

5. Write chapter 5.

Ok, hari ni memang dah plan nak print form dan juga pi fotostat bendalah semua. Selain ittew, nak tak nak, mak kena study lah kan. Tapi interesting thing about this paper is that, dia tak nak kita muntahkan semula facts (or rather theories) that we learned in class. Instead, the lecturer wants me to think of a theme, and how would I apply the teory according to the theme I choose dalam mereka research questions, methodology and etc. So, strategi i adalah to study my chapter one (introduction) and try to fit the theories somewhere. hmm..wajarkah thinking session ini dibuat di Starbucks bersama sidekick i??

Anyhoo, I have a trip to Muchen planned for early November. So, I must finish my chapter 5 before then. I give myself until the end of November to finish writing everything, inshaAllah. But of course, this all depends on the workload of the course I am taking this sem, which I think is pretty interesting and bonus point is, its in English. :)

Oklah, sidekick tengah tidur. I should shower. Then, can keluar pi print2 dan fotostat, and maybe pi shopping sikit. hih hih.

toilet training

hrmm...kerja doesn't seem to be moving. Well, to be honest it ain't easy!!! I am dead worried actually. So far right now, baru siap chapter 2, 4, and three quarters of chapter 1. chapter 3, half done. 5,6 dan 7, tak tulis lagi!!!! matilaaa....sempat ke ni nak submit by december???? *risau*

I am also thinking of asking someone to be a regular babysitter for aaron. tapi idak pulak i tertanya kan. Its a guy actually, but dia ikut wife dia kerja kat wien. i don't know if he'll be up to it. i will pay him of course. tapi tula...tak tahula dia nak ke idak....

ok..berbalik kepada topik diatas. I have actually started to toilet train AA. MAsa first day, it was tough. I spend so much time and energy mencuci duvet, bedsheet, carpet, countless shorts and pants!!! Tapi second day, ada 1 accident je. :) Even today, day three, only one accident. Tapi minor je because macam basah sikit aje kat seluar. Macam terkucil. But dia tahan. then bawa dia pi toilet baru dia wee wee properly. However, malam2 we still put his diaper on. Nak wait for no accidents during the day baru boleh be sure that he can control his bladder. apa pon, I am thankful. Because this means we only use 1 diaper a day. Imagine how much I can jimat!!! :)

Tapi my boy demam ni...even demam pon, we didnt put his toilet training on hold. Takut if berenti, nanti back to square one and have to start all over again.

OKlah..I am supposed to edit my chapter 1, tapi adakah i buat??? NOOO....i should really kick myself i tell you! Doakan I sempat habis my first draft by October....please please please...

Oh ya...disamping itu, kena start study la pulak kan! I have 3 exams in october. *pengsan*

bagaimanakah?

i have made some progress with my writing, Alhamdullillah. Tapi, tetaplah lari deadline.

Tapi, ai tak mo la stress sangat (walaupun hakikatnya i keep waking up in the middle of the night sebab memikirkan tesis nieh).

I am currently working on my chapter one. Chapter 2 and 4 dah settle. Chapter 1, almost there. Chapter three, halfway one.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku. I really hope I'd be able to at least finish my data analysis before i fly back, inshaAllah.

*risau*

oh mengapa?

alahai..target baca 2 chapter semalam tapi sempat baca satu aje. And, tak de pon cari article. tsk tsk. takpe. hari ni try perabiskan everything and malam nanti cari article plaks.

anyhoo, can i just say, that i love it when u kiss me all over my face before you go to work?? emm..camni rupanya perasaan jadi SAHM. I guess husbands tend to appreciate you more, no???

p/s: ayang, mak pon nak join uols tulis buku pasal phd mommies.

chasing the grade

its been 21 days post op. time flies!!!! Aaron has grown chubby. Bak kata orang kelate, ttubuh.

anyhow, in the midst of all this, i finally managed to submit my assignment, albeit 4 days too late. But I did inform the prof and he said its ok. I hope I would not be penalised, insyaAllah.

I have been thinking a lot, lately. Especially time-time nak tidur or times that I should take the opportunity to tidur (esp. when Aaron is napping). Nak tahu fikir pasal apa? Pasal my thesis. Omaigawd. Am so super risau ok!!! I have been slacking so much. The deadlines that I set for myself dah lari ke laut. I am so super worried!!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah, please give me the ideas to write so that I can write and habis by at least my first draft by october.

Yes, that is what I actually aim for. To finish writing my first draft by October. Tapi at the rate that I am going now....tsk tsk. I just went through the articles and books I brought back, and I realised I have read a lot. Tapi tulisnya tidak la pulak kan. Haiyaaa.....*kicks self!*

I guess I should take it one day at a time, huh? Ok ke if gunakan alasan yang I baru je beranak? err.....

Anyway, sionce my theoretical framework punye chapter tak siap2 lagi, sebab ai tak baca2 lagi pasal modernity, i guess I would work on that first. I am giving myself a week to write on modernity and cultural identity. I hope I can meet that deadline.

Once that is done, I nak kemaskini my theoretical framework punye chapter, maybe i'll give myself 3 days.

Pastu, I should work on my data analysis. Tak tahulaa kenapa lembab sangat nak tulis data analisis ni! Ok, thats it. I must start working already. No more miss alasan. Hmm..I wonder if the husband would allow me to lepak at stabux giant with aaron siang2 so that I can concentrate baca my articles. (macamla kat rumah tak leh baca kan?)

I really must stick to this la. Dah July dah ni. Pasni, August dah bulan posa. Then raya. Then tetiba dah balik Wien. I must finish writing before balik Wien. I must.

ok. enough ranting. I might as well read the article sementara everyone is asleep and tunggu laundry siap.

p/s: penat jadi sahm ni. buat housework, jaga anak, nak buat thesis lagi.

p.ps: went to ambik dani's report card today. Apparently my son is so helpful in class, bubbly, banyak bercerita, bff dgn uncle nizam, quite advanced for his age. And, my mak yang risau tulisan cucu dia tak cantik should see his handwriting kat skolah. I think kat rumah dia main2 because dah bosan kot. ihiks. and, the teacher cakap dia competent in all the hafazans. Alhamdulillah.

p/p/ps: cannot believe i have to chase 2 of my lecturers for my grades. rupa-rupanya, dia tak mark pon lagi my paper, and tak bawak balik pon a copy of that paper. Nasib baik i email dia!!!!

dan bila esok

ordered mcds again for today's lunch. :)

orang kata ai tak berpantang sangat. hm...maybe. but i still tak makan udang. and also tak makan pulut. and sayur2 sejuk.

what is important for me now is to produce yummy milk that is filling for my aaron. so, i make sure i drink milo every morning or petang. sometimes i also drink the longan and red dates tea, or that hot choc infused with fenugreek. and u drink loads of water as well!!!

pasal assignment, i managed to submit one on time. lagi satu tu, i am still working on it! haiyahh....am so slow ok. but i just gave birth, so its justified la kan? i wanted to stay up last night, but had this massive headache and terrible flu so i slept. today is better.I hope to fonish anaylzing today. and tonmorrow ro write the discussion and conclusion. hopeto submit it by Friday!!!