LMAO

i think this is written very witty-ly. :)

http://kickdefella.wordpress.com/2010/10/19/bomba-perlu-bersedia-memadamkan-kebakaran-di-jambatan/

i have always loved his writings and thoughts.

little things that makes me happy

dah book flight to Cardiff. Now nak book bus tiket to London tapi tak tahu nak pilih which stop. I plan to stay at MaraHouse. So, which stop should I stop at?? Westminster? Ke cemano?

Next, nak book accomodation pulak.

eiiiii....bestnya! I cannot wait. I think this break would be good after all my hard work. (err...hard work ke ek??heheheh). tapi harus ingat, i have a presentation due the week i come back. and my papers to be submitted. yikes!!!adakah ini bermakna ai kena bawak cik laptop pergi on vacation jugak. haih...looks like it la kan. i guess you've got to do what you've got to. Well, at least I would be with my 'family'. :)

yeay yeay.

ok.now back to Glee. and after that, Adorno's Zusammenfasend.

rindu

saya rindu sama budak yang gambarnya kat atas tu.

today is exactly two weeks that I am without him. This is my second time being seperated from him for a long duration of time,the first time was only for 12 days. I was sick and when i looked at old pictures of him when i was sick tu, i realised how thin he was. and itsuddenly dawned to me that was probably because i didnt give him enough to eat and susu. sedih pulak bila fikir. and guilty to boot.

this time around, i left him in good hands. he's now with Papa and AD (which he calls Ni or Abe) and my mom and along. so i know he is being taken care off really well. he's eating well (had 1/4 of his Papa's subway and also suka olive like the brother!!). so i should be happy.

tapi.

tapi today i broke down.

i broke down because i miss this little boy so much. he has been with me here since day 1. since he was in my tummy. he has always been with me. i cannot help but keep on looking at his toys. sniffing at the part of the bed he used to occupy and his bantal.i miss hearing him panggil mama, kacau i masak and even when i am taking my shower. i remember how our bedroom would be super messy with his toys. i miss having him snuggling with me malam-malam. i miss looking at him sepahkan almari. i miss berebut laptop dgn dia. i miss him so much.

its so lonely. tapi, at times like this, i would always remember an entry Suzy once wrote in her blog.

i can do this right?

i miss my boys.

Malay, Malaysian, Muslim and proud of it.

Hari ni, saya sengaja bangun awal untuk ke institut kajian antropologi untuk suatu seminar. Kenapa ai interested sangat nak pergi? Sebab, presenter tu, iaitu seorang non-muslim yang claimed that she was from Malaysia tapi mengajar kat uni seberang Mesia, was going to talk about Islam and Malaysian politics.

Now, i felt that it would be interesting to listen on a non-muslim view about Islam in malaysia, plus, before going, i wasnt sure if she was indeed malaysia so i wanted to make sure she got her facts right. (gittew...macam la ai ni arif sangat tentang malaysian politics and etc...but i do read about it ok, from both leftist and right-ist point of view). anyhoo, i found her talk disturbing. I know, she has the right to her own views and etc. but when this view affects the image of my country and muslims in my nation, i felt perturbed. perlukah uols question the syariah court and malaysian jurisprudence. okla...i mean, from her talk and her pictures which i saw was sourced from malaysian insider, i knew which side of the fence she is standing in. the way she pronounces mahath.ir pon dah semacam ok!

anyway, she actually put pictures of malays stepping on the cows head, the church bombings, the rally outside high court when li.na.j.oy appealed for the religion status to be changed in her ic, pciture of that mount everest climber who died and was buried as Muslim against his wifes wishes. She was talking about how more liberal Malaysian Muslims were emmigrating. Err.....to be honest, i wasn't really confortable with what she showed. To me, she was painting a picture as if our county are bombarded with this aggresive muslims who would bomb places or hold rallys when they are not happy with something. and she said, the government backed up this people.

So, dengan muka panas and berdebar-debar, I voiced my opinion. I was the last person to ask her a question and I said: I am a Malaysian Malay Muslim and I am really disturbed with the way you portrayed Muslims in our country. I would like everybody to know that not all Muslims in Malaysia are like that. Then I asked, what do you mean by Liberal Muslim? There's Muslim or non Muslim. We abide by rules stated in the Quran. Those are rules which some may not follow. But still, those are RULES.

And then, I told her, as in LJ's case, in Malaysia, the constitution clearly states that a Malay is someone who is a Muslim. Beragama Islam. Dan, because of that fact, her religion cannot be changed in the IC. If tukar agama dalam IC, maknanya nanti kategori atau pengkelasan Melayu di dalam perlembagaan Malaysia akan secara otomatik tukar. So, macam mana kita nak pertahankan hak-hak melayu yang ada? Religion, is the only thing that is left to help define us as Malay. Kalau bercakap bahasa melayu, any tom, dick or harry can belajar the language, betul tak? So, what will differentiate Malays from the other races? By our religion. Dan dalam IC, hanya Melayu sahaja yang akan ada tulis Islam kat dalam IC dia.

Lepastu, she also said Malaysia banned Arqam because it had political intentions. Err...excuse me. So, to that, I said, One of the main reason Arqam was banned was because the way they practiced Islam, not because of political intentions. Dorang anggap their leader was so special kan? Macam mengaggungkan sangat leader dia because he was believed to be the decendent of Nabi Mohamad S.A.W. Tapi, kita, sebagai orang Islam should agungkan Allah. Bukan ke macam tu??

Then, she said, as she was replying to my comments, that the malays portrayed in her slides are just a minority (ha..masa mula-mula presentation tak de pulak nak buat disclaimer macam tu kan?). She said that Mesia is a peaceful country and bla bla bla...and she didnt mean to offend me or what so ever. tapi , tetap dia tak jawab soklan ai pasal liberal muslim.

pastu ,masa sesi minum2 kopi, she came to me and said..oh, i didnt mean theres liberal muslim. there wasnt much time so dia guna je term tu. oh. ok. but i still think that doesnt make it ok. because she did sort of implied that more muslims are migrating because of the laws imposed on them (tak leh minum alkohol...yg sebenarnye mmg diharamkan dalam Islam kan??) and that they were not free. Pastu she said, interfaith talks should be encouraged so that people would understand other faiths better and etc. hmm...i guess the idea of interfaith talks is kinda ok. tapi honestly, i am scared if being too open about discussing pasal religion and ethnicity would bring back memories about bloody culture clashes and etc.

hmm..what say you?

yakin boleh

and so, i have been to 2 classes. both were ok lah kot. i mean comm and aesthetics, i think i can understand but visual culture is still a BLUR. the lecturer asked us to look for something we would like to work on for our paper (due in January) and to present the abstract of whatever we wanted to do in november.

what is actually confusing was that, i was asked to look at things accroding to the anthropological perspective as opposed to cultural studies punye perspective. but i dont know about u, i think both perspectives mcm lebih kurang je. lecturer kata, kalau antrhopology, they will question what ppl think of a phenomena and how ppl intepret it...err..ok.

so, i have decided to actually work on my findings in focus group discussion yg telah dibuat untuk projek visual culture. but i am going to twist it around to, how these young ppl see themselves being represented on tv. something to that effect lah..will think about it more esok.

other than that, my culture and easthetics kelas katanya ada take home test. matila mak!! tak penah hokei mengalami take home test ini. i mean what is expected of you?? i know i must write at least 2500 words per question but how many references should i have??? anyone can give me an idea??it starts end of next week. *yikes* sementara itu, my kiasu mode is sky high sebab telah men-reserve buku2 yang lecturer mention di dalam lecture. hih hih. yela...dengan harapan akan berguna dalam take home test nanti. hiks.

hmm..esok kelas petang...so pagi i plan to go to the library.

p/: is fissler a good brand for periuks???

kemahuan atau keperluan?

hmm....u know, the hooded winter jacket i have has been with me for 2 wonderful winters. this would be its 3rd winter with me. sebenarnye, jauh di sudut hati, rasa mcm nak beli winter jacket baru!!! but i feel guilty nak spend my euros because its still kinda pricey (altho i saw a few at hnm for 29.90euros). should i wait just sabar and wait for the sale (which entah bila), or beli jer???? haih. menyesal pulak tak beli masa end of season sale last winter.

pastu, rasa teringin nak lotion biotherm. ni sebab terpengaruh dgn rumet masa masuk spital dulu. sedapnya bau dia but its 29.90euros. hmm...maybe boleh kot cos lotion saya sangat tahan lama. so, maybe after my current one habis, boleh la ek? justified kot, kan??

pastu, i am dying for a pedicure tapi from what i read at the viennaexpat forum, kat sini mcm tak best.

neways, am contemplating about booking my tickets. i mmg akan pergi uk. well..going to cardiff first, then off to london for boxing day, insyaAllah. should i book my tickets now, or later?

selain itu, saya tengah cari tukang buat grill area bangi/kajang. siapa boleh rekemen kat i??

teman baik ahkak

semenjak balik dari kl ni, ai malas amatz nak masak. the last time i ate rice was on monday. and tetiba bangun pagi Sabtu ni, fenfeeling nak makan nasi pulak! kalau boleh keluar beli nasik lemak ke nasik dagang ke or nasik berlauk JJ (ya ampunz, sedap ok nasi berlauk JJ ni, kena beratur lagi nak beli uols..its in kelate btw), sanggup ai pakai jaket semua pergi beli. tapi apakan daya, dah tak ada. so instead, i gigih masak nasik kat rumah.

tapi sadly, dalam byk2 groceries beli this week, ai baru tersedar yang ai tak de plak beli bawang. haih!!!bawang tak ada, tapi dah terbeli sotong semalam. jadi angan2 nak masak sambal tumis sotong terkubur begitu sahaja. so, my next solution was, to goreng telur mata sapi! makan dengan kicap kipas udang yg dibawa khas ittew, serta serunding ikan bilis yang yummylicious. yum yum.

dalam pada mengorek gobok, baru tersedar yang ai lupa pack my precious ikan bilis dan udang kering. *nangis* terus ai sms mak untuk poskan.

oh..lupa nak bagitau teman baik i skarang. sebab malas masak, teman baik ai adalah roti, vegan sandwich spread, vege nuggets,potato-cheese medallions, and freezer to fryer/oven stuff like frozen vege lagsana and pizza. fyi, ai tak pergi lagi kedai halal utk beli ayam ke etc.sebab tula ai makan vege stuff je uols...senang bleh beli kat normal grocery store.

ditambah dengan naik turun tangga 4 tingkat hari-hari (well, almost everyday lah), agak-agak boleh kurus balik ke ai ni?

tapi..cemano nak kurus uols..mulut ni jap jap ngap jajans! haih.