pregnancy update

i met my obgyn today. i tell you, setiap kali jumpa dia, setiap kali tulah dia nak buat VE!!!! it is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo uncomfortable ok. Mak suci uols. *oppss* tadi, sebab dah tak tahan setiap bulan di'seluk', i tanya dia, why do you have to do it everytime? dia kata sebab nak cek if serviks saya tutup atau bukak. apakah??? adakah sy berisiko tinggi untuk dilate or what?? *stress*

pastu, dia hambik ultrasound thingy and probbed my belly untuk melihat heartbeat. dah jumpa, dia tolak2 perut saya because baby wasn't moving. dia tanya, when is the baby usually active?jawapan saya: in the evening.

padahal, masa kat waiting room tu, sibuk aja baby tendang2. bila masuk bilik doktor, elok je senyap and pose pose tidor kan? haih.

anyhoo, saya telah disuruh register kat spital beranak ASAP untuk membuat organ screening. nak register pon, nak kena buat appointment uols. makanya, esok kena kecek deutsch la gamaknya nak buat appointment tersebut. spital idaman adalah spital yg sama tempat AA dilahirkan. Dr Sunshine kata, haaa bagus...spital tu cantik and comfortable. ya. tapi ia juga agak jauh dari tempat tinggal sekarang. namun, sebab dia antara 3 spital yg menawarkan perkhidmatan organ screening percuma, i pasrah (if not, ai kena bayar 195euros uols!!!)

saya juga bagitau doktor, sy tak pasti nak beranak kat mesia atau sini. doktor kata takpe. pi je register. if tak jadi beranak sana, they will not prosecute you. ha....prosecute? wah wah wah... kaget kejap saya tadi sebab fenfeeling nanti kena tangkap polis gittew.

oh, then sy tanya doktor. bila kah waktu seswai utk saya balik pada hemat doktor? yela, long haul journey la katakan. rupanya, saya je yg lelebih concern pasal long journey bagai. sebab doktor kata, its up to the airline actually. u ols boleh je balik bila2 uols nak as long as kandungan uols healthy. gittew. so, nanti nak tripple confirm dgn airline idaman, bila boleh last balik. last time I checked, it was at 35 weeks, with doctor's letter.

Dr Sunshine pon cakap kat saya, tak yah balik awal-awal. balik bila dah last week yg airline bagi fly sebab katanya, perabihkan study awak ittew.

baek! *nanges jap sebab baru berangan nak balik awal*

ye la, konon2 saya risau la kan, if dah balik dah 36 minggu nanti tak sempat la nak check up kat KK nak dapat buku merah tu. buku kuning i adalaa..tapi bahasa german uols. cemana ai nak translate apa doktor tu tulis? dah la tulisan pon tulisan doktor. faham-faham je la kan. tapi suami ai kata, tu uols tak yah risau. semua boleh settle katanya. jadi, ai dah habis alasan dah untuk digunakan untuk balik awal.

maka, dengan ini, diumumkan, paling awal saya balik pon adalah pertengahan bulan may. sekian.

*nangis sambil tutup muka dengan bantal*

fenin

hmm.....uols tahu tak, prog phd i ni, memerlukan saya mengcompletekan bahasa german sampai level B2 (done!), dan juga hampir 70ECTS (ECTS tu kira kredit la kalu kat negara omputeh tu).

70 ECTS adalah sangaaaaattttttttttttttttttttttttt banyak. *pengsan*

on top of that, you are supposed to decide what subjects you want to take and read the course descriptions (yang most of it in deutsch) untuk membuat keputusan. No, they ols tak de la list kursus yang they would suggest to take so you can basically register for any courses which you feel would contribute to your research nanti.

now, saya sedang konpius. saya konpius sebab tak tahu sama ada i will get ects if register utk courses offered for MA students. haih. i tell you....sangat memeningkan hokeh!!!! oleh itu, saya agak stress sekarang memikirkan nasib saya.

On top of that, saya risau sebab saya kan pregnant. makanya, saya mungkin akan miss a like 2 to 3 classes sebab nanti nak beranak kan. how??? haih. i hate this risau feeling. this is the EXACT same feeling i had when i was sooooooooooooo unsure of everything when i first came here. saya rasa nak menangis pon ada. hmm...mungkinkah ini disebabkan oleh hormon saya??

whatever it is gang, tolong doakan kursus that i registered for, would be counted for my ects untuk phd nanti yer.

sekian.

how much is too much

i don't know why, but i seem to find many parents giving ipad as birthday presents to their children, yang sesetengah tu, baru je masuk 2 years old. well, i guess they are lucky and fortunate enough to have lots of rezeki walopon ada gak yg dok pinjam2 duit orang tapi tayang baru beli ipad for anak kat fb, to be able to provide for their child. i heard, some download flashcard apps and other 'educational' tools untuk their kids.

adakah saya akan succumb to pembelian ipad untuk anak juga? err...tak kot. sebab apa. at that age (two, i mean), dorang maybe tak reti jaga the barang properly. and for something so pricey (for me), pembelian barang2 gadget ni mungkin have to wait until they are mucccchhhhhhhhhhhhh bigger and can appreciate it at face value. heck, my laptop screen (its touchscreen) comot-comot dengan fingerprints dani when he uses it to watch his youtubes and etc. at one time, i was contemplating to get AD a kidstough digital camera, but didnt because its kinda pricey, and lets face it, at three (that was the age masa i thought of buying him that), he will only be interested with it for about a week. hehe.

lagipon, i think its good to let them be and act their age. main dengan kotak and periuk and happy even when i bagi main dengan sudu (or maybe thats just my boys. lol). sometimes, its just wrestling, or main tembak2 dengan imaginary gun. naik basikal. main bola. baiki kereta and motor. kissing machine (a game i invented with the boys). main slides kat playground. ha...ni bagus ye. i love to bring them to the playground because they would be so tired that lepas mandi, dinner terus zonked out! hehe.

AA with his imaginary gun

wrestling

tapi, that is just my two cents. would you get your toddler an ipad?

p/s: in an unrelated matter, Dr Sushine was driving home when dia dengar AA bising2 macam hentak2 somthing on the chair. he turned to find AA holding his (Dr Sunshine's tennis racket) with the right grip, ala-ala nak buat back hand. Needless to say, Dr Sushine was super happy and was bursting with pride. LOL.

vba2c

today, i am going to let you in on a little secret.

tahu tak (ok..obviously uols tak tahu if its a secret!), sometimes, i regretted for not being patient enough when i experienced contraction pain while being preggers with AA. At times, I wished that i tahan-ed the pain, really counted the jarak contractions, instead of calling the ambulance. tapi, seingat i pada malam ittew, i mintak pertolongan Dr Sunshine to konon kira how far apart were the pain, but, i guess he was tired and etc that he said, if you were in kl, i would have brought you to the hospy. *sigh* so that was that. no svd for me. tapi apa pon, i am still thankful that i gave birth to a gorgeous baby boy. :)

so, this time around, i tried googling if there are any chances of me doing a vba2c, and apparently, they are allowing it in the US! katanya, chances of uterine rupture is less than 1 per cent and it is not any more dangeorus than doing a c-sect. so, berkobar-kobar sikit la semangat iols nak try for vba2c ni kan.

sekali....encik suami tak setuju. o well. syurga di bawah tapak kaki suami kan. what to do. takpe...dgn teknologi sekarang, you can go for a lot of c-sect. bukan setakat tiga sahaja. cuma, now, what i really want is, for the obgyn to allow me experience the labor pain, before operating on me. alasan? to make sure that baby is ready to go out. rasa-rasa, doktor bagi tak ek?

ok jap

i look forward to my skype time with the boys every day. walaupun hakikatnya, AD and AA would be wrestling on the bed, main tembak-tembak, minum susu or doing something else and not talk to me, its nice to watch them. :)

sometimes, i would have a hard time to talk to Dr Sunshine because riuh rendah dengan suara the boys wrestling or something. tapi sekali ni, AA was quiet. so, Dr Sunshine was a bit suspicious because u know la bebudak ni, when they are quiet, they are usually up to something.

Dr Sunshine: Andi, buat apa tu?

Andi: *senyap*

Dr Sunshine: Buat apa tu Andi?

Andi: *senyap*

Tetengok, dia tengah sibuk 'mengemas' dvd. taking it out from the case.

Dr Sunshine: Andi, papa dah cakap kan jangan main dgn dvd.

Andi: Ok papa...jap. Ani....mas (ajak AD kemas)

one time, dr Sunshine wasn't in the room. I could see Andi holding a small plastic which contained a piece of chocolate (yg dah pecah-pecah). he was playing with it for a while, and then baring. and of course, the chocs fell out from the plastic. He immediatly sat up when he realised chocs jatuh.

Me: Andi...chocolate jatuh, kemas cepat. nanti papa tengok papa marah.

Andi: Ok Mama.

Me: tengok

Andi: (Ke)mas mama. ok. jap. (ke)mas. (sambil bubuh the pieces of chocs in the small plastic)

Pastu, ada time tu, Dr Sunshine nak tukar diaper.

Dr Sunshine: Andi, jom tukar pampers.

Andi: (tak) Payah

Dr Sunshine: Kenapa tak payah?

Andi: Sebaaaaabbbbbbbb, nanak (tak nak).

And, i think he is really following his abang. AD suka polis, dia pon suka polis. On Monday, Dr Sunshine rushed home after work, only to arrive at 8 plus. dah sampai tu, ajak la bebudak balik. Dani tak nak balik, sebab ada roda2kl. Andi? dia pon nanak, sebab nak tgk jugak! pastu, dr Sunshine kata, masa tgk tu kan, tiba2 dia angkat sikit baju kat bahagian bahu tu, and cakap "pat wa wa hello poyis (empat dua dua hello polis)" seolah-olah tgh cakap on walkie talkie!!!

and today, Dr Sunshine bawak the boys to the playground. Dani was contented with the swings, slides, see saw. Andi? Dia sibuk pi join budak-budak besar (about 8-10 year olds) main bola sepak. He ran around with them sibuk going after the ball, but of course they did not kick the ball towards him, maybe takut will hurt him or something. Tahu tak dia buat apa? Masa orang tengah nak penalti kick,dia cepat-cepat lari towards the ball, took it and ran away with it. LOL!!!!

Needless to say, Dr Sunshine was soooo excited and is already thinking of buying him soccer boots (when he is older)!! Soccer lah, tennis lah, hmm,..all this athletic genes semua dari Dr Sunshine la nih.

tiramisu

you see, my AD and I are currently watching tiramisu, the tv show. and sometimes, we would sing the opening song together so one day, i youtubed the song because nak try hafal lirik (yes u ols, sanggup hokei nak hafal lirik bagai). tapi, masa mencari lagi ittew, terjumpa pulak resipi tiramisu and tahu tak, the recipe SANGAT senang, and tak memerlukan telur at all! selalu, yg i baca, tiramisu kena pukul telur seperately lah, etc. tapi dgn resipi ni, you get the same taste, minus the susah payah!!!

so, this is the recipe: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CY2eWtSEGqk

masa tgk tu, sila just mutekan the sound. cos org tu just bagi background music and no explaination whatsoever.

sila cuba. cos ingredients yang diperlukan sangat sedikit. and it literally took me only 15minutes (or even less) to prepare the dessert.

Anugerah Tuhan

You know what is an amazing conincidence?

Everytime I am pregnant, one of my best friends would be preggers as well!!!

Congratulations Nana!!! I am super excited. hehehe.....

So far, AD was born in the same year as ayang's NDS

AA pulak, satu batch dengan ayang's NIZ and iezma's H and tak jauh beza with tank's D.

Now, baby in tummy plak ada gang....hehehe....I LIKE.