toilet training

hrmm...kerja doesn't seem to be moving. Well, to be honest it ain't easy!!! I am dead worried actually. So far right now, baru siap chapter 2, 4, and three quarters of chapter 1. chapter 3, half done. 5,6 dan 7, tak tulis lagi!!!! matilaaa....sempat ke ni nak submit by december???? *risau*

I am also thinking of asking someone to be a regular babysitter for aaron. tapi idak pulak i tertanya kan. Its a guy actually, but dia ikut wife dia kerja kat wien. i don't know if he'll be up to it. i will pay him of course. tapi tula...tak tahula dia nak ke idak....

ok..berbalik kepada topik diatas. I have actually started to toilet train AA. MAsa first day, it was tough. I spend so much time and energy mencuci duvet, bedsheet, carpet, countless shorts and pants!!! Tapi second day, ada 1 accident je. :) Even today, day three, only one accident. Tapi minor je because macam basah sikit aje kat seluar. Macam terkucil. But dia tahan. then bawa dia pi toilet baru dia wee wee properly. However, malam2 we still put his diaper on. Nak wait for no accidents during the day baru boleh be sure that he can control his bladder. apa pon, I am thankful. Because this means we only use 1 diaper a day. Imagine how much I can jimat!!! :)

Tapi my boy demam ni...even demam pon, we didnt put his toilet training on hold. Takut if berenti, nanti back to square one and have to start all over again.

OKlah..I am supposed to edit my chapter 1, tapi adakah i buat??? NOOO....i should really kick myself i tell you! Doakan I sempat habis my first draft by October....please please please...

Oh ya...disamping itu, kena start study la pulak kan! I have 3 exams in october. *pengsan*

bagaimanakah?

i have made some progress with my writing, Alhamdullillah. Tapi, tetaplah lari deadline.

Tapi, ai tak mo la stress sangat (walaupun hakikatnya i keep waking up in the middle of the night sebab memikirkan tesis nieh).

I am currently working on my chapter one. Chapter 2 and 4 dah settle. Chapter 1, almost there. Chapter three, halfway one.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusanku. I really hope I'd be able to at least finish my data analysis before i fly back, inshaAllah.

*risau*

only in kmk

when i was 18, i was shipped of to a godforsaken place (at least that was what I thought lah masa tu) to do my matriculation. I cried buckets before leaving. My attempts to request for a transfer from my Daddy was to no avail. Nak tak nak, terpaksalah ai berkampung kat Kulim for 8 months.

Being schooled at sekolah biasa, I didn't know what to expect. The only thing that made me happy was the fact that my bestfriend will be there as well. So, tak de la lonely sangat kan. And as she was also from the same school that I was in, adalah gang kan. ihiks.

Maka, berbekalkan bag besar termasuk bantal peluk dan ration macam orang yang terperangkap dalam rumah sebulan, i made my way to the place. I was, indeed, very out of place. Everybody knew that my bestie and i were 'budak bandar' because of how different we were. We didnt blend in, at first. Yelah...orang pesan turun solat subuh, we ols, dah start kuliah subuh baru turun. Mana la tahu kena turun before azan!!! hih hih. My first week there, I dah crave for mcDs. haha. mengada betul.

Anyway, when I was there i learnt a lot of stuff.

1. i learnt how a good friend can betray you just because of a guy

2. i learnt how devastating it was to get my heart broken

3. how it felt to be cheated

4. how to 'lompat pagar'.

5. how to survive eating food from dewan makan

6. that a good friend would wake up and make you tea for sahur despite the fact that she does not eat sahur. *i love you tet*

7. it was also my first time makan nasi goreng daging merah!!!

8. how to escape dari dipatuk itik kampung. hihi

10. how to defend a friend's honour

11. that dreams do come true

12. bercinta masa 18 years old doesnt mean that you'd end up marrying that guy.

13. minat-minat dari jauh can end up in a happy marriage. :p

14. how to basuh baju guna tangan.

15. the trick to dapat the shower stall pagi2 is ironically to bangun lambat. tak yah rebut because everybody else seem to bangun awal. but then, bila bangun lambat, there's a possibility to miss breakfast at the dewan makan which was no big issue sebab tak de la sedap sgt pon. hihi.

16. being good in english gets you free burgers and abc

those were some of the stuff. gosh. i miss my young carefree days.

40 hari

At 40 days, Aaron:

- kadang-kadang tak tido after susu. Dia mahu di dodoi to sleep

- loves to be cuddled

- can coo and gurgle.

- sleeps sooooo well in his playpen but not so well in his cot

- prefers to sleep on his chest rather on his back

- muak susu lots of times but i think andi dulu lagi banyak

- recognizes mama (or bau mama) cos he'll stop crying when i carry him. bila papa angkat, kadang2 still menangis.

As for me, its been a tiring, whilrwind journey, being a mom of 3 boys. Penat okeh!!!! Especially when my no 1 dah pandai nak menjawab and my no 2 is in his terrible 2 phase. *lap peluh*

But, good news is i have gotten used to the routine. So now technically is the time when I should be doing my work (but of course I tend to procastinate and blog instead!)

Oklah...got to go blog hopping get back to work.

kerja kerja kerja

I baru je placed an order for a book through bookdepository sebab depa buat free delivery worldwide. That book is something i need to read before writing about modernity. So, since buku tu, next week kot baru sampai, maka ai put on hold dulu projek tulis pasal modernity. I will start writing on cultural identity plaks.

I tell you, speaking about modernity, rasa macam lagi banyak baca, lagilaaa banyak haku tak tahu. Tapi kan, actually it applies tu everything i have read so far. Hehe.

Cultural identity ni, sebenarnye ai dah baca and dah buat short notes pon. Just nak tunggu start menulis aje. masalah problem skarang, ai tak ingat mana ai letak my external hard drive. tsk. So, kena proses mencari dulu. To start proses mencari, have to wait for Mr Aaron to tidur.

Ok...nk tidurkan aaron sambil2 cari artikel on modernity.

oh mengapa?

alahai..target baca 2 chapter semalam tapi sempat baca satu aje. And, tak de pon cari article. tsk tsk. takpe. hari ni try perabiskan everything and malam nanti cari article plaks.

anyhoo, can i just say, that i love it when u kiss me all over my face before you go to work?? emm..camni rupanya perasaan jadi SAHM. I guess husbands tend to appreciate you more, no???

p/s: ayang, mak pon nak join uols tulis buku pasal phd mommies.

when push comes to shove

bagi yang membaca my previous post, sure tahu that i am supposed to have finished writing my theoretical framework chapter by now. Tetapi,adekah? Non ado!!!!! tsk. But I have made some progress in reading about modernity cuma blom habis2 baca lagi. Selagi tak habis baca how to write? how???

Lepas tu, ai gatal pi email one of my prof's assistant, tanya ada ke apa2 assignment since i missed the last few classes. Dia kata, kena tulis 15 page paper on our research project and include things that had been discussed in class. Coincidentally, one of the things discussed in class about my research was to include the theory on modernity in my thesis. So folks, looks like I really have to work my butt off to siapkan pasal modernity thingy ni. In a way, its a blessing in disguise, no? Sebab bila dah memang kena hantar untuk dapat grade, sure automatically akan try produce the best, kan?

So, today, my aim is to finish reading at least 2 more chapters, then I have one more to go. Malam ni ingat nak search for articles yang ada sentuh pasal modernity ni. Tapi kan, modernity ni macam related sangat-sangat to globalisation so i might just have a hint of globlalisation in my thesis nanti.

Apa pon, data analysis tak tulis lagi. *mati!!!!* But, I have written to seperate papers on the datas I collected of which one tu I dah present kat conference. Cuma, the paper tu tak guna all my datas. So, I am not that worried la, because I sort of have an idea of how to actually write it.

Ni ha...theoretical framework tak siap-siap lagi apa kes????

Please Allah, gibe me ideas on things to write, let Aaron cooperate and senang tidur (dia tak mo tido skarang!!! tsk tsk) and give me strength to get through all this.

Ok...nak kena try tidorkan budak kecik, pastu mandi and start reading.