my boys

saya sedih.

Dr Sunshine just left for KL. It will be another 8 months before I see him.

I know time flies, tapi i feel very sad. emo. helpless.

Tapi, I have to be strong for my boys.

He left with lots of nasihat. What to do with the boys, the house, because ever since he came, i have been so dependent on him. I was too dependent on him. All I did was jadi Andi's milk machine and cook and kemas rumah sikit-sikit. lain semua, Dr Sunshine yg buat.

Starting today, i will have to do everything. Bathe the boys, tukar diaper, basuh berak, buat laundry, vacuum rumah, washthe dishes, throw the garbage, buat groceries.banyak tu.

first things first, esok nk kena register kat uni. pastu sign up for the next level. then, if ada masa, bayar insurance. and if still have time, pi Dredsner and ask if what i have is sufficient. if not, hmm...kena tanya apa lg yg diperlukan. must call landlord to ask for document.esok petang, must do a bit of groceries...byk brg dh habis. i must also start doing my budget. have been ignoring that since Dr Sunshine came.

ok. i want to put andi down and start the laundry.

please doakan that i will be able to cope with everything. i am starting to risau..huhu...

i am more relaxed when Dr Sunshine is here. but a few days before he left, i started being worried about things.

i guess, i worry because i know that now, i only have myself to depend on.

I miss you my Sunshine.