superman

Saya rasa Dr sunshine umpama Superman. Dia kan, jaga anak-anak saya. dan sekarang, dia tengah bertungkus lumus pack barang-barang di rumah sewa sebab esok nak pindah ke rumah baru , sambil menjaga anak kami yang demam!

Oh...saya rasa nak balik sekarang juga untuk membantu dia....kesiaannn!! :(

permohonan ke sekolah

today, Dr Sunshine went to S3 to submit AD's school application. Menurutnya, the school is so much better than the one in bsp. i asked why? dia kata sebab the school feels different, padang dia cantik and well kept, and most importantly, ada tennis court.

sigh.

i knew it.

the tennis court made the school looks great to Dr Sunshine.

i hope AD will be able to fulfil his Papa's wish to have tennis players in the family (we have had this conversation since we were 20 and bila we got all boys, makin excited la dr sunshine). dr sunshine is planning to get a tennis coach for AD once we've settled down in bsp.

anyway, back to the school, the school admin tanye why apply to tht school n not bsp. we ols kata sbb dekat dgn my office. hih hih.

i really hope AD gets in! kalu tak...hmmm....have to merayu la nampaknya.

pasal sms

Tahu tak, when i was pregnant with aaron last year, i text Dr Sunshine almost every single morning (time malaysia), just to say good morning ke, or drive safely ke or apa2 ajelah.

Pastukan, when I got back here with Aaron, I pulak yg dapat text almost every morning from him!!!!!! *tersengih lebar*

I tell you, waking up to find a text from my husband is one of the greatest feeling ever. It may seem so simple, but, it really makes my day! :)

Lagi-lagila bila dapat text ajak pergi holiday. Ooohhh...cannot wait for it to materialise.

Ok, sekarang, kena buat kerja. :)

my wedding playlist

I found my wedding playlist while reading through my old blog!!! I have been looking for the playlist for ages. I compiled the list sebab masa tu my bridesmaid nana ditugaskan untuk cari lagu-lagu tu dan burn kat cd supaya masa reception boleh main lagu-lagu ittew!!!

all the songs have special meanings to me and actually reminded me of the times that i spend with my friends, my bf. Semua lagu tu memang ada kenangan. anyway, here's the list....

Mel C's never be the same again: I have always always felt that it was our song. That song came out when we just started dating and its about friends who became lovers. jadi sangat seswai ok untuk jadi lagu tema! (altho haku je la kan rasa macam tu...wakakakak)

You''re still the one by Shania Twain: Lagu ni, reminds me of gang projek yang always there for me, especially during my difficult phase ittew. They supported me all the way! An also because my kisah percintaan penuh ranjau berduri (chewah) and the relationship had to go through one of the most horriblest (if there is such a word) phase. Tapi, I thank god that afz was strong and had confidence in us and pulled me back up. :)

Jangan bersedih lagi, Anuar Zain: Lagu that I used to cry to in the car on the way to work, on the way back from work, or any time i felt like it during the difficult phase of our relationship. Memang kena ok lagu ni dgn iols!!

All my life, K-ci and Jojo: I always consider this my song with my KT girls, my best friends since standard 1. Thank you for being my sisters. *teary eyed*

Because you love me, Celine Dion: afz pernah nyanyi lagu ni for me masa kitaorang dating dekat the weld. (ohemgee, my memory is so kuat okeh..wakakak...another song that he used to sing for me was a better man by robbie williams)

Percayalah, ct nurhaliza: lagu ni selalu pasang masa lepak main that ball game on wani's pc, while waiting to buka or nak pergi dinner. lagu ini juga selalu berkumandang semasa saya rindu gila kat afz yang semasa itu belajar di kelate (padahal every 3 weeks kot jumpa..wakakakak)

swear it again, westlife: lagu ni, reminded me of my first year. masa dgn gang bib. mek. mesyuarat tangga. masa frust dapat tahu adam is dating someone else. tapi tak lah frust sangat pon uols...mak ada bf lain shorlt after that. wakakakak...

manisnya senyumanmu, elite: lagu bila mak karoks dgn gang2 bib. also lagu masa intai ali. wakakkaak...oh..i miss my old roomate, sue and bib.. ingat tak masa kita intai2 ala.....haih..the stuffs kita buat masa 1st year. heheheh

thank god i found you,mariah carey: lagu yang i perasan is lagu i dgn afz. wakkakaka..tapi honestly, thank god he 'saw' me. memang la i found him, tapi if dia tak sedar kewujudan mak nothing will happen, right? hehehe

This I promise you, N Sync: lagu masa rindu2...wakakak..dan juga reminds me of tet. Tet, if ko baca ni, ingat tak lagu ni tet? ingat tak kita suka nyanyi lagu ni kuat2? Lagi satu, kita suka nyanyi lagu bsb dalam toilet. lagu apa ek? haa..from the first daaaayyy...that I saw ur lovely faceeee...honey i knew that we will be..together forever......

I turn to you, Christina aguilera: lagu masa 2nd year...reminds me of the days i used to squating kat bilik wan cin. then lpepak bilik yani kecik and wan rose. then i moved to my own room..hehehe

Gadisku, Search: reminds me of ieja. and..reminds me of my guy friends, ejam, mucher, wark, arwah pau...they made this tape for me and sang this song...i will never forget it!

so in love, all-4-1: sri aman daysss....yc, my, mh, aw, mt, mm. i miss uols.

mencintaimu, Kris D: entah kenapa, this song ada dalam list i. hmm..maybe sebab ni lagu kawen kot...wakakakak

Sunshine, gabrielle: gang lepak sampai subuh, iaitu wan cin, wan rose, grunge, najeeb, norman, di feringghi...lagu ni mmg buat aku ingat kat korang....lagu thong song pon ingatkan aku kat korang jugak..wakakakak..

flying without wings, westlife: lagu ni, afz slalu juga nanyi...this song reminds me of him.

because of you, 98 degrees: ni lagu dgn nana....and also ingat zaman kmk..heheheh...

So, whats your lagu???

terasa dihargai

Saya terasa sangat dihargai bila dapat tahu Dr Sunshine ambil cuti sampai hari Khamis the first week I am back. :)

Love you la babe!

For that, I akan stay up to teman you tengok finals champions league, k? And make u coffee, and goreng some benda makan so that you have something to munch on during the match. :)

terharu

Oh, kadang-kadang Dr Sunshine can surprise me.

Like tonight, while on skype, he could actually cerita balik the detail of our first date AND what I wore. wakakakka....terkejut i ok especially tang what I wore tu.

And, lepastu, dia kata "lagi 8 hari u balik." Terus I terkejut sebab dia pon buat countdown macam I rupanya. hih hih. Selama ni, ingat I jer lah yang over excited.

Cepat-cepatlah 8 hari ni berlalu pergi. I sesungguhnya memang tak de mood langsung nak buat apa-apa.

Here's to 8 more days!!!

ampers

ampers is pampers in bahasa AA. hehe.

Anyway, yesterday AA was quite naughty because he took off his diaper and peed on my mom's carpet! haih. Ni yang buat ai tak sabar nak toilet train him ni.

So today, the papa yang baru balik dari oc, jumpa AA and asked AA about it. AA senyap aje. And then the papa tanya, "boleh ke tak boleh PU kat carpet?" And he continued by saying: "budak yang tak good boy je buat macam tu, and AA good boy kan? If nak bukak pampers, kena pergi PU kat toilet." Masa papa tengah bagi syarahan tu, AA dah sebak-sebak dah. And then, bermulalah sesi menangis kesedihan sebab kena lecture dengan Papa. So, Papa had to stop bagi lecture. hih hih.

Then, my mom told Dr Sunshine (a.k.a the Papa) that AA likes to climb the grill sampai tinggi-tinggi. So, the papa asked, "AA panjat grill ke?" AA cakap: "tak de tak de." Papa asked pulak, "habistu siapa yang panjat?" AA jawab "yaya" (cousin dia). But of course we know better la kan. Maka, bermulalah lagi satu siri syarahan dari the Papa about how dangerous it is to climb the grill and also if AA good boy, AA tak buat benda-benda macam tu. And, nangis lagi sekalilah anak mama sebab kena lecture.

I don't know about you, but all parents ada their own way to discipline their child. I know of some yang suka herdik anak-anak. Ada yang pukul, cubit and tampar. Ada yang bagi time out. I personally tak agree dengan taktik mengherdik (like panggil budak tu bodoh or lembab or something to that effect) or memukul, tapi to hak ibu bapa masing-masing la kan.

For Dr Sunshine and I, we like to tell them what they did wrong but of course dengan stern and strict punya voice. hehe. Tapi tak de la sampai nak menjerit-jerit. And I sometimes akan bagi time out kat the boys. When AA was a crawling baby, bila dia tak behave I like to bedung dia macam baby kecik and count to 10 sebab nak suruh time out susah kan. Kadang-kadang dia struggle, tapi kadang-kadang dia suka pulak. hehe.

For AD pulak, i always tanya dia bila dia nak start buat perangai:"AD behave ke tak behave?" and masa dia kecik-kecik dia akan jawab "be-hef". That line still work on him. hehe. Tapi katalah if all else fails, I resort to, if tak behave mama bagitahu papa. That works like a charm!!

Its amazing how the boys respect Dr Sunshine tremendously. Padahal Dr Sunshine tak pernah nak marah-marah dorang and manjakan dorang sangat-sangat. For the boys, anything the Papa says, goes. Papa panggil makan ubat, masing-masing nganga jer mulut. But if orang lain, kena wrestling dulu, barulah nak makan ubat.

I cannot wait to tengok my boys perangai for myself. I just hope that I would not turn out to be a screaming mama sebab dah lama kan tak layan karenahan dorang ni. hiks.

14

Hari ni i tak buat apa because I decided to stay at home instead of pergi uni. Hmm..I knew that I should have gone sebab if duduk rumah, memangla pegang buku/artikel. Tapi setakat pegang jelah. Bacanya idak sebab mata tu dok tengok amazing race lah, bones lah, greys anatomy lah. Haih. Maka, esok, nak tak nak kena gak pergi uni atau at least keluar dari rumah! If not, tergendala lah semua kerja bagai.

Anyway, tadi, ai terasa kecik hati lite lite dengan Dr Sunshine. Sebab, dia kata dia locum the day after I arrive AND kena pergi seminar plak on monday tu. Terus terasa diri ini tidak penting uols!!! Padahal, locum tu, bukan seharian suntuk pon! Selalu if dia locum pon, sure kami akan dating makan breakfast dulu and dia break between 2-6pm so usually we'll lepak2 togede anyways. And, seminar tu, dia plan nak pi register aje, pastu dia kata nak melencong pi jenjalan dgn I, and tgk wayang bagai becos seminar kat KLCC. Tapi, tetaplaaaaa ai nak kecik hati jugak kan? Tetapla terasa macam my kepulangan tidak dinanti-nantikan gittew. *matila emo tak tentu pasal* Ok. I blame the hormones. hih hih.

Whatever it is, I am glad he decided not to masuk OT on the day I will be arriving walaupun tak de sapa yang boleh ganti dia. Haa...if masuk OT jugek, memang I akan merajuk tidur rumah mak jer!!!!!

By the way, best sangat because my Along called to tanya what would I want to eat bila sampai. Ihiks. I cakap, masak biasa-biasa je sebab selalu after perjalanan jauh, mana ada selera sangat. Terus dia kata...ok, makan soto la yek. Erk, ai ok jer!!!

Tak sabarnyeeee nak makan kari ketam!!!

And, tak sabar nak masak-masak for Dr Sunshine. :-)

bila anak tak sihat

I got a text from Dr Sunshine at 3-ish am malaysian time, saying that he hasn't had the chance to sleep because AA was feverish and wanted to be cuddled all the time. Apparently, after minum susu, AA walked out of the room looking for Papa who was watching a football match in TV. He cuddled with him sambil tidur. Lepas game habis, they went inside the room and at 3 macam tu, AA vomitted dalam pelukan the papa, and habis kena papa, AA, bedsheet, pillow and blanket.

Maka, at 3am-ish itu, my Dr Sunshine had to mandikan AA, himself and wash the bajus yang kena muntah and all the blanket, bedsheet,pillowcase and terbalikkan the tilam, while my boys slept in front of the tv. Sigh.

At times like this, I wished I was around. I wished I was around to help Dr Sunshine with things. You see, selalu, if kids sakit, it is always the moms yang take care of them. But it is a whole different story with my babies.

I tell you, a lot of people told me how strong I am to live alone in a foreign land, pregnant and etc. But I think, my dear husband is the person who should be taking the credits. Not only does he juggle his time between work and studies, he also has to single handedly take care of two boys. Yes, I admit that he has help from families, at those times that he goes for locum atau nak pergi main tennis or futsal or snooker. But at the end of the day, he always brings the boys back. Lepas a long day at work or OC, dia masih ambik the boys from my moms. He will bring them to the playground and pergi dinner. Then balik and play with them. Normally, he would be online, almost every night to talk to me. In between, he still has to manage the house chores like doing the laundry and kemas rumah (which can be quite sepah since we have 2 boys..hehe), buat susu, put the boys to sleep, do his assignments. I tell you, he has sacrificed a lot for me and I really am grateful for that. Maka, balik nanti, I promise myself that I will try to be the best wife there is.

Anyway, after getting the texts about the muntah incident, I called him up and I told Dr Sunshine, there's only 25 days left, and then I can help him out. But of course he said, "ala, if you balik and the boys muntah, it will still be me who will be doing all this because tak kan lah i nak bagi isteri i yang sarat mengandung buat semua tu. I tell you, my husband is so baik and loving. I must have done something good in my life to deserve a great man like him.

However, I still feel guilty. Guilty to leave him with all the responsibility of taking care of the boys. For making him have less time for himself. He told me not to feel that way but I just cannot help it.

It is times like this that I wish I would be finished with my PhD cepat-cepat.

Ya Allah, thank you for giving me the best husband in the whole wide world.

babysitting

Tadi, ai babysat my boys while the papa tidur kepenatan. Maka, sempatlah ai buat spelling with AD dan juga main jual beli/ gerai makan dengan AA and buat counting juga. :)

I tell you, its amazing what we can do with technology.

Lepas tu,I asked the boys to kejut the Papa but Papa sangat penat dan tak bangun. Mujur not long after that my lappie's azan bunyi...dan teruslah Papa bangun.hikhikhik.

Hmm..ai rasa, next time ai am on babysitting duty, ai nak start tunjuk the boys flashcards lah. hehe. Bukan apa, ai saje je nak ajar dorang lite-lite. So far, AA bolehlah kira sikit-sikit, tapi ai must say, AD was far more advanced when he was AA's age. Cuma, AA ni very extrovert and tak pemalu, maka harus saya tekankan di sini, every child is special in his own way. :)

Semalam, we ol tanya AA, mana adik? Dia kata tak ada. Then we said, adik ada dalam perut.And dia pon angkat baju dia and tunjuk perut dia...seolah fenfeeling adik is in his perut. Then we said, adik is in my perut. hehe.

And, AD keep on saying i am fat! *nanges*. Tapi I know, fat yang dia maksudkan adalah sebab perut ai besar dan ada adik kat dalam (because he said so). Maka, tak jadi nak emo. wakaka

26 more days.

melt

semalam, ai baca blog sape tah and dia ada letak lagu bruno mars just the way you are. i tell you, kadang-kadang i wonder ada ke lelaki yang adore perempuan sampai begitu sekali???

well, i actually emailed Dr Sunshine lepas baca blog tu dengan meng-attachkan lagu tersebut and asked him that question. haha.

Dan hari ni, semasa nak cakap babai kat skype, dia nyanyi kat ai lagu tu.

*cair*

p/s: dan AA bangun semasa papa dia buat konsert sambil gelak ketawa yang lemak manis. cannot wait to be with my babies.

hari ini dalam sejarah

Walaupun Dr Sunshine ingat-ingat lupa je tarikh 9 April ni, I tetap akan ingat sampai bila-bila, insyaAllah.

Ada apa dengan 9 April?

Hari ni, 11 years ago, was the day Dr Sunshine asked "Apa kata kita couple dua?" through IRC. Oh my...its eons ago. IRC tu entah ada ke tak ek sekarang?

Anyway sayang, terima kasihlah sebab you had the guts to take the risk of asking me to be more than just friends. Walaupun you buat I cuak sebab the next day tu, masa chat tiba-tiba you tanya I, "what did we just do yesterday?" which made my heart drop. I baru je seharian berbunga-bunga, bila you tanya soalan tu, my first thought was: shoot, mesti dia nak take back what he said. heheh. Thank god you did not. Instead, you called me and told me that what happened the night before was real. *syukur*

And, I still remembered how nervous I was when you came to KL and we went out on our first date! Yes, ai bercinta through internet yer uols! Tak pernah pi dating sebelum bercinta. Tapi pernahlah keluar ramai-ramai as friends because he was one of my bestest guy friends. Kita jumpa dekat depan McDonalds CM and walked all the way to KLCC. Wahh...sangat gigih ok. Sekarang, I rasa I tak sanggup kot.

And, how could I forget the time you first met my Daddy? Jumpa dekat HKL, masa Daddy dialisis sebab I had to teman Daddy that day. Tapi Daddy kan sporting, maka selepas I selesai tolong dia set up barang-barang dia, dia bagi permisi I pi dating dengan you. Pastu, Daddy juga sibuk canang kat kawan-kawan dialisis dia yang you medical student (padahal masa tu you baru second year..hehehe). I guess Daddy kembang kuncup la kot sebab nak harapkan anak-anak dia jadi medical doctor, sorang pon tak minat. Maka, menantu doktor pon, jadilah. hikhik. (tapi Adik insyaAllah jadi Doktor juga tau Daddy...tapi Doktor dalam bidang akademik lah.:))

Anyway baby, thank you for never giving up, for being patient with me and for asking me that question 11 years ago.

Love you babe.

pasal nak renovate rumah

uols. sekarang ni, iols merancang untuk me-renovate rumah.

The thing is Dr Sunshine telah meminta quotation dari abang ipar dia because bapak abang ipar dia tu kontraktor kecil-kecilan. My sis in laws pon memang la dok buat renovation dengan kontraktor itu.

So, semalam, Dr Sunshine forwarded me the quotation. Tapi kan, ai ada sedikit tidak puas hati dengan quotation itu. Sebabnya, I was expecting a detailed quotation. Contohnya, tiles nanti kena guna berapa banyak, dan jenis tiles yg boleh kami pilih. Pastu, sink tu, jenis apa? (tapi hakikatnya, I tak berkenan pon dengan cadangan untuk double sink ittew. I want a single sink tapi besar). Dalam quotation tu, dia just cakap benda yg dia plan nak buat. Contohnya, tiles of your choice, lampu, wiring, pastu tiba-tiba dah 9K. (ni contoh yer). Err...so, kalau i pilih tiles paling mahal pon, harga akan stay that way ke? Pastu yang paling i tak paham, kenapa nak extend belakang rumah, tapi cara dia bagi quote tu ala-ala ai nak buat bilik lain sebab siap dengan down light and plaster ceiling bagai. Padahal ai plan nak jadikan belakang tu tempat masak-masak and buat laundry saja.

Ke, sebenarnye memang semua kontraktor ni tak bagi detailed quotation and bagi anggaran macam tu aje. I bukan apa, i tak nak la nanti halfway buat kerja, tiba2 cakap, eh, kena tambah la sebab over budget dan sebagainya. TU, i tak nak. Pastu, yang I malas is that, bila dah kerja dengan sedara, it would be hard to be firm. Don't you think so?

Lagi satu, I sebenarnye kalau bolah nak la Dr Sunshine cari 3 quotation at least to compare it kan.

One more question, would it be cheaper for me to get the fittings (ie: lampu, sink, kipas dan etc) or biar kotraktor belikan? I rasa mcm nak beli sendiri je fittings tu, sebab my guts said that it would be muuuccchhhhh cheaper. But i tak de experience. So, adakah ia lebih menguntungkan jika beli sendiri??

p/s: risau pulak nanti Dr Sunshine kata I ni fussy. *sigh*

mimpi ngeri

i had a nightmare last night! I tell you, when I am pregnant, startlah datang mimpi pelik2 ni tau! Benci betul.

I dreamt that Dr Sunshine pergi conference sesambil holiday dengan seorang betina gatal. Apakah? Bangun-bangun je, terus ai tak de mood. Dan juga telah meng-text Dr Sunshine pasal mimpi ngeri ittew. Dia pon kata: "the only betina that will be in there is the orangutan."

Fuh. lega ai!

Speaking of which, dah 26 minggu dah ai pregnant. Dan ini juga bermakna, dah 6 bulanlah ai tak jumpa my boys. :(

I have 9 more weeks to go. Haih...tahu tak apa maknanya? Maknanya, if I jumpa depa in 9 more weeks, I haven't met them for about 8 months!!! 8 months. Who would have thought! This has been the longest time I have ever had to be away. :(

I miss my boys.

bila sakit

Two nights ago, I woke up at about 3am because I was experiencing stomach cramps. It comes and goes and really felt like contraction pain. Mungkin ia adalah Braxton Hicks. Anyway, it was so painful that I couldn't sleep.

Jadi, saya telefon Dr Sunshine untuk mengadu & dan dan tu jugaklah menangis sambil mengadu tu. haih. Tapi betul sakit uols!!!! Lepas mengadu dan sambil-sambil Dr Sunshine cuba memujuk saya dan tried to calm me down on the phone, I said goodbye and cried myself to sleep. Masa tu, rasa sedih sangat sebab pregnant sorang-sorang. Tak de sapa nak urut-urut belakang. No tangan for me to bite or squeeze when I am in pain. It was just me, baby, and God. *feeling-feeling ala-ala Mariam*

Tula...dok gatal baca blog orang lain yang pregnant. Bila baca, rasa mcm bestnyaaaaa bila pregnant dengan suami di sisi: suami tolong massagelah, tolong masak dan manja-manjakan dorang, belikan makanan and layan their cravings. Jealous? Of course la ada terasa juga. Yela, siapa tak nak pregnant dengan husband di sisi?? Tapi, ai tabahkan aje hati. Cuma 2 nights ago tu, I tak tahan sangat. Yela...sakit. And it was 3am. I was worried about the baby. And, I had no one with me. :(

It is not easy being pregnant and away from family. Tapi nothing ever is kan?

Jadi, if you are one of those lucky ones to be pregnant with your husband by your side, sila bersyukur - even when your husband berdengkur je tidur bila u kejut dia banyak kali sebab sakit belakang/ tak le tido/ Braxton Hicks. Dan, sila appreciate apa yang suami buat untuk anda, even benda tu nampak macam kecik je and something that is assumed as memang patut dia buat pon (like basuh pinggan). Sebab at the end of the day, you still have him by your side. Biarlah dia tengah berdengkur pon, you can still sondol-sondol and tidur bawah ketiak dia or take his arms (secara paksarela) and wrap it around yourself.

I miss my husband.

macam sibuk

Hari ni, rasa rindu sangat dgn the boys, especially AA and AD. It has been weeks since I last skyped with them (1 whole misarable week of not hearing AA cakap hai mama, hai babe ... ini kes ajuk papa dia cakap, not listening to AD cerita about school and what he did). Dr Sunshine has been busy with kenduri kawen kawan dia, pastu OC (on days that I dont have classes) and me with my erratic class schedule! The time difference does not help at all because by the time I am home, my babies would be asleep, so I can only look at them sleeping through web cam. tsk.

Sigh.

Rindunyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

I wish that I am now on the same bed as they are walaupun harus berhimpit-himpit kat atas katil queen ittew.

I still have yet to purchase my ticket. Esok Dr Sunshine OC lagi. I know. again! Perluke EOD??? Dahlah tu, ai memang tak de kelas pulak tu esok. tsk. Friday, dia locum and I have class till 8pm. Saturday ajela peluang ai untuk berborak dengan the boys.

sob sob.

Only about 9.5 more weeks. Haih....cepatlah masa beredar. I wanna go home. Err..tapi kerja tak siap lagi. *nanges*

Hmm...I guess inilah derita merindu, kan??

p/s: suka tengok when Dr Sunshine's face lit up when he thought I was going to balik awal. But then, dia juga menyarankan supaya ai menyiapkan segala mala kerja. :(

ramblings

haih.

1. dalam sibuk-sibuk remind Dr Sunshine untuk settle samannya, ai terlupa yang ai juga ada kena saman!! oppsss. *pekup mulut*

anyway, tu pon boleh teringat sebab nak renew road tax kereta i, yang due bulan ini. Oh, cannot believe Elena is 6!!!!

ok.

2. Dr Sunshine is going for a trip up north today for a friend's wedding. I hope AA won't be moody because this means that he will not be sleeping with his papa for 2 nights in a row. Tapi the papa dah bagitahu dia, to which he replied: ok. ok. a ah. wakakakak...

i wish that i am going with him.

3. on the bright side, there is a makan-makan thingy this saturday and the featured menu is nasi lemak and mee kari! YUMMYYY. I feel so thankful to be invited to this makan-makan. At least, dapat gaklah satisfy my cravings. :) Dah lama tak makan nasi. Yes, I hardly eat rice nowadays.

4. plan for tomorrow ialah to edit my paper at starbucks and do my readings for the class tomorrow. dah baca tu, sila tulis nota sekali ye! sebabnya, exam awak is only 1 month away. *yikes*

5. oh...and did i tell you how lucky i felt? you see, one of the paper i am taking, exam dia adalah 22june. tapi disebabkan sistem pembelajaran kat sini yang unik, they provide 3 sittings for the exam. So, there will be an option for me to do it in October, or January. Best kan? Cuma yang tak best, takut dah lupa benda yang dipelajari. Oh, but must not forget to ask the other lecturer (for a different subject) if she provide several sittings for her exam as well.

6. And, out of the 6 papers I am taking this sem, 3 are exam based. I am kind of glad because that means less assignments, and more time for me to write me thesis. Tapi kawan i cakap, lagi best if kena tulis paper dari buat assignment. hrm...i pon tak tahulah. But frankly for me at this moment, doing an exam is a better option kot. Sebab kalau nak kena tulis paper, cuba imagine nak kena tulis minimum 6 papers dalam dengan persediaan nak beranak (tu pon if satu subjek satu paper..tapi usually 1 subjek will require 2 papers).Cuma, mak dah lama tak study bagai untuk exam uols!!! *nervous* Harus diberitahu, I intend to finish writing my papers before I go back, supaya boleh beranak dengan senang hati. Hopefully, niat ai suci murni ini akan termakbul.

7. Oh, skarang ni, ai tengah dalam percubaan memantapkan my methods chapter. Sebab apa? Sebab nak hantar untuk my qualititavemethods subject. Sambil menyelam minum air. Sesambil siapkan untuk assignment, ai nak guna gak utk thesis ai.ok tak?? Kalau ikut deadline yang diberi untuk diri sendiri, i must finish it by April 1st. Tapi harap2 boleh finish earlier, supaya can get a head start on my other assignments and study for the exam! *geek mode*

8. Kalau tiada aral melintang, I hope to be able to finish my theoretical framework chapter by may 1st, InsyaAllah. I can do this!!!!

nama baby

untuk uols yang dah ada anak, who was the one who gave your baby his/her name? adakah u ols sendiri, your spouse, your parents or your siblings or lelain?

For me, it has always always been Dr Sunshine. I only came up with Ahmad, and tu pon because Dr Sunshine nak nama anak-anak dia begin with A.

Nama Dani came about when we were lepaking on the bed, and were talking about our baby's name and he was looking at the baby book and came out with the name: Ahmad Dani. At first I was like, are you sure? Nanti dorang kata kita tiru nama that indonesian band punye lead singer plaks. Tapi Dr Sunshine kata, alaa...bukan kita tiru pon. Err..ok. Tapi masa tu, nama Dani tak ramai lagi guna, and a lot of people called my son Daniel or Danish, despite his name being spelt with onlt 4 letters! haih.

Andi pulak, came about when I wasn't even preggers. LOL. Tiba-tiba je, Dr Sunshine came back from work and said that if we were to have a boy, dia nak namakan Andi. OK. And, unlike popular belief, the name Andi did not come about by twisting the spelling and letters D A N I. aiyoo...berapa kali laaa nak kena bagitau orang, because i keep getting this: "nanti no 3 kalu girl boleh bagi nama dian or dina. kalau boy nak bagi apa?". Penat ok i nak explain kat orang!

No3. Well, nama no3 pon dah ada even before i was pregnant. LOL. And, i memang tak de chance langsung lah nak bagi nama ni. Kononnya, since I was previleged to be pregnant and have the baby with me at all times during my pregnancy, the husband should be given the honor to name the baby.

Honestly, I don't mind at all. Because, I absolutely love the names my Sunshine came up with. :)

Only 16weeks left uols!!!

I really wanna go home. InsyaAllah, in 10 weeks. Cannot wait to be with my boys.

p/s: i am so glad that Dr Sunshine adores his sons. Hari ni dia pergi kursus, dan nama-nama yang ditulis pada fail kursus itu adalah nama anak-anak dia. bagus...biar peserta kursus yg lain tahu dia dah berpunya..hehe. Ingatkan ai je doodle nama anak-anak kat buku. heheheh..

p.p/s: Andi was not in a good mood a few days back because rindu the papa. The papa didn't see them for 3days/2nights. On the second day, he was all moody and that night, he woke up at about 3am asking for Papa. haih...memang my boys manja dgn my husband. Tidur celah ketiak every night, so of course la rindu kan.

p.p.p/s: On Monday, Dr Sunshine went to pick the boys up from my moms. Tapi kebetulan ada roda2, one of their most favouritest tv show ever ever kan. Tapi Dr Sunshine was like: jom balik jom balik... Tahu tak apa Andi kata? Sabaaarr....sabar papa. wakakakakkaka....

afz suchtig

i was reading this and realised how i am also quite clingy. ok...maybe not clingy, tapi addicted. boleh?

you see, one would thought that it would be impossible to be clingy to a significant other when you live like thousands of miles away kan. tapi, i think i just happened to be one!

every day, i would come back cepat-cepat from uni, to make sure i'd be online so that i can talk to him. Nevermind the fact that kadang-kadang he has to suddenly work late, or keluar main snooker, or tetiba keluar minum dengan kawan and i suddenly just get an sms saying "sorry tak leh online hari ni becos..."

every night, i sleep really late, like at 1am (=8am mesia), so that i can text him good morning. every. single. freaking. day! i never fail to do that although i was thinking that i should stop, but it has become a habit.

i email or fbmsg or text him anything that comes to mind. biarpon satu ayat je. like when this one time i was watching a malay cerekarama or telemovie ke apetah, and the main character's name was Andi. terus i email hokeh sebab first time dengar orang guna nama Andi on tv.

i find that i always call him when he's on called, sebab tak leh nak skype kan. hihi.

i sanggup bangun tetengah pagi kalau dengar my phone beeps sebab ada incoming text cos i know it would be from him!

i think about him most of the time. *blush*

honestly, maybe its because i have always had a crush on him waayyyyyyyyyyyy before he probably even knew i existed. hehe. up to this day, there are still moments when i would feel like i couldn't believe i married him. betul.

lepastu, bila baca macam-macam on the net about failed marriages, death of spouse, terus ai emo. ok, maybe because i am pregnant la kan tapi, bila baca benda2 macam tu, terus everyday doa that i will be his only wife di dunia dan akhirat.

i think its amazing how we managed to pull it off despite being physically far from each other. throughout my 5 years of marriage, about 3 years are spent apart. in our 6 years or dating sebelum kawen, we spent 4 years a part. so, thats like 7 years of long distance relationship, and another year to go.

i tell you, i have been married to this man for 5 years. i have been in a relationship with him for almost 11 years. tapi, there is not one single time that i am bored with him. (ok. tipu. mungkin masa2 gaduh ada rasa annoyed la kan...hihi).

all of my heart, forever.

bila dah 2 orang anak

today, i got a very upsetting news from my sister regarding AD's habit which i really despise. The thing is, it was sort of 'encouraged' by my very own mother and what upsets me most is, she continues to encourage it depite knowing how much i dont like it. siap suruh my sister hush hush lagi. haih.

so, today, i finally had it. i text-ed my mom to stop doing whatever she is doing and called Dr Sunshine to tell him about this matter. So, masa online tadi, Dr Sunshine and I reprimanded AD for his behaviour. Actually, I just told him to be a good boy, and kalau nak jadi good boy kena behave. kalau behave to, maknanya cannot do some things. pastu, Dr Sunshine talked to him in a garang tone. and next thing u know, AD menangis. tapi tak de la menangis meraung tu..jenis. menangis senyap2 sebab sedih. i felt a bit guilty, but what to do.

lepastu, Dr Sunshine cakap, maybe AD upset sbb dia sorang je kena tegur, so we had to tegur AA as well. I tell you, AA's face was so funny. the papa had to held him up near the camera, and then i just told him to behave (pastu papa dia tambah kat belakang: jangan raba perut...tu kan habit dia..wkakakaka...tak salah pon raba pusat sendiri). pastu, si AA juga jadi upset. wakakakak...

so, Dr Sunshine's solution was, bagi susu and ask them to sleep. So, he made a bug fuss about nak buat susu, only to realize, masa dia masak air, dia lupa nak switch on the plug. wakakakaka....Akibatnya, AA menangis kesedihan sebab nak susu sangat sangat. i think he was sleepy. he cried the whole time sementara tunggu air masak. kesian anak mama. hehehe...