my me time

it is now my me time. AA dah tido. nowadays, bila AA tido, i take the opportunity to read the books i borrowed from the library. hmm..deadline yg konon2 dibuat oleh diri sendiri untuk menulis artikel dah kelaut pon u ols! tapi takpe. pelan2 kayuh kan? the thing is, i suddenly found a lot of materials with regards to the Malay, so tak kan la nak start tulis masa tgh kumpul2 bahan kan? *matila alasan!*

anyhoo, AA has started going to the daycare. He wailed like nobody's business when i left him at the daycare today (day3). According to the carer, he cried for about 45 minutes. pastu, die berenti nangis (tapi still duduk kat peha carer) and after a while went about his business.

Masa mula2 tinggalkan dia tu, i waited outside the door and could hear him crying and calling out for me. haih..sangat sedih. hampir2 nak masuk tapi tahan diri. after 25minit camtu, carer tu (yg sebenarnye suruh i keluar jalan, tapi i yg sibuk tunggu) keluar, saw me, and said maybe i should wait inside the elternzimmer instead. i pon akur, n masuk ke bilik ittew. tapi pc yg tinggal for me to use sangat amat lembab nak mampus. jadi sementara tunggu dia nak startup, i pegi WC, and dengan ajaibnya, dah tak dengar AA nangis!!! terus i pegi capai beg dalam zimmer tu, and then curi2 dengar lagi, n memang confirm senyap, terus i pon zassss ke kartner (sebab nak pi exchange baju).

tomorrow, i plan to go to the library to collect the books i requested, and after that, nak pi tukar the baju lagik..hihiih...aiseh, asyik ambik tapi tak check betul2. first, terambik size XL (ni sebab kes nak cepat cos AA tiba2 PU and bocor ok kat lantai hnm ittew..terus i capai je baju n bayar without realizing i took the wrong size!). ni, dah ambik the right size tapi bila balik baru notice kecacatan (ala..sebenarnye tak nampak sangat pon, tapi i gatal nak tukar sebab kat sini kan sukati nak tukar or mintak refund).

in an unrelated matter, i read suzy's fitness blog how drinking milk can help you loose weight. so now, i nak tanye pendapat u ols, agaknye if minum skinny premium hot chocolate, considered macam minum susu tak? sebab dorang mmg buat guna susu kan?

i have been walking from schotentoer to the daycare everyday so far, kecuali today sebab hujan lebat ya amatz. tu pon tetap gagahkan diri berjalan balik ke schotentoer from the daycare sebab that is the only way to jamin AA akan tido on the way back to my flat. so, mak redahlah hujan tu u ols berbekalkan payung yang izard tertinggal kat rumah mak *waves at Izard*.

Nak dijadikan cerita, kasut mak buat hal! benci. yelah..i have been wearing this shoes almost every day for about a year plus. matila orang kata tak ada fashion sense sebab semua pon nak pakai dengan kasut adidas ittew. tapi, apakan daya, bukan senang nak bawak groceries, sambil tolak stroller dan dukung budak u ols kalau pakai heels atau boots bagai. adidas ittew jugak yang sangat comfortable. anyway, my dear adidas is now kaput! dah masuk air *sedih*. ini menyebabkan kaki i basah lencun!!! rasa macam jalan dalam banjir je, padahal tak banjir pon. ni membuatkan rasa nak beli those rubber boots tu. mcm best je. pastu kiut2 gak design dia. hih hih. *alasan shopping lagi!*

on another note, dah buat appointment dengan SV for next monday. i hope everything goes well!! Nowadays, selalu berfikir and plan how to do my fieldwork sebelum tidur (before this dok sibuk berangan nak pinggan yg kat czech tu). haih...i am positive that i only want to concentrate on the Malays, in particular those who reside in the urban areas. tapi i havent decided which cities to go to. however, i recalled having read somewhere ada sorang researcher ni had this approach jugek tapi tulah..tak ingat kat mana yg dibacanya!!! geram ngan diri sendiri. haih...u know what this means? kena baca ALLLLLLL over again cari maklumat sebesar kuman ittew. haih!

ok..i should sleep. AA is an early riser. pastu we ols nak pi collect parcel kat post office besok. weee......

nite nite.

here's a picture of AA tgh syok makan ayam (okei..actually seronok picit2 and main2 dengan ayam tu. haih...)

beli jangan tak beli

haih....ter-beli lagi baju for the boys. Dr Sunshine, who just recieved the stuff i bought for my boys terkejut tgk banyak..hahahha...

ni, ada lagi sayang. *wink*.

i hope tak overweight la my luggage. tapi kan,err..bila nak balik ni? risau plak becos kp.t tak sure bleh sponsor ke idak my flight back. i hope they can!!! if not, terpaksa la korek tabung. *sedih*

si penipu

ingat tak i penah buat satu post pasal seorang blogger yg katanya hanya ada 100 hari lagi untuk hidup??

well, blogger tersebut adalah penipu besar. and his blog is now defunct. and thank god i stopped reading his blog after a while because it was a bit too poetic for me.

so apparently, he lied to his readers.

tapi kan, kalau fikir balik, maknanya he was a great writer la kan? to be able to make people believe what he wrote was true?? cume part dia mainkan hati dan perasaan orang tu yang sangat tak cool!

p/s: mak dah balik. tsk tsk

p.p/s: apt with sv on 21june. please hope everything fall through so that i can begin my fieldwork. insyaAllah.

gelagat anak saya

Usually, i tengok bebudak yg nak lull themselves to sleep suka

• hisap jari
• hisap pacifier
• korek hidung

tapi, AA pulak lain pesennya.

dia

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main dengan pusat!

mari masak roti john

hmm..baru je lepas bebel pasal gemuk, skrang post recipe pulak. saje je taktik. tak kan nak gemuk sorang2 kot??

Bahan
mince meat about 150g
1/2 labu bwg besar dicincang halus
1 sudu rempah kari(mix with water to form paste)
roti hot dog
telur 2 bijik

Cara-cara

1. tumis bawang until fragrant
2. masukkan mince meat
3. masukkan paste kari to the mince meat and kacau2 sampai rata. goreng sampai air kering.
4. pukul telur and masukkan mince meat goreng tadi to the telur and mix well
5. masukkan mixture tadi in a frying pan (i used the frying pan bekas goreng daging tadi), and bila nampak macam masak sikit, telangkupkan roti hot dog on the mixture.


6. bila agak-agak dah masak, angkat

nampak je tak cantik tapi sedap! lagipon ni yg last punye, bila dah abis buat baru ingat nak ambik gamba *matila alasan

7. garnish with tomato sauce and mayonis

mmm...sedapnye!*terpaksa angkat bakul sendiri

notakaki:mayonis juga menyebabkan sy gemuk! i MUST stop buying mayonis.

i feel FAT

benci tgk gambar sendiri sebab nampak gemuk. argghh..stressnya. dahla stress dgn sv. stress sebab gemuk pulak. haih. nilah dinamakan nasib badan. like literally nasib badan.

this is all because of the nasi i consume. and sebab bertambah rajin bertukang kat dapur. haih...hasilnye, asyik makan jer. ok..no more. this has got to stop. oh..n i think berenti BF juga ada kesannye.

harus bermotivasi untuk kurus sebelum balik KL. that means, i have got to force myself to go for morning walks EVERY freaking morning after mak dah balik nanti. and, stop eating junks. and maybe no rice? (okei, ni mungkin tak tercapai).

do you think that skinny caramel frap contributed to this? tapi skinny okeh ! (maaf, masih dalam denial)

*sedih*

motivation please

i think the stress from meeting my sv last monday is far from over. as a result, i havent been doing anything productive and, have been splurging instead. not good for my pocket.

so, dengan harapan untuk memotivasikan diri, i requested for 2 phd related books.
1. 'How to Get A PhD: A Handbook for Students and Their Supervisors', by Phillips & Pugh.
2. The unwritten rules of PhD research

hopefully i would be back to normal by next week. sebab apa tau?sebab paper on malay identity tu dah berhabuk agaknye! ish.dahla tu, teroverlap plak dah my deadlines. hmm..or maybe esok cari journals for my next topic? hmmm...i really must get back to work because next week mak dah nak balik and then i have to adjust to being a single mom all over again.

how ek to get my mojo balik?

p/s: planning a trip to dublin is surely more fun right now than picking my brains to write that 5K paper.
p.p/s: made delicious roti john haritu! i will never buy roti john from param or palam again!