so much like daddy

i am not sure if you ols tahu, but AD was delivered exactly 6 days before my Daddy passed away. During daddy's funeral, a lot of people said that Daddy pergi berganti.

Now that Dani is almost four, I can see how much like my daddy he is!! Kadang-kadang rasa amazed jugak. He has never met him...tapi my oh my, perangai tu lebih kurang aja.

like daddy, Dani
- LOVES olives
- mintak tolong orang to scratch his back when its itchy
- cek lampu dah bukak ke belum bila dah nak malam
- favours one kinda of food at one time. kalau time dia suka nasi goreng patayya tu, nasi goreng patayya je lah yang dia nak makan. i remembered daddy had a cheeseburger phase and that was all he wanted to eat for weeks!!! kitaorang yg dok beli pon dah nak muntah tgk cheeseburger!
- he loves to try new food
- wants things done his way
- insists that he is always right
- wants things done ASAP
- very loving
- indulges in silly games with me. with dani its the kissing machine. with Daddy its the tummy rub (we play this game till i am in the uni okeh!)
- watches news at night. only diff is my dad is a staunch rtm supporter and dani tgk buletin utama. tapi dani knows his PM, DPM, kes buang bayi and etc..hih hih
- mintak mak urut urut badan before tidor. sometime, dani requests for foot rubs too..but only from my mom...which is so very like my daddy!
- loves teh o
- ada je benda nak sembang. cas give reasons and justifies why he does things (usually this happens when mama is angry cos he did something naughty)
- loves his younger sibling.

its amazing really. my mak pon is always saying little little things that dani does which reminds her of daddy.

the fairy princess

you see, the fairy princess thought she lived in a fairy tale life. everyday, she tahnked god because she has met her prince charming. fairy princess has very low self esteem, so she thanked her lucky starts to be able to marry the handsome and gorgeous prince charming.

tapi...kadang-kadang, it can be quite dangerous when you marry someone who is gorgeous, handsome, charming and friendly. sometimes...just sometimes...they are just to nice too everybody.

one day, while cleaning their bedroom (oh yes..princesses must clean their own bedroom too!), the fairy princess found a stack of letters addressed to prince charming. letters which she wished she had never found. letters professing undying love, from the lady.

The lady, works with Prince Charming, handling their import and export business.

What should the Fairy Princess do? Confront prince charming...or keep mum?

hidup bermadu

who would have thought??? i am not even 30. sometimes i feel like blaming myself, yelah...a lot of people have warned me about this but the thought of him doing this to me never crossed my mind.



sedih.



dumbfounded.



keciwa.



one of the reason why i can hardly go online is because of the other person in Dr. Sunshine's life. Its really hard for me to come to terms with this, but i guess i have to.



The other day, Dr Sunshine introduced me to her...and told me of his intention.



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how would my kids take it?? how?????



sampai hati.



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he brought me to the mall and tunjuk bendalah ni...and decided to buy her.

now, tak dapat nak online because she is hooked on to the pc monitor...

dani pon susah dah nak tengok dvd dia..

and hubby spends a lot of time with her...

haih...dah nasib badan...

cobwebs

pooh pooh *pose pose tiup sarang labah labah*

its ben a while since i last blogged. i tell you, this only happens when i am with family. when i feel complete, i dont feel the need to be online, hence, the lack of updates bpth here and on fb! teruk kan??

neway...i feel complete!! its nice to have all my boys with me. *group hug*

been almost three weeks home but i have yet to get my respondents for focus groups *pengsan*

bought baju melayu for the boys! didnt mange to tempah any baju kurung for me so looks like i'll be recycling lah lgi baju baju ku!

am so proud of dani's progress in school. its amazing!! i hope he'll be in iqra' 2 by next week *matila mak yang over!!

i bought him books to colour and etc. and i found out that those connect the dots activities is a great way for kids to learn numbers. you should try it!

i still havent had the time to meet and lepak with my friends because my boss kecik (read: AD) only allows me to go out after he goes to school and i must be back before he comes back from school. tapi, i pon kasi chance lah cos he hasnt seen me for a long while kan so its only natural for him to feel that way. but dr Sunshine has started telling him that i start work next week. i need to go to the library you ols!!!! mak kena buat kerja niii....dok goyang kaki 3 minggu dah ni. *matikermak?

the starlrt sangat tak stroller friendly yer! geram sangat. tapi mak sangat takjub tengok depa dah connect the star and lrt punye station kat maskid jamek tu. dulu dulu mak ingat lagi kena cross jalan bagai..skang senang sajo u ols! (cuma naik turun tangga la..so tak convinient for OKUs and ppl with strollers)

i guess ppl here are still not used to seeing people pushing strollers on the streets and not on malls sajor! i dont own a quinny or a bugaboo or any of those high terrain with tayar kena pump kinda buggy tapi if you were to put a speedometer on my buggy, dia dah berjalan beribu km kot. sangat berjasa ok *hugs greenie the stroller*.anyway, i digress, i think ppl mcm heran kot ..speshly bawak sekali naik lrt bagai kan. and, dorang mcm takjub gak tengok mak bancuh susu dalam lrt yang bergerak ittew while standing up. ihiks.

i want to eat durian.

i want to lepak with gang projek.

i love being with my boys, have i told u that??

is it possible??

i feel melancholic tonight. tonight is the last night that Andi will accompany me in Vienna. He has been my constant companian. We have never been apart, me and him. Going back tomorrow, although with me, means that he will be saying goodbye to Vienna.

I am going to miss him. His sudden hugs. Smiles. The way he is excited when he sees a dog (and running towards it pulak tu..mama dia yang seriau) and birds. How he would hug me when he goes to sleep. Snuggle nuggle time. Reading time. His curiosity. Sibuk nak masak kat dapur. Tolong buat laundry. Berlari all over the house. Haih..the list is endless. He has been with me since he was born.

I am going to miss having you with me dear Andi. You don't even know how hard it is for me to make the decision for you to go home. I love you so much sayang. I promise i'll try to come back as often as I can.

Thank you for being a wonderful, fuss-free baby. I love you baby and I hope that you will never ever forget about your mama.

cannot wait

i cannot wait:

- to wake up next to my boys

- to go have breakfast with my boys

- to jalan-jalan with my boys

- to hug AD and Dr Sunshine kuat-kuat

- makan puas puas...

yeay.........counting the days babes. sementara tu, banyaknyeee benda nak settle...

delirious

weeeeeeeeeeeeee..............

I was so nervous when I stepped into my sv's room. yela...risau la if dia tak baca lagi whatever i handed up to him kan. baca ayat kursi tu all the way dari rumah ok sebab nervous punye pasal.

then, when i stepped into his room, dia tanya, what can i do for you. and i asked him if he has read what i gave him. and he konon2 macam dah baca. well, maybe he did la kot.(tapi mak a bit musykil if baca or not becos my file tu was as it is..but i guess he read the email i send him kot cos dia sibuk nak cari kat PC for the document) and he said i put effort in my work. terus kembang kuncup mak okei!!!

neway, he gave me some advice which I will incorporate in my research methodology. He asked me to mix the group so that I will get a better perspective.

so, kesimpulannya, he gave me the green light to proceed with my research. *woot woot*

so, Malaysia, here I come.

gang projek, jom pi makan makan next week!!!!