when push comes to shove

bagi yang membaca my previous post, sure tahu that i am supposed to have finished writing my theoretical framework chapter by now. Tetapi,adekah? Non ado!!!!! tsk. But I have made some progress in reading about modernity cuma blom habis2 baca lagi. Selagi tak habis baca how to write? how???

Lepas tu, ai gatal pi email one of my prof's assistant, tanya ada ke apa2 assignment since i missed the last few classes. Dia kata, kena tulis 15 page paper on our research project and include things that had been discussed in class. Coincidentally, one of the things discussed in class about my research was to include the theory on modernity in my thesis. So folks, looks like I really have to work my butt off to siapkan pasal modernity thingy ni. In a way, its a blessing in disguise, no? Sebab bila dah memang kena hantar untuk dapat grade, sure automatically akan try produce the best, kan?

So, today, my aim is to finish reading at least 2 more chapters, then I have one more to go. Malam ni ingat nak search for articles yang ada sentuh pasal modernity ni. Tapi kan, modernity ni macam related sangat-sangat to globalisation so i might just have a hint of globlalisation in my thesis nanti.

Apa pon, data analysis tak tulis lagi. *mati!!!!* But, I have written to seperate papers on the datas I collected of which one tu I dah present kat conference. Cuma, the paper tu tak guna all my datas. So, I am not that worried la, because I sort of have an idea of how to actually write it.

Ni ha...theoretical framework tak siap-siap lagi apa kes????

Please Allah, gibe me ideas on things to write, let Aaron cooperate and senang tidur (dia tak mo tido skarang!!! tsk tsk) and give me strength to get through all this.

Ok...nak kena try tidorkan budak kecik, pastu mandi and start reading.

kabinet dapur

Dr Sunshine kata, hal-hal berkaitan kabinet dapur adalah within my jurisdiction. Tapi, mak kan konsep surrendered wife gittew. So bila nak buat keputusan tu, tetaplah depends on suami. Cuma ai akan bagitahu siap2 apa yang berkenan di hati.

So anyway, semalam, we went to Puchong (again!). Tahu tak, kat sana banyak gila kedai berkaitan barang-barang rumah ni!!! We went to this row of shop lots (bagi sesiapa yang tahu Puchong, its the shop lots dekat dgn Pelita). At that area itself, ada 4 kedai company yang buat kitchen cabinet and ada 2 kedai jual2 appliances (and sesiapa nak beli barang baby, fabulous mom is there as well!!)

setelah tengok2 kitchen sink, kami berkenan dengan sink ni. Its currently on sale but we decided to check out other places as well. Yang penting,we ols nak sink yang depth dia at least 9 inch.

lepas tu, we went to kedai kitchen cabinet. The price they quote for solid counter top adalah agak mahal kot (cos i think i have seen iklan yang menawarkan harga yang lebih kompetitif) but at least bila dah pergi kedai tu, dapat la ai imagine cemana rupa acrylic, melamine and etc. And dapat juga la sort of idea how we are going to do our wet kitchen. FYI, i plan to have a small kitchen saje sebab i know tahap 'kerajinan' i nak mop and sental kitchen. hihi. But, we decided to jadikan the maid's room our pantry simpan makanan kering and even put our fridge there.

And, we decided to get a freestanding stove/oven instead of a built in punye. Tapi selitkan in between kitchen cabinet tu, to get a built in look. Stove idaman:

I am thinking of painting the walls in the kitchen as well...something bright tapi tak bincang lagi dgn boss.

Anyway, cannot wait to survey2 lagi hal2 kitchen ni. Its so exciting even to google pasal kitchen sampai tergendala kerja2 baca artikel ni!!!

pintu pertahanan

Last Saturday, the boys and I pergi ke puching dengan nawaitu nak beli stroller Aaron. Lepas tu, Dr Sunshine ajak pi Kelang untuk purchase security door.

You see, Dr Sunshine and I dah lama dah cari security door ni (actually Dr Sunshine yang beria, i just ikut ajo). Dari home fair apetah kat midvall, sampai lah ke klang and ampang we ols merantau cari pintu ni. Tapi masa tengah cari ni, punyelah payah nak jumpa kedai jual security door!! (bila dah bayar booking fee, tetiba menjelma pulak kedai2 pintu ni! *geram*)

Anyhoo, masa pi Puchong tu, tiba-tiba my eyes saw kedai pintu masa tengah buat u-turn at some godforsaken place. Terus bgtahu Dr Sunshine and zass ke sana. Unfortunately, pilihan pintu macam non-ado so Dr Sunshine kata, kita pi Kelang kat kedai haritu je lah. Honestly, ai tak berapa berkenan dengan pintu yg dijual di Kelang itu. Its a steel door, powder coated, and 2 layers with secured hinges and also multiple locks (tepi, atas, and bawah). Tapi entah mengapa, hatiku kureng berkenan. Cuma pilihan pintu ittew memenuhi budget kami yang tak seberapa, thats why la nak pi sana gak kan.

Namun demikian, masa dah park kat kedai jual stroller tu, mataku ternampak kedai pintu, right next to the kedai stroller. Oh...adakah ini meant to be? So, kami masuk kedai pintu tu, and memang banyak giller choices dia (compared to kedai in Kelang) and most importantly, pintu yang i berkenan (which i saw first at the fair in midval) was there at a MUCH CHEAPER price!!!!!! Tapi, lepas dah tengok-tengok and berkenan kat satu pintu idaman tu, kami buat jual2 mahal and pi dulu kedai stroller, beli stroller. Pastu, lepas dah beli stroller, Dr Sunshine kata, ingat nak bayar booking fee terus la for the door. And i pon cakap, ok je. Because price wise memang sangat-sangat within our meagre budget and i like the door!!

The door we chose adalah seperti design di atas. It looks macam made of wood but is actually made of steel. Its got secured and hidden hinges, multiple locks, susah nak pry, fire proof and other security features which I cannot remember. So we paid the deposit and they will order the door. It will take about two weeks for them to install the door. Tapi kan, tapi my contractor tak mula pon lagi kerja. Dahla nak bulan puasa. Mak stress okeh!!! Whatever it is, I hope they will start work soon and finish before i balik. They better, ok!!!

If uols berminat, kedai yang we went to is:

Morris Decor,

12a, Jalan Bandar 20, Pusat Bandar Puchong.

They will also be at the home deco fair which is happening now in pwtc and some other home fair in midval in the near future. Mak rasa bertuah sebab dapat harga fair ini uols. If not, the door would cost me about rm600 more. Alhamdullillah.

Lepas ni, projek lampu and kipas pulak. Cannot wait!!!

pengeluaran wang kwsp untuk membayar baki pinjaman rumah

today is day 26 post op and since Dr Sunshine cuti, we decided to pergi kwsp to uruskan pasal pengeluaran duit untuk bayar pinjaman rumah.

word of advice, the first thing u should buat is, make sure u pergi ke bank yang u buat pinjaman tu, and request for a statement of berapa baki pinjaman. make sure u mention u minta tu because nak kluarkan duit kwsp because there is a certain format for the document, which the bank has to follow. The reason i suruh pi bank dulu because it can take between 2 weeks and 1 month for them to prepare the document. sangat menguji kesabaran!!! Oh, the bank will charge you for the documents. Mine (Affin) charged me rm20 for a copy. Just request for a copy because should u and your spouse need to make the withdrawal kat KWSP (and because each person has to sumbit their own set), just fotostat aje document tu, kwsp terima ajer!

Lepas tu, you can start isi borang ( with black pen sahaja) which i think can be downloaded from kwsp punye website (if u know ur pin number). Its borang 9c (AHL) (8d).Tapi ai old skool padahal sebab tak tahu pin number and pergi sendiri ke pejabat kwsp to take the borang and also to check how much is my baki.

Lepas dah dapat bank statement ittew, bolehlah bersama2 suami (if u bought the hse togede-gede and nk kurangkan baki togede gede) ke kwsp untuk mensubmit borang. Stuff u need:

a. ur form

b. a copy of your ic (fotostat depan belakang on the same page)

c.the bank statement thingy

Senang kan? So, inshaAllah, begining next month the money we allocate each month for our house installment can be channeled to our reno plans. Tak banyak sangat pon, but at least adalah something.

Tak sabar tunggu projek next month. Kitchen sink, lampu dan kipas. :)

oh..duit yg kita mohom keluarkan tu will be credited terus ke bank in 2 weeks.Nanti uols akan dapat surat penyata ittew.

And, you are allowed to make the pengeluaran every year. We ols ingat nak keluarkan every three years, just to kurangkan debts cepat2. ihiks. Yela noks. Pinjam sikit. Tapi nak bayar balik, bila dah kena interest tu, mak aii....berpinau jap tengok baki. uhuk.

penat

tadi mengantuk baca article maka decided to sapu rumah. wah...amazing how much one can berpeluh just sapu satu rumah. nasib baik Aaron bekerjasama dan tidur sahaja.

Beginikah perasaan SAHM? Pagi-pagi kejut suami, sediakan breakfast, bukak gate, wave goodbye, buat laundry and tidur balik sementara laundry selesai. Bangun, mandikan anak, mandi, sidai kain, breakfast, check email. Baca article, blog hop, lunch. baca artikel, kemas rumah, angkat kain, lipat kain,tunggu suami dan anak2 balik, bukak gate. mandikan anak-anak, prepare dinner,makan dinner, basuh pinggan, buat coffee for husband, tidur.

inilah routine saya hari-hari. tapi kan. tapi kan. i rasa macam best lah. I especially suka masa hantar suami di muka pintu dan salam-salam, kiss kiss. haih. syurga dunia.

i also like the fact that most of the time, the husband would call me to ask me how i am doing.

i like it when the husband kisses me on the forehead everytime we bid goodbye.

i miss my andi and dani when they are not around (i send them to my moms cos i need to get work done) but when they are around, they can drive me crazy. ihiks.

orang cakap ada boys letih. and now i understand what they mean. when it was just one boy, it was easy to handle. when it was two boys, and the younger one is still a baby, masih easy to handle. tapi bila dua2 dah besar dan boleh bercakap, be ready for their constant bickering and berebut toys and wrestlilng matches which could end up with one of them crying.

my no 1, manja, helpful in school tapi if at home liat sangat when i nak minta tlg. my no 2, is chatterbox and the only time dia senyap is when he's asleep. he gives running commentary to everything. hehe...and, he helps me with everything, even put out my sandals when i was preggers and siap carikan the linolin cream when i complained that sakit breastfeeding aaron. no 3? i am still his milk machine. only cries when hungry, has gas or needs his diaper changed.

ok..tu je. should really finish reading chapter 4. am so SLOW!!!

tak sia-sia

fuh...tak sia-sia kejar lecturer tanya grade sebab saya dapat grade yang amat memuaskan hati!!! hihi. So, nanti bila ada masa, nak godek2 sikit paper and try hantar ke journal plak. hihi.

anyway, hari ni rasa happy, dan rasa mcm on track.Sebab apa? U see, my sv kan bukan jenis yang baca my writings so what i usually do is to submit it as one assignment to one of my courses. So, bila dapat grade yang memuaskan hati, ai feel like i am right on track. :)

hari ni, kena semangat kental baca pasal modernity. tolonglah rajin sikit wahai diri ini. Aaron tengah tidur, awak pergi blog buat apa? Sila baca buku.

Sekian.

p.s: Alhamdullillah, my application for extension has been approved. Alhamdullilah. Syukur sangat-sangat. Ok...now must work my butt off!!!! (tapi tetapla kan browser ni dok bukak blog orang. tsk.)

chasing the grade

its been 21 days post op. time flies!!!! Aaron has grown chubby. Bak kata orang kelate, ttubuh.

anyhow, in the midst of all this, i finally managed to submit my assignment, albeit 4 days too late. But I did inform the prof and he said its ok. I hope I would not be penalised, insyaAllah.

I have been thinking a lot, lately. Especially time-time nak tidur or times that I should take the opportunity to tidur (esp. when Aaron is napping). Nak tahu fikir pasal apa? Pasal my thesis. Omaigawd. Am so super risau ok!!! I have been slacking so much. The deadlines that I set for myself dah lari ke laut. I am so super worried!!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah, please give me the ideas to write so that I can write and habis by at least my first draft by october.

Yes, that is what I actually aim for. To finish writing my first draft by October. Tapi at the rate that I am going now....tsk tsk. I just went through the articles and books I brought back, and I realised I have read a lot. Tapi tulisnya tidak la pulak kan. Haiyaaa.....*kicks self!*

I guess I should take it one day at a time, huh? Ok ke if gunakan alasan yang I baru je beranak? err.....

Anyway, sionce my theoretical framework punye chapter tak siap2 lagi, sebab ai tak baca2 lagi pasal modernity, i guess I would work on that first. I am giving myself a week to write on modernity and cultural identity. I hope I can meet that deadline.

Once that is done, I nak kemaskini my theoretical framework punye chapter, maybe i'll give myself 3 days.

Pastu, I should work on my data analysis. Tak tahulaa kenapa lembab sangat nak tulis data analisis ni! Ok, thats it. I must start working already. No more miss alasan. Hmm..I wonder if the husband would allow me to lepak at stabux giant with aaron siang2 so that I can concentrate baca my articles. (macamla kat rumah tak leh baca kan?)

I really must stick to this la. Dah July dah ni. Pasni, August dah bulan posa. Then raya. Then tetiba dah balik Wien. I must finish writing before balik Wien. I must.

ok. enough ranting. I might as well read the article sementara everyone is asleep and tunggu laundry siap.

p/s: penat jadi sahm ni. buat housework, jaga anak, nak buat thesis lagi.

p.ps: went to ambik dani's report card today. Apparently my son is so helpful in class, bubbly, banyak bercerita, bff dgn uncle nizam, quite advanced for his age. And, my mak yang risau tulisan cucu dia tak cantik should see his handwriting kat skolah. I think kat rumah dia main2 because dah bosan kot. ihiks. and, the teacher cakap dia competent in all the hafazans. Alhamdulillah.

p/p/ps: cannot believe i have to chase 2 of my lecturers for my grades. rupa-rupanya, dia tak mark pon lagi my paper, and tak bawak balik pon a copy of that paper. Nasib baik i email dia!!!!