afz suchtig

i was reading this and realised how i am also quite clingy. ok...maybe not clingy, tapi addicted. boleh?

you see, one would thought that it would be impossible to be clingy to a significant other when you live like thousands of miles away kan. tapi, i think i just happened to be one!

every day, i would come back cepat-cepat from uni, to make sure i'd be online so that i can talk to him. Nevermind the fact that kadang-kadang he has to suddenly work late, or keluar main snooker, or tetiba keluar minum dengan kawan and i suddenly just get an sms saying "sorry tak leh online hari ni becos..."

every night, i sleep really late, like at 1am (=8am mesia), so that i can text him good morning. every. single. freaking. day! i never fail to do that although i was thinking that i should stop, but it has become a habit.

i email or fbmsg or text him anything that comes to mind. biarpon satu ayat je. like when this one time i was watching a malay cerekarama or telemovie ke apetah, and the main character's name was Andi. terus i email hokeh sebab first time dengar orang guna nama Andi on tv.

i find that i always call him when he's on called, sebab tak leh nak skype kan. hihi.

i sanggup bangun tetengah pagi kalau dengar my phone beeps sebab ada incoming text cos i know it would be from him!

i think about him most of the time. *blush*

honestly, maybe its because i have always had a crush on him waayyyyyyyyyyyy before he probably even knew i existed. hehe. up to this day, there are still moments when i would feel like i couldn't believe i married him. betul.

lepastu, bila baca macam-macam on the net about failed marriages, death of spouse, terus ai emo. ok, maybe because i am pregnant la kan tapi, bila baca benda2 macam tu, terus everyday doa that i will be his only wife di dunia dan akhirat.

i think its amazing how we managed to pull it off despite being physically far from each other. throughout my 5 years of marriage, about 3 years are spent apart. in our 6 years or dating sebelum kawen, we spent 4 years a part. so, thats like 7 years of long distance relationship, and another year to go.

i tell you, i have been married to this man for 5 years. i have been in a relationship with him for almost 11 years. tapi, there is not one single time that i am bored with him. (ok. tipu. mungkin masa2 gaduh ada rasa annoyed la kan...hihi).

all of my heart, forever.