oh em gee *pekup mulut*

i have started packing my stuff!

OMG. Banyaknya barang nak pack. Can I just pengsan now??? Pack tu satu hal. Nak menghangkut it all the way to my friends house (with anakanda in tow) satu cerita plak. *pengsan lagi sekali*

I only have a week to do this!!!! Maknanya, lagi seminggu, rumah ai bakal jadi 3/4 kosong!!!

Esok, inshaAllah, I will be sending off 3 bags of clothes (in 2 trips). If sempat, I might also pergi kedai villeroy utk beli 2 serving plates to mix and match kan dengan the 2 serving plates I already bought dekat czech tu.

Some other things which I still need to get adalah
1. botol susu
2. scan pan kinves
3. pie maker
4. ice cream maker
5. coffee capsules
6. coffee cups/ tall glasses(tho this one kalau ada ok..if tak de tak apa)
7. bodum tea maker thingy
8. cake/dessert transporter
9. the coffee press coffee maker thingy

esok, i nak pi drop of 2 bags, leave aaron, and head to saturn to check out ada pie maker or ice cream maker. if ada, beli, and drop it off. then balik rumah to get one more bag. drop that off. then balik and maybe head to lutz to get that tea maker thingy and the dessert transporter thingy.

yes. i is very the gigih. haruslaa...

pastu nak kena pack pulaaakkk!!!!!!!!!! and next day kena transport benda2 lagi.

Sampailah semuanya selesai.

thinking about it makes me TIRED. But what to do. Dah nak tumpang orang kan. Kena la buat, by hook or by crook. Dah la my auntie out of town. If ada, can la minta tolong bawak barang2 naik keta. Dah tak ada, makannay, I have to lug the heavy stuff naik turun tram. Well, have to lah kan.

Still loads of things to pack!!!!!!

*pengsan*

sometimes I wonder, how the hell did I manage to accumulate so much stuff and stash it in my closets??

it only takes one stupid bitch to ruin a beautiful relationship.

i can forgive.

but, i never forget.

tolong. tolong.

today has been a very super duper trying day!!

nak jugak bagitahu, it is not easy to be a single mom with a baby while doing phd.

baby that is in his seperation anxiety phase. if tidur nak cuddle manjang.

how la am i suppposed to do my work? how? how?

lagi lagi sekarang ni saat genting

i really need to finish this. tinggal sikit je lagi tapi my son is not cooperating! i know he is just a baby. but he doest not want to sleep. does not want to play sorang. why god? why minggu ni dia macam ni???

dah la tu. macam2 nak jadi. air milo tumpah dekat my external!!! nasib external ok.

apa pon. i am so bloody stressed. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need some time to think. alone!

i need peace and quite.

i may sound selfish now. tapi i tell you. siapa yang tak melalui apa yang i rasa, you wont know how i feel.

so, siapa yang ada suami/mak or whoever di sisi masa buat phd, silalah bersyukur banyak-banyak.

i am trying my hardest to finish up my citation thingy. but, as much as i love to say its much easier with google books, i still need to read the chapters/book to jumpa bebetul the page number. so no. its NOT EASY.

sempat ke tak ni habis by jumaat?

i have already sub kan kerja check my reference to orang lain.

i just need to complete my citations thingy AND edit and reedit again.

on top of that, i have a paper due on feb 15th. and paper tu, i tak buat apa langsung lagi!!

help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!