what would you do?

Summer holidays are coming!

And, saya perlukan pendapat anda semua.

Remember the exam I took? well, i didnt pass the exam. tsk. *sedih*

so now, i have 2 options. stay in wien and enroll in the summer course (13/7 - sept19 kot) or balik kl and hire a private tutor to tutor me for the exam.

if i stay, it would be good cos i'd be learning from someone whose 1st language is deutch. and, dia mmg tahu selok belok exam ittew. BUT, the only thing is, i would be missing the 1st 2 weeks of class because tak de sapa nak jaga Andi. and, even when i do go, id be missing the first hour of the class cos of the daycare schedule. classes are everyday, btw.

if i balik KL, i can engage a private tutor to work on my weakness (which i know cos i looked thru my exam paper). tapi, there's no guarantee that i hv class every single day...but ifada..class will be one on one which means more attention to ME. tapi, class will be taught by someone whose first language is Malay.

if you were me, what would you do?

i MUST pass the exam.

was soll ich machen?

our last morning together

andi is asleep. what shall i do now?





normally, i would be busy cooking lunch for dani and mak...tapi dorang tak de. and i seriously dont have the appetite to eat. i ate roti tadi..tu pon because i was thinking of andi..since he gets all his nutrition from me kan?





sigh. i dont feel like being in this house. everywhere i turn, it reminds me of dani.





that spoon near the chair pon reminds me of him...pretending to cook for me, how he pretend my laptop is the bankomat....dia duduk atas kerusi and pretended that it was a car, terbalikkan laundy basket and pretended that it was a motorbike, how he'd run and greet me at the door when i come back from class, how we would then watch buletin utama sama2, followed by a series and cooking show. how he'd minum susu ounce atas mama..and berebut to have mama dgn andi. oh...he also terbalikkan stool and pretends to vacuum.; when my vacuum rosak,and i had to sweep,he too, pretended to sweep.





and buat construction.and teman buang sampah. pi beli ice cream at the nearby shop. main fren. buat rumah. his handphone. his camera. his tickets. his wallet. haiwan teladan, chef jo. chef firdaus. chef zam. ain. matahari. tekan2 laptop.





i miss dani. i hope i will never forget all the little things he said that made me happy.





i love you dani. be a good boy ok.

and the day has come

Dani left with mak n along. i am now typing while putting andi to sleep.

i hate goodbyes. i hate not knowing when i'll see dani next.

i miss him tremendously. i have yet to kemas all his toys...n my stuffs yg dijadikan toys. i dont feel like putting it away. no...not yet.

he didnt cry cos he was kind of excited nak naik aeroplane. he asked:

apesal mama tak ikut sekali?
mama takde tiket sayang.
tu...semalam dani ada bagi mama tiket. dalam jeans tu.
tiket tu tak boleh guna.nak naik aeroplane guna tiket lain.
ok. nanti dani datang lagi ye mama.

mama...kenapa mama kena pergi kerja?
mama nak cari duit
takpela...dani bagi mama duit ni....tak payah pegi keje ok?

i miss you hugeroonimooni.

only a few days left

my dani will be going back in 6 days. i dread for the day to come. my house will be so empty. i will no longer have a little person to gaduh with. tapi, bak kata eus...jgn sedih sekarang. enjoy dulu. when the time comes, baru la rasa2 sedih.

so, i did the first part of my exam yesterday. i hope i pass. i need to pass in order to be elegible for the next part of the exam..the oral and listening test. tolongla pass....saya rindu key ell okei.

and today saw me and my sis and mak and kids pi shopping beli non stick pan. hihi..of all the things kan?and also toilet seat for dani. and cherries.and strawberries.

esok nak bawak depa pi flea market. saturday nak pi outlets. sunday, tak sure nak buat apa..maybe pi minum and lepak2 kat stephensplatz. monday...last minit shopping. tuesday, tak tau nak buat apa and wednesday...i'd be sending them off. tsk.

oh..tuesday nak pi amik result. harap2 pass.

okeilaa....everybody is asleep. i want to surf the net kejap.

p/s: i miss Dr Sunshine. It has been 3 days since i last talked to him.
p.p/s: Andi now wighs 6.18kg. and he finally rolled over today! pastu dia penat sangat sampai knock out...its hard work okei nak roll over tueh...sian anak saya.

Ich habe Angst

Meine Prufung ist nachste Woche!! *pengsan*

I have been doing some exercises but those exercises tak de jawapan. Oleh itu, saya telah mengemail cikgu tuition German saya semasa di KL dan minta bantuan (berbayar ok) to check my answers. He said ok. So, tonight, I hope to bersengkang mata and email him those stuffs. Its umformungen, by the way.

Then, saya mesti lebih gigih belajar. Ya Allah, permudahkanlaaaaa urusanku ini.

on another note, less than two weeks left with my Dani. sedihnye when i think of it. but then, it only made me want to study harder cos i keep on thinking if i pass, i can be in KL 2 weeks after Dani balik.

And, saya telah nekad, if I pass, I'm going to buat somekind of doa selamat and makan-makan thingy di rumah mak saya. Antara menu yang saya dah fikirkan adalah satay!!! *salivates*

Jadi kawan-kawan, kalau ada masa, tolonglah doakan untuk saya. Mana tahu, boleh makan satay free kat rumah Mak saya!!!

p/s: Along arriving in two days!!!!

bila exam dah dekat

hari ini, lift rosak. jadi, nak tak nak, saya terpaksa menapak naik ke tingkat 4. kalau naik sorang tak ape. ini sambil mendukung Dani. hmm..tak pasal-pasal dah ter-work out pulak. bagus jugak kan?

anyways, tinggal 11 hari lagi nak exam. adakah saya dah prepared??errr....

esok nak pergi ke kedai buku, nak cari kamus deutsch-deutsch yang teramat bagus sekali (tu dia..sampai 2 superlatives saya guna) kerana kamus tersebut boleh dibawa masuk dewan periksa. saua juga berhajat nak beli sebarang buku latihan yang relevan.

lepas itu, nak pergi ke kedai yg boleh print dengan murah, kerana saya ada jumpa beberapa latihan di internet.

i really really hope i can pass the exam.

on another note, i have booked Andi's slot at the Krippe. And, just now, I got a reply from an email i wrote eons ago to an islamic child care centre i found on the net. and, yg bestnyer,apparently they do offer childcare for babies. Alhamdullillah. cuma fees jer yg tak pasti lg. but, thats always a good second option! Alhamdullillah.

Esok, i also need to beli vacuum cleaner weil mein vacum kaputt ist! dan juga ada angan2 nak pi toys r us, to buy that rocking thingy yg ada mobile gantung2 for Andi.

ok....sekian laporan dari saya.

tolong doakan saya berjaya!

bila suami sendiri fail how-well-do-you-know-me quiz

ya. Dr Sunshine fail kuiz tersebut yang sengaja saya buat di FB. dan yg paling menjelikkan, boleh tak dia jawab soalan how did i meet afz dengan salah? boleh tak?? so kelakar okei Dr Sunshine ittew.

neway, andi turns 3 months today. cepat kan?

so, i went to his peads today, and he is now, 5.95kg. panjangnyer adalah 59cm. he also got jabbed. sian dia..nangisss....selepas diberi susu, terus knock out. tertidur dan membolehkan mamanyer buat groceries. :)

ok...layter. saya kena masak dinner.