it only takes one stupid bitch to ruin a beautiful relationship.

i can forgive.

but, i never forget.

belum sampai waktu

hello all.

looks like i won't be submitting my thesis this week after all.

i am almost done with the citation thingy. tinggal a few je yang i cannot find the article in my hard drive. and uni library punya website tengah baiki so i cannot access online journals from home. so esok, i plan to go to uni to settlekan the citation thingy, pi pinjam 1 buku to cari citation and lepak kat this coffee shop i have been wanting to go to and edit my thesis.

what is left to do?

1. edit thesis
2. get my abstract translated to deutsch
3. format my thesis
4. last editing before i submit.

who knew, all this nitty gritty stuff actually takes time!! it doesnt help that Aaron is being extra clingy. :( it is almost done. i am almost there.

tapi honestly, i am still waiting for some feedback from my friend. I minta tolong dia to go through my thesis and give some comments. i hope that i would have time to work on her comments ittew. i really nak hantar my thesis. tapi at the back of my head, i fikir i should hantar a SUPERBLY written thesis. sebab kat sini, tak ada dah correction bagai. apa yang you hantar, itulah ur work. tak de konsep correction lepas viva and etc. so i might as well submit something good, kan?

tapi i feel the need to submit cepat because i really hope that i sempat viva before i leave for good.

anyway, i have decided to work on my thesis till friday.

weekend ni, i will have to start working on my paper which i need to submit on feb 15th.


p.s: i think andi misses me la. he has been asking me every day, bila nak datang. tsk. only a few more weeks sayang.

tolong. tolong.

today has been a very super duper trying day!!

nak jugak bagitahu, it is not easy to be a single mom with a baby while doing phd.

baby that is in his seperation anxiety phase. if tidur nak cuddle manjang.

how la am i suppposed to do my work? how? how?

lagi lagi sekarang ni saat genting

i really need to finish this. tinggal sikit je lagi tapi my son is not cooperating! i know he is just a baby. but he doest not want to sleep. does not want to play sorang. why god? why minggu ni dia macam ni???

dah la tu. macam2 nak jadi. air milo tumpah dekat my external!!! nasib external ok.

apa pon. i am so bloody stressed. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need some time to think. alone!

i need peace and quite.

i may sound selfish now. tapi i tell you. siapa yang tak melalui apa yang i rasa, you wont know how i feel.

so, siapa yang ada suami/mak or whoever di sisi masa buat phd, silalah bersyukur banyak-banyak.

i am trying my hardest to finish up my citation thingy. but, as much as i love to say its much easier with google books, i still need to read the chapters/book to jumpa bebetul the page number. so no. its NOT EASY.

sempat ke tak ni habis by jumaat?

i have already sub kan kerja check my reference to orang lain.

i just need to complete my citations thingy AND edit and reedit again.

on top of that, i have a paper due on feb 15th. and paper tu, i tak buat apa langsung lagi!!

help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sedih

sebab apa sedih? sebab iols kengkonon fenfeeling nak suprisekan husband dengan mulberry wallet yang dibeli di Paris (sebab vienna tak de mulberry store uols!). mak rasa dah cantik dah.

tapi.

suami tak berapa suka sebab tak muat duit malaysia. if nak muatkan, kena lipat2 duit. yela..masa beli tu, iols test dengan duit euro ajer. :(

maka, terasa sedikit sedih disitu sebab dia tak suka.

if only dia tahu how jauh i had to walk to find the mulberry store kat rue honorore ittew!!! penat ok. hmm...takpela, pengorbanan.

pastu, i beli juga polo shirt lacoste for him, long sleeve. satu tu belang-belang. satu tu plain colour but it has a pocket kat depan tu. adeke dia kata yg plain colour tu reminded him of his pbsm shirt masa zaman sekolah menengah? apakah motif meng-comparekan shirt lacoste dengan t-shirt pbsm sekolah?

maka, iols adalah upset harini. tapi iols bebuat tak upset la bila dia ala-ala komplen pasal my gifts. :(

logik kan i upset? kan?

p.s: i emailed mulberry to ask if i can exchange the wallet to something else in the KL store. if not, maybe can post it back or something. alang-alang exchange, baik mak beli alexa atau poly push lock sebijik. *oopsss*

p.ps: iols tak sempat update pasal paris trip sebab amat busy nak ngabiskan thesis nieh!! but lets just say, i bought a few bags. hih hih.

to do

1. citations for chapter 6 (tgh nak buat) and 1
2. check list of references (hopefully can sub kan benda ni to someone)
3. print out chapters and abstract
4. edit chapters and also abstract
5. write acknowledgement
6. print everything
7. edit everything, again.
8. print
9. upload on the system
10. bind and SUBMIT!

plan to habiskan no 1 by esok.
no 3 and 4 to be done tomorrow
5,6,7 by wednesday
8,9 and 10, by friday, inshaAllah

ps: assignment bila nak buat?? uwaaaa....*gabra*

i wonder...

is it wrong if a girl tak suka if the husband socialises with his girl colleagues/staffs after office hours?

diskriminasi di ikea smaland

today, dr Sunshine took my boys to ikea. He wanted to pergi survey barang-barang. Sesambil tu, boleh bagi the boys run around and play in the Smaland kan.

Neways, few weeks back, Andi was not allowed to play inside because katanya tak cukup tinggi.

This time around, Dr Sunshine tried his luck, again.

Kali ni, there was this mom of three girls yang q depan dr Sunshine. The girls tu, sorang, bigger than Andi. lagi dua were obviously smaller in size and were not even potty trained!! (ada rules yang kalau nak letak anak kat situ, dah kena potty trained). So, the orang jaga entrance smaland to obviously kenal the mom and three kids from the way she greeted them by name and chit chat lama like oohh...dah lama tak nampak! how are you girls and etc. Needless to say, they got in easily.

Pastu, tiba giliran andi and dani. Dia tanya Dr SUnshine, dah ukur ke height Andi kat the chart to see if he is allowed in. Dr Sunshine kali ni jawab: Well, he is certainly taller than your Fatima and Zahra (Dr Sunshine heard the names..hehe). Pastu, the girl tersenyap. And pandang belakang kat the girls and looked at andi, obviously to compare their height. Finally, dia bg la si andi masuk.

Nasib baik.

apa pon, mmg byk songeh ok! kalau dapat tukang jaga yang mengada,kesian andi.