tak sia-sia

fuh...tak sia-sia kejar lecturer tanya grade sebab saya dapat grade yang amat memuaskan hati!!! hihi. So, nanti bila ada masa, nak godek2 sikit paper and try hantar ke journal plak. hihi.

anyway, hari ni rasa happy, dan rasa mcm on track.Sebab apa? U see, my sv kan bukan jenis yang baca my writings so what i usually do is to submit it as one assignment to one of my courses. So, bila dapat grade yang memuaskan hati, ai feel like i am right on track. :)

hari ni, kena semangat kental baca pasal modernity. tolonglah rajin sikit wahai diri ini. Aaron tengah tidur, awak pergi blog buat apa? Sila baca buku.

Sekian.

p.s: Alhamdullillah, my application for extension has been approved. Alhamdullilah. Syukur sangat-sangat. Ok...now must work my butt off!!!! (tapi tetapla kan browser ni dok bukak blog orang. tsk.)

chasing the grade

its been 21 days post op. time flies!!!! Aaron has grown chubby. Bak kata orang kelate, ttubuh.

anyhow, in the midst of all this, i finally managed to submit my assignment, albeit 4 days too late. But I did inform the prof and he said its ok. I hope I would not be penalised, insyaAllah.

I have been thinking a lot, lately. Especially time-time nak tidur or times that I should take the opportunity to tidur (esp. when Aaron is napping). Nak tahu fikir pasal apa? Pasal my thesis. Omaigawd. Am so super risau ok!!! I have been slacking so much. The deadlines that I set for myself dah lari ke laut. I am so super worried!!!!!!!!!! Ya Allah, please give me the ideas to write so that I can write and habis by at least my first draft by october.

Yes, that is what I actually aim for. To finish writing my first draft by October. Tapi at the rate that I am going now....tsk tsk. I just went through the articles and books I brought back, and I realised I have read a lot. Tapi tulisnya tidak la pulak kan. Haiyaaa.....*kicks self!*

I guess I should take it one day at a time, huh? Ok ke if gunakan alasan yang I baru je beranak? err.....

Anyway, sionce my theoretical framework punye chapter tak siap2 lagi, sebab ai tak baca2 lagi pasal modernity, i guess I would work on that first. I am giving myself a week to write on modernity and cultural identity. I hope I can meet that deadline.

Once that is done, I nak kemaskini my theoretical framework punye chapter, maybe i'll give myself 3 days.

Pastu, I should work on my data analysis. Tak tahulaa kenapa lembab sangat nak tulis data analisis ni! Ok, thats it. I must start working already. No more miss alasan. Hmm..I wonder if the husband would allow me to lepak at stabux giant with aaron siang2 so that I can concentrate baca my articles. (macamla kat rumah tak leh baca kan?)

I really must stick to this la. Dah July dah ni. Pasni, August dah bulan posa. Then raya. Then tetiba dah balik Wien. I must finish writing before balik Wien. I must.

ok. enough ranting. I might as well read the article sementara everyone is asleep and tunggu laundry siap.

p/s: penat jadi sahm ni. buat housework, jaga anak, nak buat thesis lagi.

p.ps: went to ambik dani's report card today. Apparently my son is so helpful in class, bubbly, banyak bercerita, bff dgn uncle nizam, quite advanced for his age. And, my mak yang risau tulisan cucu dia tak cantik should see his handwriting kat skolah. I think kat rumah dia main2 because dah bosan kot. ihiks. and, the teacher cakap dia competent in all the hafazans. Alhamdulillah.

p/p/ps: cannot believe i have to chase 2 of my lecturers for my grades. rupa-rupanya, dia tak mark pon lagi my paper, and tak bawak balik pon a copy of that paper. Nasib baik i email dia!!!!

deadline lari

ni bulan june. akhir bulan june, i am supposed to have my data analysis chapter ready. tetapi....idak nampak pon batang hidung data analisis ittew!

I am just beginning to get used to my new routine. Today, despite Aaron being a wee bit difficult, I managed to write a few pages of my assignment. I hope this is a mark of a good beginning. Pelan-pelan kayuh, kan?

I still plan to finish writing in Malaysia, insyaAllah. Harap-harap semua dipermudahkan.

Lepas habis buat assignment, I must start writing on modernity, identity and cultural identity.

After that, I should start working on my data analysis chapter

Then, kena buat discussion and conclusion.

I really hope ideas would come and things would be made easy for me, insyaAllah. Nak kena doa and solat hajat everyday like I used to, tapi still cannot. :(

I think leaving AA and AD at mak's is a good idea. At least I get to work on my stuff at home. I do have my off days, days I just want to do NOTHING, but u know, at least being alone with Aaron gives me an opportunity to work on things, if I want to.

Oklah....I want to finish up my paper. Only about 1K words to go.

random conversation

wife: b, bila line linea nigra i ni nak hilang?

husband: err...tak hilang kot

wife: tapi dulu hilang. u sayang i lagi tak if tak hilang?

husband: *gelak2* of course

wife: i takut u geli je. u geli tak?

husband: *sibuk concentrate kat his slide for presentation*

wife: bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

husband: ye?

wife: u geli tak?

husband: tak lah

wife: *lega*

dan bila esok

ordered mcds again for today's lunch. :)

orang kata ai tak berpantang sangat. hm...maybe. but i still tak makan udang. and also tak makan pulut. and sayur2 sejuk.

what is important for me now is to produce yummy milk that is filling for my aaron. so, i make sure i drink milo every morning or petang. sometimes i also drink the longan and red dates tea, or that hot choc infused with fenugreek. and u drink loads of water as well!!!

pasal assignment, i managed to submit one on time. lagi satu tu, i am still working on it! haiyahh....am so slow ok. but i just gave birth, so its justified la kan? i wanted to stay up last night, but had this massive headache and terrible flu so i slept. today is better.I hope to fonish anaylzing today. and tonmorrow ro write the discussion and conclusion. hopeto submit it by Friday!!!

Ini Aaron

Aaron at a few minutes old

4 day old Aaron

pantang sorang2

last monday was my first attempt in berpantang sorang while taking care of my 3 boys. Mak aiii.. It was not an easy feat. And my plan to tulis my paper ke laut because the boys were going "mama nak .....", "mama aa/ad kacau". Dengan laundry and housework lagi, memang boleh pengsan!

So, on tuesday, i decided tht ad and aa shld be sent to my moms and aaron and i wld stay at home. Things were much better! I managed to get my housework done in the morning and tgh hari, i started working on my assignment.

Anyhoo, its not easyla pantang without helper. I was already doing housework at 4 days post op. Bukan nak tunjuk kuat ke apa. Sakit tu sakit, tapi if x buat, siapa plak nak buat. Dr Sunshine helps around so that is a blessing. :)

pasal makan, my mom sends over lunch. Tapi today i feel like ordering gcb.hehe. Cuma tetiba realized i only have euros with me. So, ingat pinjam duit aaron dulu. Hehe.

My diet now consists of gallons of water, milo pagi and malam which i alternate with hot choc yg ada fenugreek. I drink strawberry milk as well and try to eat lots of protein. Semua ni to help increase milk production. The hot choc with fenugreek sedap but it makes me peluh so much!!!!

Assignment i tak siap2 lagi. Haih.am still unbelievably quite relaxed about it. Hari ni, i plan to settlekan my chai latte projek and continue my other paper esok. Tula..ingat nak burn the midnite oil tonite to get it done. Cuma tula...my aa and ad tu, if nak tido, nak i ada in the room with them. Bila im in there, i pon join them. Hehe.

Klah...nak rehat2 jap. Headache. Ate ponstan already so i hope it'll go away soon.