lega sikit

hari ni i feel a bit lega cos i found out that i can start my German (level2) in April. so, insyaAllah ada la masa for me to rest2 after my geburt.

tapi.....nak rest kat mana nie? rumah pon tak de lagik. tsk. *stress*

and nana's advice to take it by the moment adalah benar.

p/s: kenapa that landlord person tak angkat tefon nie? tsk.

*update*
yeay...another thing on my risau list crossed out. tiket dani can be claimed!!! Alhamdullillah.

3rd post of the day

Dear blog,

Wie gehts?Ich kann nicht schlafen, weil, ich bin besorgt. Heute, ich bin allein! Ahhh....aber, was kann ich sagen?

aiyoo..its so obvious that i am daed BORED with a capital B. I thank god I chat-ed with b online just now and one of my friend called me. if not, tak tahula.

i studied for a bit today. wanted to make nasi ayam but was too hungry to wait for the whole process, so i made maggi tom yam instead. ihiks. but now, i am hungry again. tsk.

anyhoo...i am worried and i don't know who to tell.

i am worried about finding a flat. sempat tak nie?
i am worried about my upcoming exam. i really need to pass (hajat di hati nak score la kan) so that i can proceed to the next level without any difficulty. mana nak cari past year papers ek??
i am worried about my boy's flight ticket.boleh claim ke idak ni if tak naik mas?
i am worried if i beranak before my exams!!!
i am worried if i will be strong enough to go for classes after i give birth. i hope my next level of german will start in april so that i can rest sket after i give birth.
i am worried about the child care situation (as in who is going to help take care of AA after my mom balik) when I go for classes.
i am worried about my sons' residence permit application AND versicherung situation.
i am worried about that grant kereta which i have stoopidly misplaced.
i am worried that k.pt has yet to bayar balik what i tuntut. but it has only been a month that i posted my claims.

antara semua di atas, the thing that is worrying me MOSTEST is the flat situation (risau tak sempat cari flat, tak cukup duit for deposit, nak beli barang rumah AND at the same time nak kena ada duit sket kan just in case anything happens masa beranak) AND my exams!!!

i really need to pass, with flying colours to boot, just so that i can proceed to the next level. ada 3 level tahu(so that will be a whole year of doing just German for me). Thats the pre-requisite. kemudian, saya ada 2 semester (hopefully begining this coming winter, which will be in october) to buat coursework lelain. dan kemudian proceed with my thesis.

saya kena bekerja keras. saya nak lulus dan balik cepat cepat ke pangkuan keluarga tersayang. i hope to be back before Dani enters year 1, y'all.

doakan untuk saya ye.

-saya yang sangat risau-

p/s: saya juga risau pasal benda2 yg tak perlu seperti, kenapa rumet saya dah 2 minggu tak balik? best sangat ke bercuti di poland? padahal she just came back from a europe tour. jadi saya risau if ada perkara yang bukan-bukan berlaku kepadanya. boleh?
p.p/s: saya sangat rindukan mak, along, abang, akak, auntie rahimah, my nephews and nieces and of course Dr Sunshine dan Dani. apatah lagi apabila mendapat sms dari mak yang menyatakan malam esok, abang saya gegenize doa selamat dengan lauk pauk yang sedap-sedap. saya rindu nak ber-family gathering dan makan sedap-sedap ni.
p.p.p/s: saya juga sangat-sangat rindukan roti telur banjir dan teh ais dari fari.z. oh..san juga roti tampal dari restoran ami.r. dan juga roti bakar, karipap dan teh c unclelim.
p.p.p.p/s: Meine dreitel hochzeit ist um Donnerstag. Aber, ich kann nicht mit meinem Man zusammen treffen. Ich bin traurig! Und, was geschenkt kann ich meiner Man geben? betulkah grammar saya ini?

tak ada kerja

no, actually,i need to study. and call up some ppl with regards to the apartment that i want to view. but since today is sunday, and over here, sunday is regarded as a day to rest, i decided to not call the landlord of that house. i shall call that person tomorrow. today just doesnt feel right, boleh?

anyhoo...last nite, after talking to b...i started surfing the net to look for berpantang sendiri tips. tapi tah cemana termasuk forum pasal kindys. hiihih...and i found a kindy that i would want to send dani to! and mak segera mengemail Dr Sunshine to tell him about it.boleh?? padahal nak hantar anak ke skolah tahun depan, insyaAllah.

tetapi.yes...ada tetapinyer.

tetapi, yesterday, Dr Sunshine and family (which includes MIL, SIL, biras and etc) went to visit our housing area just to see the develpoment. and the dinding semua dah naik u ols!!!! it has already look like a real house.not just some pillars and batu bata.yeay!!!! cuma, i think the insides tu masih dalam proses la kan. and Dr Sunshine said that he couldnt really go that near cos that area was still closed for construction. tapi yang penting, rumah kami dah nak siap. yeay yeay. padanla bulan ni kena bayar banyak sket kat bank...tsk.

so, Dr Sunshine said, if rumah siap this year, he will be moving to BSP with Dani boy. which means, my research on good kindy ittew was in vain. which means that i have to do a research all over again. tapi, research2 benda camni i suka!!! i wish i have the same enthusiasm to buat my german grammar macam ni.

Oleh ittew, i think, from next year onwards, mmg macam confirm jer Dani will be going to kindy. cos if not, siapakah yang akan menjaga anak saya ittew semasa papa dia pi keje kan? and kesiaaannn...cos he would have to attend the 1 day kindy instead of half day. i wonder how it will be like since my boy is one manja boy. but, since i am planning to go back for this years christmas holidays with AA (yer..mak tak sedar diri..beranak pon belum tapi dah feeling2 nak balik xmas okei), i would obviously extend my stay mungkin ponteng kelas beberapa hari to spy on Dani going to kindy.

yer...i can already imagine me and AA in the car ngintip my first born. adakah mak terlalu obses dengan anak sendiri? gasaklaaaa... i don't know how the rest of you do it.

i tell you...its going to be a WHOLE FREAKING YEAR before Dani goes to kindy and i am already obsessing about it.

ahh....anak mama dah besar.

cannot believe that u were this tiny before.

dani anak papa

dani when he just turned 1!

anyhoo, borak-ed with hubby today. wanted to talk to my son but he had other engagements!! at only 2, my dear son ni dah bleh pi jalan2 tinggalkan papa dia kat rumah. he went to his uncle's house dengan his cousins. apparently, Dr Sunshine actually tak ndak bagik cos i told him i wanted to talk to dani online, tetapi dani threw a fit!!! nangis dengan sayu sambil buat drama hindustan goleng2. aiyoo...my son is starting to show his temper laaa.

so, Dr Sunshine told me, if Dani wants something, like air, or makan, or jalan, ussually, he wants it there and then. very much like me...hhiihihih...tapi, the papa would tell him that u r going to be an abang and have to set an example for AA. slalunya, after being told that he has to set an example ittew, muka dia akan berplaing ke dinding and senyaaaaaaapppppppppppppp jer..ala2 emo macam mama dia gak..tapi mama takla pandang ke dinding .huhuhu

now...y do i say dia anak papa? cos papa dresses him up!and spoils him. (yelaa..i didnt even think of buying a thomas the engine's milk bottle for dani okei). kasut or sandal....nak adidas. yg crocs ciplak we bought him at giant tu, mmg la dah getting smaller. so once papa bought him that adidas sandals, terus dani sorok his crocs ciplak okei!!! dia sorok taw!!!

and, if naik keta, and the sun is shining, he will pakai sunnies. ikut papa gak. hmmm....Dr Sunshine said that mula2 dia saja pakaikan his extra sunnies for him cos he sits at the front with papa kan. but now, if sun bersinar sket jer, dia dah pandai bukak glove compartment sendiri and amik the sunnies and pakai.

thats my son!

me vs man u

i can never win.

even if i wear the sexiest lingerie ever and pose pose seductive, i will still be asked to enjak sket cos i am blocking his view.

kenapa?

cos man.u tetap man.u dan ia tetap akan bertakhta di hati Dr Sunshine.

house hunting

I am currently looking for a flat in Wien. penat okei nak cari rumah ni. i thank god that my auntie is helping me with all this. tapi semalam, tetiba rasa like i menyusahkan dia aja. so, from today onwards, i think i shall go view the house on my own, and if it looks okei, i shall bring her along. okei tak?

so, i shall call this number that i found at the uni.

just now, i went to the uni to ask when is the registration for summer. apparently, i will have to wait for my exam, pastu baru bleh register. oh ok la if gittew.

and this morning, i received a phone call from the embassy. i need to sort out some documents in order to register for AA's birth cert and also buat passport.

1.3 photos
2.original IC of parent
3. Parents' passport
4. Marriage cert
5.Birth cert of hubby
6. Baby

Passport
1.3 photos
2.original IC of parent
3. Parents' passport
4. Marriage cert
5.Birth cert of hubby
6. Bank draft 25pounds bawah nama Malaysian High Commission London

ittew sahaja.

pastu, i am freaking out about my upcoming exams. i want to look for past year papersto practice tapi tak tau nak cari kat mana/

and, i am looking for a creche untuk AA nanti. registration is in feb but technically, i cant register yet cos AA tak beranak lagik.

things to do
-cari rumah
-email faz (so lembab tau minah ni...!!!) about family allowance which ukm is supposed to give
-email zaindn about flight ticket (tapi cuti panjang la plak kan!! stress mak)
-study
-find out about creche (hv emailed uni's facility but have yet to get a reply)
-mintak mak tlg cari gran kereta (siapa tahu ek...cemana nak buat if geran ilang??)
-STUDY!
-buy books for ubung purposes
-email perwakilan vienna msia to be a member
-email kpt to ask when are they going to bank in my elaun perkakasan and also my tuition fees.
-finalise on things for Dr Sunshine to beli and bawak sini.

ittew saja buat masa ni kot. the list will be updated from time to time

weint

i feel sad today.

i am not feeling well.i have a very bad sore throat, flu (sampai berdarah2 idung mak..tsk). on top of that, i am worried sick about finding a flat for me to live in.

the flat has to be at least 57sq m. yes. ppl here ada regulation whereby if 3 ppl were to stay at the flat, each person must at least have 19sq m for themselves. ini tak kira la sama ada org itu besar bagak or a small tiny baby. and rent for a place that big is approximately 700euros (excluding utility bills).

also, i am worried cos exam is on the 2nd and my due date is on the 8th.

and, i had a big shouting match over the phone tadi with my other half which left me sobbing.

i am indeed very sad.

and i have never felt so alone and helpless in my entire life.