kuasa Allah

perut maju ke depan (according to eus)

at 4am plus today, I woke up with a massive contraction pain yg amat sangat. sakit blakang, to my perut up till me peha okei. and, i dono why, but my left side seemed to be experiencing more pain than my right side.

the sakit tu, teramat sgt till i cannot duduk. i had to stand, jenjalan sesambil berfikir..am i in labour?? and doa2..please...if i am..please bagi petunjuk (ie: water broke atau that bloody show). Dr Sunshine called and advised me to go to hospy, tapi i rasa tak mo pi. reason being, if nak pi hospy, have to call ambulance...and what if its just cik Toni Braxton yang buat performance kan?

walaupun masa Dr Sunshine call tu, mak dah nangis2 kesakitan (sesambil pegang and sniffsniff baju dia feeling2 he's around), mak tak nak gak call ambulans.

my along dah mesej dah tanya are u in hospy??aiyoo...cemana tah bleh ada miscommunication yang mengatakan mak dah masuk spital plaakkk... *matila drama swasta*. then i had to clarify yang i am still in my flat cos my dear mother dah panic city mengenangkan anak manja dia ni sensorang....*terharu*

so, sesambil fenfeeling berjihad pon ada, dan trying to baca ayat2 yang patut dan juga jalan kehulu-kehilir, i thot "I was so wrong.Braxton Hicks adalah lebih teruk dari piles yang ku benci ittew."

pastu, i decided, since I cannot tido, apa kata semayang Subuh. so, i did. and after that, i thot...if Maryam could beranak all alone and menghadapi pregnancynyer alone(dgn bantuan Allah of course), I could do it too! And, tah naper, terinspirasi plak nak baca surah Maryam ittew after Subuh. so I did.

And u know what??

Dengan kuasa Allah, i could tolerate the pain and actually fell asleep!!!!

Alhamdullillah.

And now, I just need to get through one more day...just one day jer lagik, alone.

hari ni kena duk diam2 kat rumah. tapi bleh tak agaknyer if nak pi Hoffer?? nak beli tomato puree laaa...(yes...mak still fenfeeling nak masak kuah spaghetti ittew! *fenfeeling isteri and ibu mithali*)