bila sakit

Two nights ago, I woke up at about 3am because I was experiencing stomach cramps. It comes and goes and really felt like contraction pain. Mungkin ia adalah Braxton Hicks. Anyway, it was so painful that I couldn't sleep.

Jadi, saya telefon Dr Sunshine untuk mengadu & dan dan tu jugaklah menangis sambil mengadu tu. haih. Tapi betul sakit uols!!!! Lepas mengadu dan sambil-sambil Dr Sunshine cuba memujuk saya dan tried to calm me down on the phone, I said goodbye and cried myself to sleep. Masa tu, rasa sedih sangat sebab pregnant sorang-sorang. Tak de sapa nak urut-urut belakang. No tangan for me to bite or squeeze when I am in pain. It was just me, baby, and God. *feeling-feeling ala-ala Mariam*

Tula...dok gatal baca blog orang lain yang pregnant. Bila baca, rasa mcm bestnyaaaaa bila pregnant dengan suami di sisi: suami tolong massagelah, tolong masak dan manja-manjakan dorang, belikan makanan and layan their cravings. Jealous? Of course la ada terasa juga. Yela, siapa tak nak pregnant dengan husband di sisi?? Tapi, ai tabahkan aje hati. Cuma 2 nights ago tu, I tak tahan sangat. Yela...sakit. And it was 3am. I was worried about the baby. And, I had no one with me. :(

It is not easy being pregnant and away from family. Tapi nothing ever is kan?

Jadi, if you are one of those lucky ones to be pregnant with your husband by your side, sila bersyukur - even when your husband berdengkur je tidur bila u kejut dia banyak kali sebab sakit belakang/ tak le tido/ Braxton Hicks. Dan, sila appreciate apa yang suami buat untuk anda, even benda tu nampak macam kecik je and something that is assumed as memang patut dia buat pon (like basuh pinggan). Sebab at the end of the day, you still have him by your side. Biarlah dia tengah berdengkur pon, you can still sondol-sondol and tidur bawah ketiak dia or take his arms (secara paksarela) and wrap it around yourself.

I miss my husband.